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| 12.01.03 (3:40 am) [edit] |
I woke up early this morning and feeling rather cold, as I have not completely done with the flu. I woke up , did my morning pray and sat outside to see the world this morning and planning what I wish to do today...
I heard the birds sing... and I thought hmmm... I wonder what they are talking about, I wonder what it would be like if I can understand them... would I be happier or sadder ?? :)) Wallahu'allam..
Animals know many things before us ,human, so perhaps I don't really want to understand what they are talking about... :), I want my surprises :)
I decided to "see" my beloved daddy today..... So I conned my bro to take me "there" and as we just about to go the rain came... little drizzle of rains , so peaceful, so serene, the morning was quiet and calm. Making me miss my daddy even more.
After an hour of waiting finally the rain stopped and we ride our motor cycle to see dad. The distance not so far but not close either, but the way there... it is all the memory of how my parents start their living in the big city and make it together :) just with love and devotion to eachother. We went passed the places they used to lived and places where our parents took us when we were little, I don't remember all of it but some that I can remember was great , fond memories :)
So we got where our beloved daddy laid peacefuly, in his bed of mother earth and nature.... we recite the "Yassin" and prayed for his peace in his barzah world / after life . May he rest in peace...
I talked to him and tell him couple of things then slowly make our way home afterward.
My day started peacefuly and now the night also end peacefuly , knowing that all is well ...
Rain Rain...
Its raining , its pouring...
The old man is snoring....
He went to bed and bump his head..
and couldn't get up in the morning :)
Rain rain... go away..
Come again another day..
Lil' Angel want to play..
Rain rain go away.... :)
Nursery rhyme... thought I just remind you guys how sweet it was to be lil and loved and free ...:)
BTW: just to highlight my night... let me just think about Durian for couple of seconds ok !!! It's season, yum yum yummmm... :D
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| Jealousy !! |
| 11.29.03 (9:56 pm) [edit] |
I was walking toward the local shop to get couple of things, groceries stuffs, nothing fancy *darn!*. Anyway, I walk passed this eatery place and I gaze in and I saw this couple sitting there eating and chatting away. Nothing special, right? I mean pretty normal scene...
I get to the shop, get what I want and walk back home... and again I went pass the eatery place..but the couple had gone. As I walk further, there they are.... walking hand in hand and I saw his wife with her huge tummy.. aahh.. she's pregnant.... :) and the way they walk... the way he look at her... the way he smile at her... the way she look at him...
Most of all the way he rub her tummy while they were walking.......
I am JEALOUS !!! damm, I am...
I wanna be like them... but I ain't got no man to pregnant me with =P~ *bugger!!*
I am still walking alone beside my Angel, I suppose that is very blessing but... I had never had that kind of pregnancy , where love was obvious... :(
I was with someone but there wasn't much affections going on.. not the way it had to be at the time.
But I still consider myself lucky, I had someone back then, where I saw some girls had no one at all when they become a mother...bless you all single mothers.
BUT !! The story today... is that I am jealous to see that affections and I wanna be pregnant and have my tummy rubbbbbbbbbbb !!! haohaohahhaohao..... desperate ?? Yeah I am desperate to be a mother again , damm right !! I'll be beautiful 30-something soon and my body clock ticking !!! Honey...!!! get your ass over here and marry me and get me pregnant or I kick yer ass !! =P~~ LoL !! Wasyem!!
Do I have to adopt a father ???? hiehiehiehiehe...
It is all funny subject now but not at the time when I saw those couple ... :oops: I was jealous....
Got Some idea ????????
Honey I am hinting on ya !! :wink: , luv ya hun...
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| If Love........ |
| 11.29.03 (4:21 am) [edit] |
[i]"If love is great, and there are no greater things, then what I feel for you must be the greatest..." [/i]
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| Bahibak Ya Habbib |
| 11.29.03 (3:20 am) [edit] |
Just got an sms from my honey. Eugh... he hurt his foot , fell off the stairs at his mate house last night :(, poor babe...
No wonder I have not heard from him :( , being miles away from him isn't a good things in time like this, infact it isn't a good thing to be away from him at all times.
The poor darling must rest his foot for awhile now. I think he damage it pretty good although not broken but I think he twisted pretty baddly. :(
Wish I can do something.....
Hmmm.... wish he was here... I could have at least comfort him :) or just simply give him a hug and tell him all is well and that he will get better soon...
Poor honey...
Get better soon sweety :), bahibak habibbie..wahastini..
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| Love & Friendship |
| 11.28.03 (4:18 am) [edit] |
*One day there were 2 old crippled men sharing a room in a hospital which they
both shared the two single bedded room. The first old man could not walk and
was blind and he had his bed in the corner of the room furtherest away from
the window.
The second old man had cancer and he lay in the bed right next to the window.
Every morning the blind man would ask his room mate to tell him what was going
on out side the window, So every morning the old man with cancer would sit up
in his bed and Tell the blind man about how beautiful the sun was and how all
the kids were playing out side, how the dogs were barking and how on even the
darkest days there was always a beautiful rainbow. This went on for about a
year and the 2 old men grew a really good friendship between each other.
Then one morning the blind man woke up and called over to his friend to fill
him in on what was happening that glorious morning. But for the first time his
friend did not answer.
The blind old man buzzed for the nurse imediately and with in 20 seconds the
nurse attended him.
He asked her where was the where about of his friend?
So she said to him saddly that he did not make it and had died that night and
that he would have some one new in his room later on in the evening.
The broken hearted blind man then kindly asked the nurse if he could move to
the bed closest to the window?
The nurse replied, "what would be the point of that, you can't see anything",
The blind man answered at least he could hear the children play and the dogs
barking.
The nurse just looked at the blind man in confusion and said, 'How could you
do that, there is only a brick wall outside your window", . . . . . . . .
The moral of story is no matter how bad things are a true friend will always
guide you through light even in the darkest moments.
Even though the the old man with cancer was surely going to die he would keep
painting beautiful ideas in the blind mans mind to keep his hopes alive.
===============Love & Friendship==============
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| Breathing.. |
| 11.27.03 (6:44 pm) [edit] |
Yeah I am still breathing after a long night with this damn cold and cough. Can't believe how irritating it was when you eyes so sleepy from taking cough mixture but your throat decided to go another way !!! So damm annoying trying to open your eyes and keep up with your cough :D
But at least today I got my voice back although not completely , now is the best time to call me because I have this sexy husky voice =P~ , perhaps sounds sexy without even trying , hhihihi =p
I am not gonna do much today... just going to chill and mending my cold thinking about something nice ... like what ???!!
I am longing walking down the beach and touch my feet on that glorious sand at the sea side....
The fresh blue water that enchanted our eyes...
The birds that fly across above us :) , all so natural.
I question myself today, shall I go along with going back to Australia early December or should I wait until New Year over here in The busy town of Jakarta ??
Hm.... I would hate to spend New Year alone in Perth so I think I stick around until after New Year !!! :lol:
Got any plan people ??? Count me in alrite if you do :D
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| ** Beauty Tips ** |
| 11.27.03 (7:10 am) [edit] |
Beauty Tips !!
For attractive lips
Speak words of kindness.
For lovely eyes,
Seek out the good in people.
For a slim figure,
Share your food with the hungry.
For beautiful hair,
Let a child run his or her fingers through it once a day.
For poise,
Walk with the knowledge that you will never walk alone.
People, even more than things, have to be restored, renewed, revived, reclaimed, and redeemed;
Never throw out anybody.
Remember, If you ever need a helping hand, you'll find one at the end of your arm.
As you grow older, you will discover that you have two hands, one for helping yourself, the other for helping others.
The beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears,
The figure that she carries, or the way she combs her hair.
The beauty of a woman must be seen from in her eyes,
Because that is the doorway to her heart, the place where love resides.
The beauty of a woman is not in a facial mole,
But true beauty in a woman is reflected in her soul.
It is the caring that she lovingly gives, the passion that she shows.
And the beauty of a woman, with passing years, only grows!
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| Maturity... |
| 11.27.03 (3:29 am) [edit] |
As I've matured...
I've learned that you cannot make
someone love you. All you can do is
stalk them and hope they panic and give in.
I've learned that no matter how much I care,
some people are just assholes.
I've learned that it takes years
to build up trust, and it only takes
suspicion, not proof, to destroy it.
I've learned that you can get by
on charm for about fifteen minutes.
After that, you'd better have a big willy
or huge boobs.
I've learned that you shouldn't
compare yourself to others - they are
more screwed up than you think.
I've learned that you can keep vomiting
long after you think you're finished.
I've learned that we are responsible
for what we do, unless we are celebrities.
I've learned that regardless of
how hot and steamy a relationship is at
first, the passion fades, and there had better
be a lot of money to take its place!
I've learned that 99% of the time when
something isn't working in your house, one
of your kids did it.
I've learned that the people you care most
about in life are taken from you too soon
and all the less important ones just never go away.
Pass this along to 5 friends...trust me,
they'll appreciate it. Who knows, maybe
Something good will happen.
If not...tough shit
And I am still sick as a dog... eugh.... so hard doing my day to day chores without any voice !!! I think I might got the larangytis , bugger me !!
AAArghhhhhhhhhhhhhh !! *this the only shouting I can do for now...* hieheihieh....
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| Untuk Teman-teman Wanita |
| 11.26.03 (6:58 am) [edit] |
Ini ada sumbangan dari my sista LuDu , tolong dibaca dan mudah2an ada manfa'atnya buat teman-teman wanita, adik , kakak dan lain-lain...
