Bullying is one damaging things !!! My AngeL being bullied at school and I have tried many ways for this to stop... from speaking to the teachers to the Headmaster, to taking her off school because she was upset !!

I am soooooooooooooooo mad right now... I was approaching the case in a very polite and diplomatic manners so that the kids would not feel as if I was "bulliying" them... but this two particular kids just keep annoying my daughter and call her names !

I brought up my child to be against violence in any form - violence can come in many form .. not just physical abuse but mentally abuse can also be categorized as violence - therefore, when my Angel at school she was in her own beautiful manners and trying to get along with her friends. I am not saying she is perfect but I make sure that she always look after the weak one and young one - she would never hurt anyone, she would not hit anyone back...........not because she is weak but because I advice her that Violence doesn't solved anything but yet she was being hurt physically and mentally at school - I am disappointed by the school for not taking this matter too seriously !

Bullying had caused so many problems in the world........ many kids was damaged thru out their life, mind you even as an adult sometime we experience bullying if we allow it. Some adult defenceless... so you can imagine what it can do to a developing kids ???

I am so mad... I have taken some actions........ I am waiting now for further conduct from school or I might have to take the matter in my own hand by speaking directly to the bullies parents... well... things must be done.... :( - I am so cranky because of this... because I love and take good care of my Angel so for anyone want to hurt her both physically and mentally... whoever they are must deal with me directly !! I don't even care who I have to deal with !!

Gggrrrrrrrrrrr.... I just don't need some more sh1t in my life !!  Oh GOD....... Pls help me...

I haven't been here for awhile now... somehow life consumed me and amazingly taking so much of my time lately. I am running errand like a mad chook =p

What's been happening lately ?? well... my bro got married !! Finally he's given up being a JOMBLO ( Bachelor ) and decided to marry his girlfriend of 2 years. By Western standard perhaps 2 years not that long enough to get to know someone before marrying but in Eastern standard it is kinda : GET MARRIED ALREADY !! xixixxi

I miss him great deal.. he is my bro as well my best buddy. I miss having him around and stay up late with him and just chillin' talk about nothing or gone somewhere on his motorbike to get something or whatever.  I understand that he is a husband now........ and I don't want to let him go but... that wouldn't be fair, right ?? after all he is still going to be around and being a bro always...... just a little less time :D darn ! hihihi...

I'm going to miss him but being a big sister I must keep that to myself... I have to learn to let my baby bro enjoying his life with his new Bride and be happy. His happiness is my happiness as well. :)

As for me..... I am busy doing so many things - my time always being used for doing something for others :) I need a holiday ! ....what am I talking about ? I am on holiday of a lifetime ! Doing what I enjoy most... helping others... I just hope that someday I can do more for them.

I'm getting older... my hair start to show its age :D few greys there lol.. nevertheless, my mind can still be like a child sometime ! In deep thinking sometime but joking about most of the time.... I'm still alone, single and just being a mother for my AngeL who is 11 years old now :) - and she still won't accept anyone ie: men, in my life... I mean she get along with some of my male friends but she won't accept if I get too close with one of them. She suddenly put out these shield and protecting herself and me. I am not sure if she ever change... but either way, her happiness is far more important than mine.The stability at her age are crucial. I rather having her trust than anything else.

.... dating is challenge anyway lately :) - A total challenge when I have to pick him up and deliver him home ?? huhuhuh what the world turn into ?? Goodness... Have the world gone sissy in the male territory ?? hieheihihi... The role had reversed ?? I am a strong and independent woman and drive my own wheels anywhere by myself but when it comes to dating ....please... even a strong woman need to be treated special sometime :D - Am I whingeing ?? maybe... but I just can't see dating someone who want me to pick him up from his house for a date and deliver him back home afterward while I had to drive a long way back to my home........ and I have to pay for the date ?? bllaaarrghhhhhhhhhhhh !! Just because I am older doesn't mean I have to provide for dating !! Bloody hell... Those boys just assume that I am older, got steady job, got money, etc therefore I am vurnerable ? Therefore I will surrender myself to any boys ?? GIVE ME A BREAK ! I don't need those type of boys !! Thank you very much... I do not expect for them to pay all the time when going out with me BUT don't expect me to pay everything everytime when we go out either !! Where's their pride... So I rather be alone than going out with some sissy who just want to take advantage of me. Sexually or financially... I just can't believe some of them. One want to visit me from a distance place..... but he expect me to pay for his accomodation.. huh ?? he wanted to see me but he expect me to pay for his accomodation :D *sigh* what a cheapskate ! So , I give up dating and just get on with life... as long as I am happy, I do not need to seek happiness elsewhere......... :)

Perhaps one of this day... A proper gentleman will come along and treat me right... don't have to be like a princess but just respectfull and NORMAL !! not like some of those boys who think that they GOD's given to women ?? Eugh... *puke* lol.