Mudah-mudahan kita semua selalu dalam lindungan-NYA , amien...
[u][b]Tindakan Pencegahan terhadap Perkosaan[/b][/u]
Tolong forward info ini ke semua teman wanita yang kamu kenal...
Sebuah group pemerkosa di penjara pernah di-interveiw mengenai apa yang mereka lihat/ cari didalam mencari targetnya dan berikut adalah beberapa hal/ fakta menarik:
[u][b]Hal pertama [/b][/u]yang dilihat oleh mereka dalam mencari target adalah rambut. Mereka hampir biasanya mencari wanita dengan ponytail, sanggul, kepang atau model lainnya yang mudah di 'jambak'. Mereka juga lebih suka mencari wanita dengan rambut panjang. Wanita dengan rambut pendek sangat jarang menjadi target mereka.
[u][b]Hal kedua[/b][/u], mereka melihat pakaian yang dikenakan target. Mereka akan mencari wanita yang menggunakan pakaian mudah dilucuti dengan cepat.
Banyak dari mereka yang membawa gunting untuk hal ini. Mereka juga mencari wanita yang sedang berponsel atau yang sedang mencari sesuatu pada dompetnya atau yang sedang melakukan aktifitas lain sambil berjalan karena biasanya pada saat itu mereka sedang tidak siap/siaga dan mudah dilumpuhkan.
Waktu yang sering dicari oleh para pemerkosa untuk melakukan penyerangan dan memperkosa seorang wanita biasanya pada saat pagi buta, sekitar pukul 5 sd 8:30. dan malam hari. Tempat pertama yang biasanya sering dicari adalah trotoar, jalan tempat kaki lima dan kedua adalah tempat parkir kantor atau gedung. Ketiga adalah toilet umum.
Hal yang dilakukan oleh para pemerkosa ini adalah mereka mencari dan menggiring wanita target tersebut secepat mungkin ke tempat lain yang aman dimana mereka tidak takut tertangkap. Hanya 2% yang mengatakan mereka membawa senjata karena resiko pemerkosa tanpa senjata hanya 3-5 tahun sedangkan dengan senjata bisa mencapai 15-20 tahun penjara.
Jika anda melawan dengan gigih, mereka cenderung kecil hati karena hanya dalam waktu 1 s.d 2 menit, mereka akan sadar bahwa mengejar kamu tidak layak karena akan menghabiskan banyak waktu.
Para pemerkosa ini berkata bahwa mereka tidak akan mencari wanita dengan payung atau object sejenis yang dapat digunakan dari jarak tertentu ditangan wanita target mereka. Benda-benda kecil tidak dapat digunakan sebagai alat penangkis karena kamu harus berada sangat dekat dengan penyerang untuk menggunakan senjata tersebut. Maka idenya disini adalah untuk meyakinkan para pemerkosa ini bahwa kamu tidak layak sebagai target mereka.
Berikut terdapat beberapa mekanisme pertahanan yang dapat digunakan: Jika seseorang mengikutimu dari belakang di sebuah jalanan atau pada halaman garasi atau mengikuti kamu ke lift atau tangga, tataplah wajah mereka dan tanyakan sebuah pertanyaan seperti jam berapa saat ini atau saya tidak percaya hari ini dingin sekali diluar, cuaca kali ini benar-benar buruk. Nah, sekarang kamu sudah melihat wajah mereka dan dapat mengindentifikasi mereka apabila bertatapan langsung.
Oleh karena itu Kamu kehilangan daya tarik sebagai target. Jika seseorang datang menghampirimu, tahan tanganmu didepanmu dan teriaklah BERHENTI atau MUNDUR!
Kebanyakan pemerkosa yang diajak bicara mengatakan mereka akan meninggalkan wanita tersebut sendirian jika mereka berteriak atau menunjukkan bahwa mereka tidak takut untuk melawan. Lagipula, mereka mencari target yang mudah. Jika kamu membawa alat penyemprot mata (instruktur sangat menyarankan wanita membawa alat perlindungan ini dan membawanya kemanapun mereka pergi,) dan berteriak: Saya memiliki alat semprot (Pepper Spray) dan bersiaga untuk menggunakan nya, itu akan sangat menolong sebagai pencegah.
Jika seseorang menangkapmu, kamu tidak dapat melawan dengan tenaga, tetapi kamu dapat mengakali mereka dengan cara berikut: Setelah pukulan awal dilakukan, upayakan selalu mengincar selangkangan-nya. Saya tahu dari pengalaman khusus, bahwa jika kamu menyerang bagian vital pria akan membuat mereka sangat kesakitan. Mungkin kamu akan berpikir bahwa kamu akan membuat mereka marah dan membuat mereka ingin menyakiti kamu lebih, tetapi dari percakapan yang dikatakan para pemerkosa ini kepada instruktur; mereka mengatakan bahwa mereka mencari target yang tidak menyebabkan banyak masalah. Mulailah membuat masalah dan mereka akan menginggalkanmu. Ketika mereka meletakkan tangannya kepadamu, tangkap kedua jarinya dan lipat jarinya kebelakang sejauh mungkin dan dengan tenaga yang sekuat mungkin. Instruktur saya melakukan hal tersebut kepada saya tanpa menggunakan banyak tenaga dan saya menyerah dan kedua ruas jari saya berbunyi retak.
Tentu saja hal-hal lain yang pernah kita ketahui sebelumnya juga dapat ditarapkan disini. Selalu waspada terhadap situasi sekitarmu, berbarenglah dengan seseorang jika kamu bisa dan jika kamu melihat hal-hal yang aneh,jangan menyepelekannya. Gunakan nalurimu. Kamu mungkin saja merasa bodoh saat itu, tetapi itu akan lebih baik dari pada seandainya kejadian buruk itu sungguh terjadi.
TOLONG BACA DAN FORWARD PESAN INI KE SEMUA TEMAN WANITA YANG KAMU KENAL, HAL SEDERHANA INI AKAN DAPAT MEMBANTU MENYELAMATKAN HIDUPNYA.
Betapa fragile dan vurnerable hidup kita ini , bukan hanya untuk wanita tapi untuk rekan2 pria juga, karena target perkosaan bukan hanya pernah terjadi pada kaum wanita tapi pernah juga terjadi pada kaum pria... hati-hati yah....
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| Idul Fitri ... Minal Aidzin Wal Faidzin |
| 11.26.03 (4:40 am) [edit] |
Begini begini.... 8)
Hari ku dimulai dengan sholat Subuh dan dari situ siap-siap deh buat Sholat Ied ..... tapi... ah.. ketika mandi weleh... ternyata saya masih lampu merah pasar komplek !! Dudut !!
Padahal sudah sempat Subuhan...
Jadi dari situ kepanikan aku nyata banget... hayah...gimana coba ? mana sedang flu dan suaraku habis , kepalaku sakit. Angela dan aku sedang kena flu. Jadi ya kudu mandi anyway pagi2. Trus, abis mandi ganti baju yg bersih , rapi dan wangi :oops:.. konsul sama dewi tercantik urusan kekeluargaan , hihihi, My Mommy , gimana nih Ma !! aku lampu merah lagi. Kata Mama ya sudah ndak apa2 sayang... kan masih bisa duduk disana sambil nanti dengarin ceramah meski ndak ikut sholat-nya *dengan sabar dan lemah lembut mama saya mengatakannya* ah.... tenang deh langsung.
Ya sudah ikut deh ke Mesjid Darul-Yaaqin yg nggak terlalu jauh dari rumah. Biasanya sih kita-kita sholat di Walikota tapi tahun ini Walikota-nya di tutup , karena Bapak Walikota-nya di undang ke Islamic Center , ah apa gunanya itu jadinya mesjid sebesar itu di Walikota, dihari yang Mulia ini malah tutup !! DuduL !! Islamic Center agak lebih jauh lagi dari rumah kita.
Anyway, ya sudah kami sholat di local mesjid saja, dan disana kami berjumpa dengan para tetangga dan saling silatuhrahmi dan senyum-senyum manis. Maklumlah... sekalian mempererat tali persaudaraan meski setahun sekali jumpa... daerah tempat aku tinggal memang susah ketemu tetangga, pada sibuk semua siy :D *alesan*
Nah aku dan Angel jadi duduk di pelataran Mesjid diantara Jama'ah lainnya yg wajahnya berseri-seri dan keindahan Idul Fitri amat tampak hari ini... wajah-wajah bersih yang telah dikarunia oleh NYA , diampuni dosa-dosanya... Maha Besar Allah SWT.
Sementara sholat dimulai, aku duduk dengan perasaan iri karena ngga bisa ikutan :( tapi dengan berada disana bersama mereka, para tetangga, saudara2 muslim lainnya , aku merasa dapat berkah juga, mensyukuri semua yang telah dilimpahkan padaku dan keluargaku.
Sholat Ied di sudahi dengan Kutbah yang bagus dan sangat mendukung kita semua supaya makin taqwa dan lebih khusyu beribadah , amin.
Yang bikin sedih juga ada... aku inget Papa , tapi dengan hati yang damai, karena inget gimana dia kalau Hari Raya begini... betapa wajah di penuhi dengan senyum :) , simbol ketentraman hati...
Nah.. setelah selesai, kami pulang bareng2 dan begitu sampai dirumah.... maka terjadilah...
Aku cium tangan Ibundaku yang wangi dan memohon ma'af sedalam-dalamnya dan melihat ke matanya yg penuh kasih... beliau terlihat seperti bidadari turun dari syurga firdaus dengan baju-nya yg putih bersih, senyumnya yg suci dan wajahnya memancarkan ketaqwaan kepada ALLAH SWT, detik itu aku bersyukur lagi kepada-NYA telah dilimpahkan Ibunda yang seperti bidadari.... *hugs my Mommy* , mama bukan hanya memberi ma'af yg tulus tapi beliau juga berdo'a buat aku , Angela, dan saudara2ku juga... nggak terasa air mata menitik dan haru sekali betapa tulusnya orang tua kita kepada kita... Alhamdulillah Wasyukurilah...
Aku juga berdo'a untuk Papa... dan masih minta ma'af sama dia juga, dan mohon kepada Allah buat kebaikan dia di alam sana... amien.
Banyak sekali tetangga berdatangan sehabis Sholat Ied
datang kerumah , Alhamdulillah.. anak2 kecil yang pake baju baru berpakaian dengan ragam warna dan model , ngantongin duit2 kecil :) , awesome banget deh... !!
Lucu banget.... sampai gemes ama mereka aku...
Udah gitu , dari situ kami makan pagi bersama dan planning the day.. tapi tau2 ada telphone :shock: yang mengabarkan kalau salah satu anggota keluarga kami dari jalur Papa ada yang kembali ke haribaan-NYA tadi pagi semasa Sholat Ied ... Innalillahi Wa Inalillahi Roji'un. Beliau suami dari kakaknya Papa aku.. yang kebetulan tinggal di Jawa Timur. Wah... sedih mendengarnya dan lebih sedih nggak bisa kesana :( , Pamanku datang kerumah mau pamitan ama Mama dulu sekalian lebaranan dulu, abis itu mau langsung ke Jawa Timur... aduh...diantara kegembiraan ada keluarga kami yang ketimpa musibah... Maha Besar Allah SWT dengan semua yang DIA kehendaki...
Setelah itu... kami ke rumah keluarga lainnya, dan disana ada apa ?? kami disana kaget melihat anak Pamanku .... ini anak dari kakak perempuan Papa lainnya, anaknya ternyata habis sakit keras, kena stroke dan habis di rawat di rumah sakit 1 minggu, kami gak dengar karena keluarganya nggak ada yg ngabarin :( , ah parah...
Ya gini deh lebaran diwarnai dengan hal-hal yang menyedihkan buat kami tapi kami tawakal dan sabar dengan semua apa yang ALLAH SWT gariskan. Mudah2an yg wafat , diampuni dosa2nya dan keluarga yg ditinggalkan diberi Rahmat dan Hidayah-NYA. Yang sakit cepat disembuhkan dari penyakitnya... Amien Ya Rabb.
Akusementara....nggak bisa ngomong!!! Suaraku HABIS !! gara2 kena flu dan batuk... hiks..hiks... suaraku habissssss.... lebaran kok serak-serak basah begini... argh...tapi.. gpp deh berkah juga, namanya juga penyakit , itu kan salah satu pelebur dosa2 kita. Cuman ya gitu, orang-orang rumah jadi nggak ngerti apa yang aku omongin , karena asli suaraku abis ! uhuhuhuh.... ada telpon dari teman jauh di Pekanbaru siBubud, dia aja ampe tereak2 kagak denger dengan jelas karena suara-ku yg asli serak kayak abis takbiran selaman , hihihih, ma'af yah Bubud =p~
Trus sore2 epon mas gendutz juga, dia nggak ngerti apa yang aku omongin , dia gak ngerti apa sibuk makan yah ??? haoahoahaoha, dasar wedhus gendutz !!
Trus aku telpon semua teman-teman yang belum sempat aku datengin.... abis itu tewassssss molor doloooo karena nguantuk berat !!
Bangun2 mandi dan mamam... jam 7 jeh bangunnya, abis itu sms my honey.. ngadu keabisan suara dan sakit flu... di sms balik dan di sayang2 dunk... aish!! jd sembuh deh =p~ *apa sih igh ??* emang gue kadang2 menjijaykan kalau cerita2 gitu... ehueieheiehihiaha
Lha emang bener sih.. tapi dia reseh juga,kan aku ngadu tentang gak bisa sholat jd nunggu depan masjid apa kata my honey ??? katanya dia : ya udah nggak apa2..syukurin aja dan nikmati berkahnya sekalian njagain sendal !!! *mabur* Ya udah aku bales... "Woh! dasar Onta Fir'aun yang suka makan daging merah yg tinggal di dekat sungai Nil samping Laut Merah "!! haihahaohaoha... dibales sms-nya sama dia sambil ngakak2 =p~ , abisnya sih masak gue di suruh nyambi tukan nunggu sendal lebaran2 gini... sempruL !
Anyway... gitu deh Idul Fitrinya.. banyak warnanya...
Gimana Idul Fitri kalian ??
Eh eh... yang belum bisa balik ke Indonesia untuk dul Fitri, maaf yah bukan-nya sirik2 in... Insya Allah next time kalian bisa br-Idul Fitri di Indonesia bersama keluarga kalian semua... Amien. Tapi untuk sementara sabar aja yah... :)
Thanks yah udah baca2... Met IdulFitri sekali lagi.. Mohon Ma'af Lahir Bathin... bukakan pintu ma'afmu untukku... asli ma'afin gue yah... gua yakin gue udah banyak salah banget ama kalian semua ...so ma'afin yah :)
Ciao for now..!! Muachhhhhhhhhhhhhh !
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| C'est La Vie ... |
| 11.25.03 (5:06 am) [edit] |
Hm....
What ?! I just did a bit of thinking ...
I kinda have a bit of fear of acceptance :)
I am worry that I might not be accepted in the family of my honey...
I mean, I am so... so .... out of this world =P...
I am Mad
I am radical
I am spontaneous
I am naughty
I am not rules follower ...
I am not all this goody goody shoes girl..
But !!
I am a good mother
I am a good cook
I am affectionate
I am responsible
I am good Moslem * I hope*
I am sweet
I am caring
I am sexy =P~ * damm yeah!!*
I am ME !!
I do have this worry ... but I thought , if his family can't accept me for Who and What I am then... C'est La Vie .. :) I did my best... I think also that I am at my Best right now... because I am ME who's been thru life and taste the spices and still here to serve myself to my ALLAH SWT and my lovely families and great friends...
So... Why am I still worry ?
I just feel rather uncomfortable knowing how his family lifestyle and how they work it . Dunno...
Mate ?:D
C'est La Vie ....
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| *~ Forgive Me...~* |
| 11.24.03 (4:15 am) [edit] |
Wow !!! Busy, busy, busy....
Unbelieveable how busy it is in this already busy city of Jakarta !! Just in couple of days the Moslem people going to celebrate the day of Victory of Idul Fitri... and the havoc of this city so obvious, perhaps just one of the busiest time of the year other than Christmas and New Year. Idul Fitri... meaning the end of Ramadhan , the Holy Month of all, it is almost over and The Holy Ramadhan going to leave us all , how sad .... because One never know when one will ever meet the Holy month of Ramadhan again ... ? Because you'll never know what's around the corner...
I am for one, did my best but still feel inadequate with my life serving for The Greatest Allah SWT. Insya Allah, I will have the opportunity to see and meet Ramadhan again next year... let's hope we are all still being bless to meet Ramadhan again next year.. Amien.
For now, I am busy helping around the house, decorating my parents house, clean things up and putting all this little cakes and bit & pieces into some little container because usually on the Day of Victory of Idul Fitri , we will have many friends and family coming to visit us , we also will have the pleasure to visit them and our neighbours. This is the day of forgiving, cleansing and loving eachother :) , if Allah SWT able to forgive and love us all, why can't we ?? Peace...
I love this time of the year because, the comotion around me and within our own family, we're all busy and making sure everything perfect :) , this is one of the most blesses day of all. Where all the family gather together usually...
This year for me... there are 2 missing people in my life ...... one, my beloved father, but I know he smile to see us happy and together in this holy day :) , I know he is always watching over me and my family... I miss him though... I miss him everyday.. *love you daddy...*
Another one , my honey, he is miles away from me..... he wouldn't be here for this Idul Fitri :( , I do hope one of this day that we all going to be together... I miss you too sweety.. *hugs*
All down to Taqdir / Fate , we are not meant to be together just yet :) , have faith in every step and we shall find the way... no matter how hard this would be... I Love you..
Tears falling down my cheeks... feeling so blessed being here with my family on this special moment... Alhamdulillah...
Wish you are here....
So by the way... "Happy Idul Fitri ... Taqobalallahu Minna Waminkum... Mohon Ma'af Lahir dan Bathin "
Maafin yeh kalo ada salah... Forgive me people if I've done wrong to ya okayyyyy !!! Mwah mwah :), pls pls pls... :D
Gotta do somemore shopping tomorrow !! Still need to get a new shoes for my Angel :D , poor lil Angel...
Catch ya..