So........ enough rambling for now... I must train my hand and brain to be able to write again... my mind rather slow at the moment :D

Enough for now..... take care and be happy :) xo 

Whats happening lately ? The Ramadhan still going for another 2 weeks + and so far so good... Somehow I found it a bit quite this time around... dunno why ? usually there's so much noise when this time of the year come around. :( maybe perhaps because after all the disasters that happened in my country everybody sort of keep it to themself in respect of other people pain. My bro is getting married !! In October :) - I think he finally found the girl that he want to spend the rest of his life with - dunno whether it is good or not for him =p heeiwhwihiahai

I hope it is a good thing for them both :) - GOD Bless them for taking the next big step ! No doubt there will be lil' feet running around soon and fill the house with more laughter..

I am so look forward to be an Aunty again............... My AngeL, get a good report from school ! Yeehaaaaa... Good on ya Possum ! Mom N Dad N Nana N Everyone soooo proud of you... especially ME ! All your hardwork this semester just paid off :) - With the smile on her face she showed me the report.. and her nose twitching a bit as a sign that she is a bit shy about it :) isn't she just cute... Here she is...........

Other than that... all is well in Easter front ! Will tell you more later when I get over this stupid Vertigo :) Much Love from The Tropical Paradise xxoo Owh BTW :.......... Somehow this song by t.A.T.u gets me lately. Everytime I listen to it, I'm just like so...... intoxicated :D - Just gorgeous... Even the Russian rap thingy I love listen to it... EVEN if I don't understand what that mean :P The music itself..... just awesome !! Anyway, this is the lyric...

STARS

How did we ever go this far

You touched my hand and start the car
And for the first time in my life,
I am crying Are we in space do we we belong
Some place where no-1 calls it wrong
And like the stars who burn away The miles

[Russian Rap:] Ya zvezda, ty zvezda.
Nas prikazano szhech.
Kto-to sdal I dostal Adresa nashikh vstrech.
Potolki po glazam I nikto ne naidet.
Soskol'znut golosa, I slomaetsya led.
I nich'ya bez klyucha, I mogila postel'.
I pora vyklychat', I oni na khvoste.
Ulybnis', razvyazhi, Zanaves' zerkala Razorvi, I skazhi.
Umerla, umerla. Zamykai I lizhi Stanovis' nikakoi.
I ruka ne drozhit Vse v poryadke s rukoi. Mozhno mstit'.
Dvajdi dva Na taksi I sosi A prostit' nikogda, Nikogda ne prosi.
Khorosho, khorosho. Ya pridumala mest'. Poroshok vse chto est'.
Umnozhayu na shest'. Ne zvoni, ne zvoni.
Ya ustala, ya ustala.
Ya tebya ne khochu Ty menya za***la

How did we ever get this far
It shouldn’t have to be this hard
Now for the first time in my life am flying
Are we in love? do we deserve
To build the shame of this whole world
And like the night we camouflage denial

[Russian Rap:]
Nikogda nichego, Nichego ne nachat'.
Nikogda nikogo, Umirat' i molchat'.
Ne iskat', ne lyubit', Ne zhalet', i ne spat'.
Nikogda, nikuda Nikogo ne puskat'.
Ne vdvoem. I ub'em. Im prisnit'sya voda.
Ne tvoe. Ne moe. Provoda. Provoda.
Geroin, pulsa net, Tol'ko ty ne pri chem.
Abonent otklyuchen...

How did we ever go this far
You touched my hand and start the car
And for the first time in my life, I am crying
Are we in love? do we deserve
To build the shame of this whole world
And like the night we camouflage denial

The Shangrila...... I was visiting friend awhile back that come to JKT for business at The Shangrila Hotel. I was there for business and dinner meeting with couple of friends. I was dressed elegantly, polite and professional.

Dinner and meeting went well, I caught up with possibly future boss or business partner as well as old friend I've known for few years - back dated when I was in Australia. After dinner.. we went up to his room for coffee and further discussion - all of us was in mode for business and none of us was drunk nor unprofessional.......We had discussion over coffee and all went smoothly.....

Anyway, I left the room around 10 or 11 PM, can't remember exactly, as soon as the meeting was over. I got to get home before too late because I still have to drive to Skyline Building to fetch my car then to my house in North Jkt - yes,I drove alone and park my car there because I wasn't sure how to get to The Shangrila. But that's not the problem...

As I was thinking about the business meeting, I came out of the lift going toward the main entrance, thinking I should get a cab.... within seconds I was approached by dark clothed security guards ( I assumed security guards ) - I thought no problem... normal procedures in big hotel such as this one.. I went along politely with whatever questions they asked me that I was there visiting my friend for business meeting.

Alas, they asked for my ID and looking and treat me like I was some hooker or criminal ! They asked me to open my bag and I did, only to find my personal belongings and a small box of chocolate that my mate gave me to give to Angel as he knew Angel as well and fond of her.

They asked me as if I took the chocolate despite I already explained to them that it was given !! I also mentioned the name of my friend but forgot the room number as it was not that important to me at the time.... I was there not more than 2 hours !!