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| *Words of AngeL.... from cloud 9th * |
| 11.23.03 (4:11 am) [edit] |
*=http://MonAmour.tblog.com target=_blank [image]MonAmour_137706388 5.jpg[/image]
Today... I woke up with a slight headache, next to me was my lil Angel with her smile :) , she said : Hi Mommy ... *kiss2* why is it with kids ??? They always wake up long before adult ?? Why is that ?? :lol:
Anyway after telling me what she's been doing she said to me : "Mommy, are we still going out today ? " I did promised her to take her out today to find a pair of her shoes because the one she has now obviously too small already. So I must keep my promise .... even though I rather sleep more :D
Not to mention I feel like total crap =P~, I feel not beautiful, Fat and unattractive :shock: , dunno sometime I wake up feel like millions dollar or A Goddes but other time I feel like some wet old rag =P~
So I tried to reason with Angel... after awhile the conversation going no where ... but I tell ya what made me get up and eventually go out with her today... here's the story...
AngeL : C'mon mom..wake up, it's nice day, time to wake up...
Me: yes baby... but I don't feel like going anywhere.. *yawning*
AngeL : why Mom ?? You promise me... *angel face*
Me : Owh.. baby.. I told you... I am not feeling the best today
AngeL : why Mommy ?
Me : Because I feel fat and ugly today *this is my last and desperate answer*
AngeL : Owh.. Mommy... listen to me Mom, Everybody have their own trouble, if someone look at you just smile, if someone call you fat tell them that they have their own lil problem, just don't worry about it Mommy.
AngeL : You are beautiful... because you are my Mommy *hugs*
AngeL : nobody's perfect Mommy, but you are... you got me, you got your mommy, and everyone else... you beautiful Mommy...
Me : *smile and thinking how clever this little Angel * and nodding away...
AngeL : if someone call you bad name just tell them that they are beautiful that way they will stop call you bad names ..... C'mon Mom.... you the prettiest Princess in the whole wide world... *smile Angelically*
Me : Owh... Angel, you really are the light of my life... *huggles my Angel*
Now,now... how can you not melt with that ??????
So I get up and have my shower and dress up and feel just absolutely fabulous !!!! 3000 X fabulous !! All because I have this little Angel that pick up my spirits and put it in the cloud 9th !!
She totally rock my world and made my day !! Yahooo !!!
Tell me straight yo people... Am I The Luckiest Mom in the world or What ??????? !!! :)
Aaaaahh..............
Thank you dear Lil'AngeL.... Bless You Always *hugs
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| Permintaan Ma'af |
| 11.22.03 (1:08 am) [edit] |
Teman-teman... :)
Bentar lagi mau Idul Fitri .... dalam kesempatan ini, aku mau minta maaf yah sama teman-teman semua, jika ada kesalahan yg disengaja maupun tidak sengaja aku buat.. kan aku cuma manusia jadi kadang-kadang suka nggak sadar kalau nyakitin hati...
Jadi Aku dan Angel minta ma'af dan mudh-mudahan kita semua bisa saling menjaga untuk hari-hari yang akan datang... Insya Allah
[b]"SELAMAT HARI RAYA IDUL FITRI"
Minal Aidzin WaL Faidzin...Mohon Ma'af Lahir dan Bathin[/b]
Semoga kita semua bersih dari hal-hal yang mengotori kita sebelum Ramadhan, semoga di hari yang suci dan Fitri tersebut kita semua bisa lebih saling menyayangi sesama dan dosa-dosa kita di ampuni oleh- NYA , amien.
Selebihnya, Just be yourself and enjoy the miracle of life that ALLAH has given to you :) , Ibadah dan tawakal....
[b]I Love You All karena DIA [/b]
:)
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| Hiw ??? snap out of it ! |
| 11.21.03 (9:15 am) [edit] |
[u][b]Hmm.... what would you do if in the middle of praying your bra snapped off ??[/b][/u] :shock: :lol:
I am taking this as a quiz, so u guys better answer it ! if you have any experience please do tell :lol:
I am serious 8) , this is a true question :D
But yes, obviously this valid for a girl, but man can comment too if you guys wish to :D
So bring it ON !! and Snap out of it !!
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| Welcome Back ! |
| 11.21.03 (8:42 am) [edit] |
Eughhhhhh !! Welcome back my loyal stomach ache !! double that pain tonight... as if I need it....*sigh* :roll:
I am seriously thinking on stop eatting !!! my stomach suckly sensitive :? I can't eat sumtin and not have stomach ache ...BUGGER !!
Another day curled up in bed... how boring ??????
Gotta start packing too and send some of my stuffs back to Australia !! I am totally gotta move my ass :D or I'll be having panick attack on departure day which is only another 3 weeks 8) , kinda cool but kinda edgy...
Still wanna be here with my family...
Oh well... lemme mend this pain 1st okay, gotta get my rest... catch ya allz laterz :)
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| I miss Ya... Kenshin :( |
| 11.20.03 (9:37 am) [edit] |
Man...no matter how hard it has been but to be honest to ya all... I miss Tony , My Kenshin... :(
I wonder how he get on with life... without me...
I think of him this morning and listen to the CD's he gave me... darn !! I miss him so much...
Even when my heart in pain remembering on how we clashed but... I took the 1st step, I eMailed him just to say hi and tell him that I miss him... because I do..
Ah... my bestmate... hope you can have your sense back coz I really Miss ya...
:cry:
*Taro Iwashiro - Painful Memories*
I still remember how you smile.... with that twinkling eyes... Miss ya Tony ..
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| Alhamdulillah... |
| 11.20.03 (4:49 am) [edit] |
Alhamdulillah.... urusan satu selesai. Today my Lil Angel got her passport back with another valid visa until 15th of Dec. It is all worth it after few days battle !!!! 8)
Bisa breath lagi for awhile...... ahhhhh * bernafas lega sedikit*
Dan aku fikir... kayaknya by mid of December , Angel and I will be flying back to Australia again :)
Mmmm... udah cukup lama di Indonesia dan sudah banyak yg terjadi dan kita lalui. Sudah cukup untuk sekarang... jadi...aku minta maaf yah sama teman-teman semua yg sudah secara langsung mengenalku ataupun hanya lewat the net. Kalau sampai sekarang aku belum jumpa sama sebagian dari kalian bukan karena somse tapi karena ya gimana yah... maklumlah aku kan punya anak kecil dan tanggung jawabnya besar... jadi ya mohon ngerti aja deh yah :) sorry banget gak bisa jumpa ama kalian satu persatu. Lagian... bagusnya sebenernya =P, yg single tuh yg nyamperin aku, kan repotan yang punya anak :D
Anyway, ya gitu deh...
Today,nunggu di imigrasi asli bete buangetttttttt, padahal sudah lengkap surat izin-nya, poto2 juga sudah mencukupi, duit udah keluar, dll, dll dlsb-nya ... masih aja kudu nunggu jam-jam-an.Coba-an orang puasa kali yah ?? tapi kemaren nggak puasa juga begini tuh ?? :D, kali memang nasib aku aja kali yegh... kudu selalu menunggu untuk sesuatu yg penting dan baik...Alhamdulillah Allah SWT ngasih saya waktu untuk menunggu demi kebaikan... amien.
Kasian Angel today, dia masih sakit tapi dia ingin keluar dan jalan-jalan... bete kali yah dirumah terus dan bobok, padahal badannya memang maunya bobok terus... anak-anak.. sakit2 juga yg dipikirin main =P~ *hugs my Angel* ya udah deh... abis dari Imigrasi aja udah sore... dan aku sudah penat, capek, asli bete, sakit perut, lapar haus, kaki kayak abis kerja disawah =P *sengsara banget gak sih kesannya ??? * dia aku bawa ke Klp Gading, dia mau nya memang kesitu karena ingin ke TimeZone. Ya udah deh diturutin.... tapi asal dia mau makan... karena susah banget makannya. Akhirnya sampai disana , dia hanya mau makan jagung rebus dan jelly... ya mau gak mau gue turutin , daripada gak makan sama sekali... *sigh* duh... kalau aku bisa ambil itu sakitnya dia untuk aku, sudah aku ambil dari kemarin, biar deh buat gue semua penyakitnya :( . Biar dia deh yg sehat wal afiat.... *ughh...*
Sedih deh kalau anak sakit... sampai stress berat gue.
Sudah done ama klp.gading, mau pulang HUJAN !! Wasyem tenan... jadi taxi benda langka deh... wah gimana nih... ya udah nunggu sebentar...tapi yg nunggu di Mallnya juga udah puluhan, semua berdiri menunggu. BETE !! panick dan sebaL :x
Akhirnya begitu hujan agak reda, kita turun ke jalan *cieeeee istilahnya... :D* nunggu taxi diluar deh... Angel aku kudung2in biar gak kena hujan, dia juga bete nunggu didalem, capek berdiri...
Dah sampai di luar... hmmm, sama juga, bbrp taxi sih ada, aku panggil dan semua nanya perginya kemana ? ya aku jawab kemana aku mau pergi, dia gak mau, trus yg lain cuman lewat2 aja, dipanggil gak berhenti. Dalam hati menyumpah-nyumpah deh ... kalau misalnya sendirian gue jabanin deh naik angkot :D, tapi sama Angel , naik angkot isa pingsan deh dia, mana udah capek gitu dia. Akhirnya pindah lokasi :D, dan disana ada 1 taxi. Sudah ada yg mau naikin tapi... dan kayaknya dia gak mau pake meteran, borongan gitu modelnya, dan ibu itu kagak mau dengan harga yg ditawarkan ama supir taxi-nya. Akhirnya dia ke aku dan aku bilang aku mau ke tujuanku. Dia bilang sekian-sekian.. aku bilang "Eh, yang bener aja lu, emang gue mau ke Jepang segitu mahalnya ?? " bete banget dengarnya... :? , melengos aja gue deh.... dan akhirnya dia bilang ya tambahin goceng dari tawaran ibu deh... aku lihat dia , akhirnya aku putuskan ya udah deh Rp.20.000 gak terlalu mahal soale harga aslinya kalo pake meteran juga 15 ribu :D ,jd ya udah deh pulanglah kita pake taxi borongan yg dalemnya kayak bajaj :D , lha drpd bermalam di Klp-Gading ??? Hhehehehehe... Alhamdulillah akhirnya pulang juga... Nanda saking capeknya bobok di taxi dan aku bersyukur udah nggak usah hujan2an lagi..
Sampai rumah... capek... dan asli puegellllll meski gembira karena dapet passport-nya, mama nanya kalau udah beres belom urusan aku kasih tau kalo semua-nya udah beres !!! Beliau bersyukur juga.. *mwah mwah Mama*
Trusssss mau mandi.... hujan2 , jalan kebelakang, mau mandi ah.. gitu niatnya... my sis lagi di belakang , nyuci piring dan aku salamin dia, di jawab dan baru mau melangkah keluar dengan kaki telanjang dan tanpa pikiran apapun... santai .... tapi !!! :shock: my sis bilang " Woiiii !! jangan keluar kamu !! Banyak cacinggggg !" aku dengan tanpa berkata... kuaget bangetttttt dan sampai mau jatuh dan jantung serasa mau copot !! soale... pas aku melihat lantai bawah...Astaghfirullah... pas di bawah kaki yang aku baru mau injakan ke lantai ada 2 cacing tanah yg sedang berdansa bersama !!!!!!!MODIAR !!! kaget gue sumpeh !! dan detik itu juga aku jinjit2 kegelian dan melihat sekeliling... apa yg kulihat ???? seluruh lantai di kerumunin caing tanah yg merah... licin... menjijikan !!! Saking aku shock-nya aku teriak2 kedalam... Mama yg sedang ngaji sampai tergopoh-gopoh nanya , duh... maap mama... tapi pas dia tau kenapa malah ngakak :D , dudut !!!! Tapi dia tau aku memang jijik ama binatang melata satu itu... cuman liat aku bawa anduk dan dengan badan segede gini takut cacing tanah yg lemah itu :D ... wasyem ah !!!
Ya udah deh... aku akhirnya cari sendal, trus menguatkan diri untuk kebelakang dan begitu sampai di kamar mandi, aku scan dolo... nah beres dalam kamar mandi nggak ada cacing... tapi Masya Allah itu diluar... penuh dengan cacingggggggggg !! amit amitttttttttt *huek* aku siram-siram dulu sebelum mandi , ngeri ada yg masuk lewat bawah pintu... pas agi enak-enak mandi nanti .. ighhhhhhhhhhhh *asli geliiiii* duh sampai merinding.... kufret !!
Abis mandi... itu rame2 ngapain coba ?? ponakan gue , agi mungutin itu cacing2 , dan gue dgn geli-nya nanya2 ngapain coba malem2 mungutin cacing !!! Katanya buat makannya burung.... *pingsan* ighhhhhhhh....
Mabur dengan cepat... sholat, dan ngumpet dikamar sambil ngaji deh !!! Nggak keluar-keluar karena itu anak-anak pada mainin cacing !! HOwaaaahhhhhhh !! Yuck !!
Nah begitulah...hari dan malamku... penuh dengan cacing2 .... dari cacing pemakan uang , cacing yg suka borongan, dan cacing tanah !! Amit-amit deh ah..
Dah ah merem... egh...relaxing, gak bisa bobok, masih ngeri ama tuh cacing2,trauma aku !! :?
Igh.... tolonkkkkkkkk-tolonkkkkkk kkk, kalo hujan-hujan..tolong dong, gue boleh nggak ngungsi ke rumah kalian yg gak ada cacing merahnya dunk.. atau cacing2 lainnya , apapun yg creepy crawly deh... gue traktir deh.. *maksa* :D
Cao ah...
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| Done !! |
| 11.19.03 (5:22 am) [edit] |
I am done with stupidity !!
I am done with fair weather friends !!
I am done with people who won't listen !!
I am done with pathetic act !!
I am done with bullshit !!
I am done with anyone who are coward !!
I am done with Bastards !!
I am done with YOU !!!
I am gonna take a walk and clean myself up,this is my new leaf and I am gonna start from here !!
This was the answer for one of my questions.
At least I know who stand by me and who doesn't :evil:
!@#$%^&*(|}{??":<*$!~!@#$%^&*()#%^&*() F7890U%^&C!@#$%^&K@#$%^&*O@#$%^F%^&*F !!!!>
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| ......what ? LISTEN TO ME !!! |
| 11.19.03 (3:16 am) [edit] |
Dunno.. just feeling rather empty, dunno what to write as many things cross my mind and sadness in my heart still clouding me..
I had a rather heated argument with my sweety last night. He meant it all well but I think he's not "listening" to me enough. Listening is not just sit there and listening, I mean truly listen to what I have to say...
I am in pain and need his supports , lots of it. I know he tried his best to help me out but... like many of friends , they aren't listening !!!
Advices is good but please, please... READ me first, where am I coming from ??? What do I mean by stuffs ?? why I said what I said last night...
I am sorry if I was harsh to ya, but I am stuck at the moment and I need some light not someone who preach on me how to be good, I know all the stuffs you are saying, and other friends but that's not what I mean.. or want and I tried to tell ya..... but you too busy with your stucked up advices... if I want any advices I go see the Mullah or my Mom, I want someone who can listen to me as much I listen to ya... I don;t give advices unless you asked me to. Not everybody are like me ?? Why not ? I just need a great friend who can understand my sorrow, my pain , my worries... not someone who think that they are know the answers of the world...
How can I look up to someone who has not been there themself ?? I mean, how could people give advices so easely even if they are not doing it themself ?? How can I look up to that person as my guidance ???
Call me stuck up bitch but... I need someone whom I can asks questions and being able to enlighten me when I am stucked.... don't preach on me when u still doing sin yourself... if you wish to get better together with me I shall take your hands but not giving me advices and you still doing sins yourself..... *no specific person here pointed , ok?* just general writting.
Tears flowing down my cheeks each time I pray, I just can't help but feeling so guilty for whatever sins I had done...
I just want to be forgiven...
I just wanna be Love By Allah SWT ...
*Unrest SouL*
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| Pelajaran Imam Al Ghazali |
| 11.18.03 (11:23 am) [edit] |
PELAJARAN IMAM AL GHAZALI
Dengan Nama Allah Yang Maha Pengasih Maha Penyayang
Maha Suci Allaah, Segala Puji bagi Allah Tuhan Semesta Alam
Shalawat atas Baginda Muhammad dan Keluarga Muhammad
Salam atas hamba Allah yang shaleh
[u][b]TEKA TEKI IMAM GHAZALI[/b][/u]
[b]Suatu hari, Imam Al-Ghazali berkumpul dengan murid-muridnya lalu beliau bertanya ( Teka-Teki ) :[/b]
[b]Imam Ghazali = " Apakah yang paling dekat dengan diri kita didunia ini?"[/b]
Murid 1 = " Orang tua "
Murid 2 = " Guru "
Murid 3 = " Teman "
Murid 4 = " Kaum kerabat
Imam Ghazali = " Semua jawaban itu benar. Tetapi yang paling dekat dengan kita ialah MATI. Sebab itu janji Allah bahwa setiap yang bernyawa pasti akan mati (Surah Ali-Imran :185).
[b]Imam Ghazali = " Apa yang paling jauh dari kita di dunia ini?" [/b]
Murid 1 = " Negeri Cina "
Murid 2 = " Bulan"
Murid 3 = " Matahari "
Murid 4 = " Bintang-bintang "
Iman Ghazali = " Semua jawaban itu benar. Tetapi yang paling benar adalah MASA LALU. Bagaimanapun kita, apapun kenderaan kita, tetap kita tidak akan dapat kembali ke masa yang lalu. Oleh sebab itu kita harus menjaga hari ini, hari esok dan hari-hari yang akan datang dengan perbuatan yang sesuai dengan ajaran Agama".
[b]Iman Ghazali = " Apa yang paling besar didunia ini ?"[/b]
Murid 1 = " Gunung "
Murid 2 = " Matahari "
Murid 3 = " Bumi "
Imam Ghazali = " Semua jawaban itu benar, tapi yang besar sekali adalah HAWA NAFSU (Surah Al A'raf: 179). Maka kita harus hati-hati dengan nafsu kita,jangan sampai nafsu kita membawa ke neraka."
[b]Imam Ghazali = " Apa yang paling berat didunia[/b]
Murid 1 = " Baja"
Murid 2 = " Besi"
Murid 3 = " Gajah "
Imam Ghazali" Semua itu benar, tapi yang paling berat adalah MEMEGANG AMANAH (Surah Al-Azab : 72 ). Tumbuh-tumbuhan, binatang, gunung, dan malaikat semua tidak mampu ketika Allah SWT meminta mereka menjadi khalifah(pemimpin) di dunia ini. Tetapi manusia dengan sombongnya berebut-rebut menyanggupi permintaan Allah SWT sehingga banyak manusia masuk ke neraka kerana gagal memegang amanah."