I was disappointed with The Shangrila service and treatment.... because I was treated quite baddly and I felt like a total bad person and dirty. I asked them to call my friend, I gave them his full name !! but they didn't make the call but keep looking at me like piece of dirt - what a pair of assholes !! ......they didn't even checked the next person who came out of the lift after me !!!!!!! So not professional !

I was furious when I left the place - and I called my mate to tell him what's going on and he said since he's been staying there often he will speak to the Manager of The Shangrila due to the incident. Nevertheless, I was unhappy and felt humiliated by those security guards who had no common sense and manner toward guests despite what are their business there... whether people come to stay or just having drink or meal or whatever..... they don't have the right to treat anyone rudely ! Especially to the ladies.... what do they think ? A Lady can't come to the hotel without hooking themself ?? candy azz bastard !

I can afford to stay there if I wish to but they didn't think that I supposed. This is the 1st experience I've ever had in my entire time I am in Indo - due to work I travel to all over Indonesia and stayed in so many different hotels from 5 stars to just a shack in the middle of nowhere but none treat me like The Shangrila security guards did !Bozzo ! Big hotel like that for goodness sake - get a pro for staffs will ya ! It was unprofessional and so low..... I don't think my mates will stay there anymore. Neither will I !

STARS

How did we ever go this far

You touched my hand and start the car

And for the first time in my life,

I am crying Are we in space do we we belong

Some place where no-1 calls it wrong

And like the stars who burn away The miles

How did we ever get this far

It shouldn’t have to be this hard

Now for the first time in my life am flying

Are we in love? do we deserve

To build the shame of this whole world

And like the night we camouflage denial

How did we ever go this far

You touched my hand and start the car

And for the first time in my life,

I am crying

Are we in love? do we deserve

To build the shame of this whole world

And like the night we camouflage denial

ALL JUST DENIAL.........

Ahhh... The monsoon rain is here again. Eachday the tropical Islands of Paradise kinda greyish colour :) - nevertheless, it is still looking quite awesome and hope GOD bless all the people in it ! 

Despite the country in turmoil with all the natural and un-natural disasters, we still manage to smile to whoever come to our country and hope that they will enjoy their stay... after all, they come all the way here from across the globe to see our country, so least we could do are making sure that our guests feel very much welcome... a smile doesn't cost that much :D  but what if the guests is arogant or heartless or ignorant ?

The hot flowing mud still attacking the East part of Java, and almost drown that part of the island along with any hopes... the houses.. the schools... the offices.. the shops... anything there was, now is just huge pool of hot mud and at anytime the gas pipes could burst into flame again and might danger as well as killed so many people, again !

If I want to close my eyes in order to blind myself stupid from it, I am sure I can... but my heart never one able to avoid such situation. Our government "doing" their best to do what they can........ the company that was doing the damage also doing what they can... BUT ! What can we do when the stomach need to eat ? Where the children can go to continue their study so they can eventually not making the same mistakes as these people who claimed themself as " very smart " ? Where the farmers can go and grow something so they can produce essential food for the locals and others ? where mothers can provide their food on the table without any money ? where fathers go to work so they can feed their family ?? Damm if I know !!

What I don't understand would be......... where are the HELP for these people... they live under harsh and very poor condition yet, new exclusive aeroplane was being bought............. and spending so much money, our people money, just for 5 hours visit of Mr . President of the Numero Uno Country !! We could used the money to feed our people... am I being stupid or unreasonable ? Emergency situation right in front of our eyes but we are busying ourself just for 1 man ?? while we've got hundreds and hundres of people homeless, penniless, starving... lost... dead... scared... Open your eyes government, set your priority right ! are we totally heartless to our own people ?? As far as I concern Mr.Bush can land on that huge pool of mud for all I care ! Not damaging the land of our heritage of Bogor and using all of our money ( the money we haven't got ) to pay respect to him who was here for just a mere 5 hours ? I understand his "point of talking" but... can he really see that the country is in turmoil therefore the least he could do would be stop talking but action already :)

While he's jetsetting wherever he "wish" to... the people in our country still hungry, homeless, lost, etc & not by choice.......... open your eyes mr. bush while you were sitting comfortably on the whatever plane you was in.. and truly feel the pain and suffering of others...

Disasters and tough luck happen all the world, yes but... the point being would be HOW to eliminate it or lessen it ? not just by some comfort words !! Words doesn't feed anyone or educate anyone... no, unfortunately...not that way anyway..

So yes, this islands of paradise is beautiful but doesn't mean we are lounging around under the coconut tree and having siesta while our brothers, sisters, children, mothers, fathers, grandma... grandpa suffering just a few kilometers away !! I am not going to tell you what I've done but  let me tell you... when you see a child running aimlessly crying looking for their mother/ father and hungry... Your heart felt like being crushed over and over again...... I am living it everyday !

Have sense will ya !