[b]Imam Ghazali = " Apa yang paling ringan di dunia ini ?"[/b]
Murid 1 = " Kapas"
Murid 2 = " Angin "
Murid 3 = " Debu "
Murid 4 = " Daun-daun"
Imam Ghazali = " Semua jawaban kamu itu benar, tapi yang paling ringan sekali didunia ini adalah MENINGGALKAN SOLAT. Gara-gara pekerjaan kita atau urusan dunia, kita tinggalkan solat "
[b]Imam Ghazali = " Apa yang paling tajam sekali didunia ini"[/b]
Murid- Murid dengan serentak menjawab = "Pedang "
Imam Ghazali = " Itu benar, tapi yang paling tajam sekali didunia ini adalah LIDAH MANUSIA. Kerana melalui lidah, manusia dengan mudahnya menyakiti hati dan melukai perasaan saudaranya sendiri "
Catatan
Semoga bermanfaat dan tulisan ini dapat mengingatkan kita semua dan menjadi instrospeksi diri.Amien
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| ~*~ I Love You ~*~ |
| 11.18.03 (10:53 am) [edit] |
()""()
( 'o' )
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A guy and a girl can be just friends... but at one point or another
one of them will fall for the other, maybe temporarily, maybe at the wrong
time, maybe too late or maybe, just maybe...forever....
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As I sat there in english class, I stared at the girl next to me.
She was my so called 'best friend'. I stared at
her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn't notice
me like that, and I knew it.
After class, she walked up to me and asked me for
the notes she had missed the day before. I handed them to her.
She said thanks' and gave me a kiss on the cheek.
I want to tell her, I want her to know that I dont
want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I dont know why.
**************** 11th grade ****************
The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She
was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had
broke her heart.
She asked me to come over because she didn't want to
be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep.
She looked at me, said 'thanks' .
I love her but I'm just too shy, and I dont know why.
**************** Senior year ****************
The day before prom she walked to my locker. "My date is sick" she said,
he's not gonna go" well, I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade, we
made a promise that if neither of us had dates, we would go together- just
as 'best friends'. So we did.
Prom night, after everything was over, I was
standing at her front door step. I stared at her as she smiled at me
and stared at me with her crystal eyes. Then she said- "I had the best
time, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek.
I want to tell her, I want her to know that I dont
want to be just friends but I'm just too shy.
A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I
could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her
perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma.
Before everyone went home, she came to me in her
smock and hat, and cried as i hugged her. Then she lifted her head
from my shoulder and said-'you're my best friend, thanks' and gave me a kiss
on the cheek.
Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is getting married. That girl is getting married now. I watched her say 'i do' and drive off to her new life, married to another man.
I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't see me like
that, and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and
said 'you came!'.
She said 'thanks' and kissed me on the cheek.
Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl
who used to be my 'best friend'. At the service, they read diary
entry she had wrote in her high school years.
This is what it read: I stare at him wishing he was
mine; but he doesn't notice me like that, and I know it. I
want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just
friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. I wish he would
tell me he loved me!
'I wish I did too...' I thought to my self, and i cried.
DO YOURSELF A FAVOUR, TELL HER/HIM THAT YOU LOVE THEM. EVEN IF YOU
DON'T KNOW HOW THEY'LL REACT JUST LET THEM KNOW HOW YOU 'REALLY' FEEL ABOUT THEM. THEY WONT BE THERE FOREVER.
:)
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| Sadness In The Middle of The Night |
| 11.18.03 (8:03 am) [edit] |
What have I done here on Earth ?
Ugh.... gue mikirin kesalahan-kesalahan yang udah gue perbuat tadi malam sampai stress berat, gue mohon ampun banget-banget sama ALLAH SWT, gue sampai meratap dan nangis sejadi-jadinya...
Aduh... tobat gue.. gue nggak bisa apa-apa lagi selain berdoa dan mohon ampunan NYA. Mudah-mudahan gue di ampunin dan di jauhkan dari api neraka Amien... :cry: , dan mudah-mudahan anak gue yang gue cintai banget, nggak ikut-ikutan nanggung dosa-dosa yang udah gue perbuat. Amien.
Ya Rabb... aku takut sekali pada-MU.. :cry:
:cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry:
Ampun !! Gue takut banget... gue kudu bersihin ibadah gue nih,gue kudu doble in nih.... ada yg bisa bantu gue gak sih ? Gue ingin tobat abis2an....
Asli gue ngeri banget...
Gimana yah, gue pengen banget khusyu dalam beribadah dan berdo'a untuk melebur dosa2 gue...gue kudu apa lagi ?? tolongin gue dong... :cry:
*guilty as charge*
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| It's Raining !! |
| 11.17.03 (4:24 am) [edit] |
Heck !! I woke up from my slumber deep greeted by the rain and thunder plus lightning ! How awesome is that ? Tropical rain... not pouring down just enough to wet the earth with the sky show and sounds system any bugger would die for :D
I lazed myself for a little while until I heard the thunder :shock: , Man !! That was loud and I thought right I better do my pray as I am late already for my Midday pray , ck ck ck ck bad girl !! *spank* hey ?? :P
I showered myself in the rain... how nice shower in the rain... hihihi something I haven't done for awhile... when I was little I remember how I used to run in the rain wearing nothing but cute frilly lil undies :oops: , I remember how I ran around the garden and street with my friends , we splashed each other when we found a pond :D , mud was the best stuffs at that time :P, LoL.
I think I was only 5 at that time (?) can't really tell... but I remember how free it was to just do that with my friends... not to mention wearing very little stuffs :P, the stuffs I can't get away with even if I was alone in my own bedroom :P~ *smacking all the boys who try to imagine me in a very little sumtin * :P
Anyway, my day was filled with getting some more stuffs ready for another "big" day at the Immigration. We took Angel pictures today for tomorrow. Fill out some more forms and making sure all organized for tomorrow... why am I so nervous ??? :? :roll: nyeh...
Wish me Luck ppl !! Gotta fight the demon tomorrow.... better put on my war costume hey ?? :D
Catch Yaaaaaaaaaa !!!
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| What Kind of A Girlfriend Am I ?? |
| 11.16.03 (3:34 am) [edit] |
Ah Maca Cih ??????? Hihihihih tapi resultnya bilang begini... :oops:
-Sensitive- You're Sensitive, and you'd like to
stay that way. Sorry,listened to a bit too much
Jewel there. You're sweet and very emotionally
charged. You definitely love the person you're
with, and always want to know how they're
feeling so you can make sure they're happy.
What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?
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| Ah Salah Mulu... |
| 11.16.03 (2:09 am) [edit] |
Tadi ke dokter... buat apa ??Buat Nandaku, sakitnya kayaknya gak bisa di diemin nih... ya udah aku bawa kesana dan setelah nunggu agak lama kita dipanggil, dan di dalam ada dokter yg cool :D , orang India dan dia baik sekali sama my Angel, perhatian dan detail banget meriksa Nanda..
Tau2 nya si Angel tuh menderita mimisan dikarenakan pembuluh darahnya lemah dan sakit perutnya ternyata bugs dari makanan. Susah banget oi... kudu dikasih makan yang bener2 steril negh katanya... gak bole sembarang makanan. Minumnya juga kudu susu murni itu aja kudu di sterilize juga... sensi perutnya Nanda, kayak saya dunk :( aaah...
Trus berhubung ke dokter ya sekalian aku tanya2 dan ngadu2 tentang keluhanku... ternyata aku katanya kena penyakit maag (?) aku gak gitu ngerti apa itu Maag secara medis...maybe Gastro yah ? dan saya disuruh ati2 dalam mamam juga karena dlm tubuh saya sudah nggak ada bugs/ bakteri yang bisa melawan bakteri2 yg ada di Asia karena sudah terlalu lama hidup di luar. Or maybe gue nya aja kali yang kemenyek... :lol: wasyem !!
Gak boleh mamam pedes, asem, terlalu manis , atau terlalu panas, dll aaaaahhh wong urip kok susah emen :P
Terus dikasih obat2an , Angel dapet macem2 obat saya cuman dapet untuk my tummy...sakit kok barengan Mama dan Anak.. piye iki..
ya udah deh yang penting udah ke dokter dan periksa2 ternyata saya cuman Gastro aja... Alhamdulillah.. kiraina mau melahirkan apa gemana... :lol:
Woi btw !!! Jangan tersinggung yah kalo aku ngedumel2 , biasa kalo agi bete ada yg jungkrak2in aku jd kayak singa :D , but aku masih value my friendship kok sama kalian semua... dan kalau aku menulis please para individual jangan menganggap kalau aku menulis tuh buat specific 1 orang ... itu my thoughts jadi jgn terlalu yakin banget kalo aku nulis buat someone... jd jangan di bahas or tersinggung... namanya juga blog, kan tempat uneg2 kalo dijadikan hal yg membuat tersinggung ya susah dong kemerdekaan menulis jd terhambat karena nggak mau menyinggung perasaan orang lain.. jadi ya ngerti aja, kalau aku nge-blog jgn terlalu dianggap aku nulis buat 1 org. Gue kalau gak suka ama some1 biasanya langsung kok ke orangnya... gak pake nge-blog. 8) , so chill out and let it be... namanya juga cw dan deket2 bulannya kan memang rada2 nyebelin... nah gue punya target nyebelin orang 1 dunia.. :D *PD My blog dibaca ama orang 1 dunia* LoL...
Anyway, ya udah cekap semanten kidungan kulo ... Mohon maap kalo ada yg salah-salah... emang sengaja sih :p *igh* Hiaiahaihaihaiha
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| Just A Thought |
| 11.15.03 (8:23 pm) [edit] |
I am not pissing at anyone ey... I just need to adjust into something that I believe would be good for me. I am unsettled at the moment and many things come into my mind , many pain being felt and many also been restored. I am in a phase of changing. I am not asking for special treatment , I just need some space where I can just be me and not being disturbed or buggered or even irritated. I am in no total mood to answer to anyone.. the lasting I want is to answer to someone !!
If I ask for an opinion , I expect you guys to respond if you wish to , if I ask for an advice or two, I will ask you directly but I just do not need an advice that I already know or advice that I didn't ask in the 1st place.
Call me arrogant but hey... I've got enough junks in my head right now and the last thing I want to see would be some other junks that I don't need. I am not saying that your guys advice are junks but friends should know when would be the right time to say and listen.
Right now I just need an ear to listen to not telling me what to do.... it is lonely enough even wthout ppl try to tell me that I am freakin' know nothing somebody.
Let me just pass thru this stages ........ Then I am all yours...
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| Just....STFU !!! |
| 11.15.03 (5:24 am) [edit] |
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[u][b]It Is Easier Said Than Done !!!!!!!!!!![/b][/u]
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| My Sick AngeL :( |
| 11.15.03 (5:06 am) [edit] |
I have not done with my sickness , now my Baby Angel got sick too... :( , why ? why ? why ?
She start to have the nose bleed again.. then followed by rashes on her face , today she refuse to eat because she experience tummy ache :cry: ...
She sleep since 7 PM and still sleep now and look rather pale and limp :(
My fault... my fault...
I should have treat her better... :(
Get better baby AngeL... mommy here...
I Love her and ONLY her...
Ya Allah.. limpahkanlah kesehatan dunia dan akhirat bagi kami semua terutama Puteriku Angela... Amien.
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| Ngakak Dot com deh ... :D |
| 11.15.03 (2:54 am) [edit] |
:lol: :lol: :lol: :lol: :lol: :lol: :lol: :lol: :lol: :lol: :lol: :lol: :lol: :lol:
Gembala Kambing
Suatu hari, Fulan berpapasan dengan seorang gembala
dengan kambingnya.
Fulan bertanya dengan takjub "Pak, boleh nanya nih?"
Gembala: "Boleh"
Fulan : "Kambing-kambing bapak sehat sekali, bapak
kasih makan apa?"
Gembala : "yang mana dulu nih? yang hitam atau yang
putih?"
Fulan : "mmmm ...Yang hitam dulu deh...."
Gembala : "oh, kalo yang hitam, dia makannya rumput
basah"
Fulan : "ohh...kalo yang putih?"
Gembala : "yang putih juga..."
Fulan : "hmmm...kambing-kambing ini, kuat jalan
berapa kilo pak?"
Gembala : "yang mana dulu nih? yang hitam atau yang
putih?"
Fulan : "mmmm Yang hitam dulu deh...."
Gembala : "oh, kalo yang hitam, 4 km sehari"
Fulan : "kalo yang putih?"
Gembala : "yang putih juga..."
Si Fulan mulai gondok....
Fulan : "kambing ini, menghasilkan banyak bulu ngga
pak, pertahunnya?"
Gembala : "yang mana dulu nih? yang hitam atau yang
putih?"
Fulan : "(dengan kesalnya) yang hitam dulu deh..."
Gembala : "oh, yang hitam, banyak...10 kg/th"
Fulan : "kalo yang putih...?"
Gembala : "yang putih juga"
Fulan : "BAPAK KENAPA SIH SELALU NGEBEDAIN KAMBING
DUA INI, KALO JAWABANNYA SAMA????????????"
Gembala : "oh, gini dik, soalnya yang hitam itu,
punya saya...."
Fulan : "Oh gitu pak, maaf kalo begitu, saya
emosi...kalo yang putih?"
Gembala : "yang putih juga
:lol: :lol: :lol: :lol: :lol: :lol: :lol: :lol: :lol: :lol: :lol: :lol: :lol: :lol:
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| Night Owl !!! |
| 11.14.03 (9:04 am) [edit] |
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Not doing much today... feeling rather sluggish and no energy... Eugh... need some boost !!
Anyone got any idea ???
I know for sure... I am getting more and more missing my second home...
Yikes !! stupid me... I don't know why I keep watching some stupid show on TV and scared the hell out of dark afterward :D Bugger !!
When we watch it, it was kinda exciting and because we all sitting in a group and watch it together in between talk and hundled up together :lol:
BUT!! When everybody gone to sleep... then there's me still sitting up and can't get to sleep because I am a truly night owl, I don't sleep at night !! I don't think I am insomniac but I just can't sleep at night...
So the bugger things about not sleeping at night is being alone while people are asleep. I am either reading book or sitting in front of the computer blog to you all :P or try to sleep but only end up tossing and turning with my eyes closed !!! then my imagination trick me... nyeh.... usually when I get to this stage I will get up and find some awesome book to read until daylight then... my eyes start to get tired and let me sleep ! This way... many times I lose the day which bugging me immensely.
It totally freak me out !!! I should stop watching this freakin' mystical, or ghosty programs !! :? :roll: but ... hihihi kinda fun watching it too even when my heartbeat like gone thousands miles an hour :D wasyem !!!
Anyway... almost day light and I am getting tired, so see ya folks ! Catch you on another sleepless night...
Is there any truly [u][b]Night Owl[/b][/u] like me out there ???
I am kinda feeling rather weird not being able to sleep at night since I was a baby... My Mum told me that even when I was a baby I didn't sleep at night .... therefore she didn't sleep either until I was big enough to be left without supervision for being awake at night ... that was like when I was 13 :P hihihi poor old mum *muach muach Mummy* I love you Mum and Dad for everything... you guys sacrifice loads for me... *hugs*
Anyway... day light I better hide or I get burn :D
See ya, hope you guys have a nice day and.,geuhejejiakhalrllaj ZzzZzzzzzzzZZZZZzzzzzzzzz zz..
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| La vie et un nouveau chapitre |
| 11.13.03 (8:17 am) [edit] |
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Je ne peux pas croire ce que je pense de la vie en retard, je deviens confus au milieu de la pluie. Le doute me présentent et je crains de ce qui viendra après...
Moi pas alarme d'être seul mais moi ne suis effrayé de faire beaucoup de choses mal et ne peux pas le fixer.
Je suis fatigué de faire ce que je fais en ce moment... dériver comme je n'obtenais aucune autre meilleure chose pour faire.
Comme si je ne peux pas faire mieux dans la vie... Je veux faire mieux...
Je dois nettoyer mon acte et discipline avec elle. Ma vie en valeur des millions de milliers de plus que ceci.
La nouvelle feuille sera placée bientôt et il y aura un nouveau chapitre de la vie...
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| Totally Buggered ! |
| 11.13.03 (4:32 am) [edit] |
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Man !! Got so many things to do... and tomorrow another day with heaps to do... must go to immigration to suck up some more Visa for Mon Ange... for another month. I'll be on my way back to Australia after this extention I think... as much as I enjoy it here on this tropical paradise, life was easier in Australia. Least I don't have to deal with assholes if I don't want to !! *sorry guys* but it is kinda traumatic to deal with this each month....... *sucks big time !!* :twisted:
So tomorrow, gotta put on my best suites and smile and patience.... *sigh* *hang my head low*
This is really pissing me OFF !!! but I got to do it for my Angel :) , things I got to do for my love one ..:)
Must post Angel completed work as well, because I couldn't do it today.
I am tired, traumatized and totally buggered :? , if I could be in my own home now... I would :) but ... I suppose once this freakin' mood gone, I will be glad that I am still here with my family.
Oh well........
Eh eh... ini kok seyem yah banyak berita tentang kiamat ?? igh...
anuw, kalo kesini... mampir... leave comment dunk pls kek siadi =p~ , jd gue gak merasa lonely nih masuk ke blog dan no one here...hiyyyyy seyemmmmm *penakut woi!!* LoL
Dah ah.. mo coba2 molor bisa gak yah ??? :D
Catch Ya !!
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| My Japanese Name ..... |
| 11.12.03 (9:39 am) [edit] |
Ighhhhh......gemezzzzzzz ... jadi keterusan... satu lagi yah... yah yah... biarin yah ?? :p
LoL...... agi betew soalnya , jd iseng saya..
Ichi - "That one with wisdom"
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| Playful AngeL :) |
| 11.12.03 (8:52 am) [edit] |
I Am a Playful AngeL..... :oops:
Hihihihi ada2 aja.... but lucu n cute juga... coba cek sendiri..kamu Angel apa... tuh linknya ada :lol: Quizilla namanya *promosi banget sih igh*
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| Kiss Kiss !! |
| 11.12.03 (8:41 am) [edit] |
This is how I kiss , hihihihihi.... what your kiss ?? :oops:
You are a child's kiss. Completely sweet and
innocent and pure. You mean no harm and only
love in your sweet kisses.
What kind of kiss are you?
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| What Kind of Matrix persona Am I ? |
| 11.12.03 (8:23 am) [edit] |
This is what I found when I went and visit Some1 Blog , pretty cool hey ?? :D Try it yourself !!
You are Neo, from "The Matrix." You
display a perfect fusion of heroism and
compassion.
What Matrix Persona Are You?
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| Heck !!!! What The F*cK !! |
| 11.12.03 (6:33 am) [edit] |
:lol: , you know what happened to me tonight after my night out looking for some clothes for myself and my mother ??? Man !! You gotta check this out...
I went to Atrium for breaking my fast with a good mate of mine Mr. As-Te-Rix :P~, to catch up and check out some on some sale... It is kinda a bad habit when it comes to this once a year celebration, in couple of weeks would be the Day of Victory for all Moslems after 30 days fasting, the day where everybody should be happy that they had practice the Islam foundation number 4 which is Fasting on the Holy Month of Ramadhan. At the end of the fasting month we celebrate our special day and as a habit of many people, we usually reward ourself with new clothes ,some people might donate the money to buy other people who are less fortunate then themself or many other deeds according to their ability or financial situation. Not all of us can afford new stuffs on that day...
Anyway, I was there to get something nice for my sweet lovely Mother and my gorgeous Sister :), and my handsome brothers plus my cute nephews *fiuh* and for sure for my Lil Angel lah... :)
After looking about with my mate... we didn't find anything that nice enough for my Mother... but we were able to sit down and had something to eat , which was great. We talk, joke and decided to look around for some more... until we both buggered :lol: hihihihih...
Around about 9 pm, we decided we had enough of the mall and he took me to the taxi ranks and wait for me until I get into a good taxi... so we assumed !!! :roll:
I said goodbye and jump into the taxi and here we go...
About 2 minutes I was in the taxi the man start to talk and he was quiet agressively explaining how dangerous and nasty the area where I reside at the moment. Being a resident there... I know the fact quiet well that it is not as bad as he said it was. But I couldn't be bother arguing with this taxi driver that was quite loud and agressive, I chose to keep my thought to myself.
10 minutes... we start to get onto the main road and he was start to slowing down..
Traffic lights... he was very , very , extremely slow and waever about the road... I sensed danger .... :?
I was thinking to myself as I guide him through each passing road, has he gone mad ? has he just got his licence ? has he got eyes problems ?? many thought enter my mind... then... at this corner , traffics light, I had the gut to llook at the rear vision mirror... guess what I saw ???? :shock:
[b]HE WAS DRIVING THE CAR SLEEPING !!!! [/b]
At that traffics light , I woke him up after people behind us was honking and carrying on... I am more and more scared !! :( ... he open his eyes heavely and start to drive again... his eyes was red and heavy , which I can only think of two options , which is he is either very, very tired from lack of sleep or he is heavely on drugs !! I am dead !! I thought to myself...
But I remind calm... as we across the traffics light I start to search for a well lighten area to stop and get the hell out of there !! :x
Not long after... he start to slow down baddly... very baddly and it is anger me as much as fear me , for my safety and well being. Then he totally stop and put his break on and mumbling something... I couldn't be bother ask him what he was saying... as he was his face.
I said to him, here where I am going to stop and he was explaining that he was so tired but wish to keep on driving :shock: , I said, NO , I am outta here... I gave him the fare and get the heck outta that freakin' taxi !!
I was in the middle of nowhere...... the area was well light but still... this is not my area and it is the area where high crime usually occured... :cry: , I was praying to GOD to protect me.... I stood away from the taxi and look left and right for another taxi. In the front of me was this dark, black river.. darn !! I was scared .... huhuhuhuhu.... but I kept on praying and kept on praying until I saw a taxi and wave to him and he turn around and fetch me !!! Alhamdulillah I thought and said once I was in the taxi... *sigh of relief* the Taxi man asked me what is the matter, so I told him what just happened and he comment a little bit about it and drive away... I was just glad to get away from there to worry about anything....
I sat in that second taxi thinking about what could happen, or easely happen knowing the area I was in..
Being a woman, I really am an easy target sometime... I mean I learned how to protect myself but I suppose S**T happen sometime and nothing I can do to help myself in critical condition such as under a knife point or something worse... I Thank GOD loads and loads for protecting me always and that my guardian Angels was with me at all times... Alhamdulillah...
How vurnerable I was then... I felt sucks !!
Eugh..... so scary...
Hug me hug me hug me......... :cry:
But !! I got home safely to tell this to my family and you all... when I got home... I greet everyone and call my Lil' Angel and gave her a big hug and a kiss !!! and Thanking ALLAH SWT again for blessing me and protect me so I can see my family again.... Thank You ALLAH ...
Man... what a girl to do sometime... :?:
[b]I am so traumatize !!!!!!!! *STRESS*[/b] :shock: :evil: :evil: eugh......
Need to cool down...
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| Help Me... Heal Me... |
| 11.11.03 (6:29 am) [edit] |
I am still down with the tummy bugs and the constant headache, Bloody heck! Here I am in the tropical island of paradise and down with this crap !! =P~
I got things to do , people to see, boys to perves and this slowing me down ! :shock:
Major problem is having my pain in the middle of my tummy, just below my fruits from heaven, above my cute belly button. Pain so extreme sometime it just paralyze me ... anyone got any suggestion what it might be ??
I eat well, majority vegies and rice. I drink heaps of water,bottled one too. I live cleanly... I shower everyday :) , and I keep my self hygienic at all time.Do you think I am too clean therefore I got bugs easely put their dirts on me ? :D
I just wanna get better... this has been more than a week now and I am getting tired of it.
The funny thing is , this pain only comes at night when I need my beauty sleep best. During the day I am ust too tired to go anywhere because lack of sleep and no energy after all the pain I suffered at night.
Anyone had this kind of before ???
Let me know right... help me from this extreme pain each night :cry:
Bless you all :) and Thank you ...
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| Someday In My Life... |
| 11.10.03 (4:33 am) [edit] |
[b][u]Someday In My Life[/b][/u]
Here From The Top Of The Mountain
I See You There
In a Cool Night Air
Someday In My Life
Fear Has No Reason To Doubt Them
They Tell Me So
Yet They Will Never Know
You Are Here In My Life
Wherever I Go Now
I'll follow you
And My Heart Would Be True
I Have Never Known Someone
To Stay Right Here
Soon You Will Be Right Here
Someday In My Life
Here From The Top The Mountain
I See You There
In The Cool Night Air
Someday In My Life
Storm May Rage On About Them
They Hailin' Snow
Yet They Never Know
You Are Here In My Life
Wherever I Go Now
I'll Follow You
And My Heart Would Be True
I Have Never Known Someone
To Stay Right Here
Soon You Will Be Right Here
Someday In My Life...
Someday On My Life...
Someday On My Life...
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| Major HeadAche.... Damm Cabby !! |
| 11.10.03 (4:29 am) [edit] |
Aduw.... Sakit kepala !! Abis jalan2 sama my sis, my Angel, my nephew... buka puasa di Atrium Plaza. Karena mau kelain tempat macetnya tak terkira. Ya udah cari yang deket.. tapi sama aja, hiruk pikuk menjelang buka puasa sudah jadi tradisi di bulan Ramadhan. Aku menyadari itu bahkan aku suka akan kesibukan2 yg ada, karena memang nggak ada yang model begini di negara Kanguru, kecuali ya Hari Natal , itu pun nggak terlalu menjadi-jadi. Jadi aku nikmatin aja masa-masa begini :). Perginya seperti biasa naik taksi, dan sewaktu naik taksi, abang taksi-nya dengan logatnya yg kental dan sikap tidak bersahabatnya menanyakan kemana tujuan kami. Aku jawab dengan jawaban yang biasa-biasa aja layaknya penumpang " Atrium pak" dia langsung memberi info kalau jalan yg hendak kita lalui akan macet total ! dan seperti enggan berangkat. Aku bilang "kan bisa lewat jalan tol dan turun di exit dekat Honda" dia dengan ngedumel terus mengusulkan lewat Ancol, aku mikir ya mungkin nggak macet lewat sana, akhirnya kami turuti kemauannya, siapa sih lagian yang suka bermacet ria ? itu aja masih ngedumel... di setiap perempatan atau pertigaan yang agak ramai dan tersendat itu abang taksi ngedumel.... kami diam saja, karena salah satunya bete aja liat abang taksi kayak pejabat papan atas aja gayanya =P~. Aku diam dan bersabar menghadapi supir taksi yg model begini... salah satunya karena masih dalam sikon puasa :D ...
Setengah jalan, dia bilang kalau dia memutuskan lewat Sunter , Sunter memang alternative lain yang bisa kita pakai kalau macet total di jalan jurusan Ancol. Tapi aku sudah tidak mau argument, aku iya kan saja dengan tujuan biar cepat sampai aja dan keluar dari taksi itu. Akhirnya kami di putar-putar seenak dengkulnya dia disekitar Sunter, menurut aku kalau begini caranya , ini sama saja dengan kalau lewat Jl. Yos Sudarso naik Tol Jagorawi turun di Honda , belok kanan ke Cempaka Putih, lurus dan sampai di Atrium dengan cepat dan mudah , walau macet sedikit !!!!
Yang bikin kesel lagi, cara dia nyupir !! Jalanan kayak milik bokap moyange aja... ponakan gue sampe eneg dan muntah !!! Kakak gue pusing , anak gue gerah dan bete...Gue ??? Alhamdulillah ada permen di tas , gue makan sekali 2 ! kenapa ?? biar mulut gue kepenuhan itu permen dan nggak mengucap yang nggak2, akhirnya kita Maghrib dijalan... bete banget !!
Sampai di Atrium, itu taksi aku bayar dan get the heck outta the hell ride !! :)) dengan mengucap Alhamdulillah akhirnya sampai juga... kasian ponakan gue, sampai pucat pasi, untung kita selalu bawa kantung plastik jadi gak sampai muntah sembarangan.
Mudah-mudahan itu abang taksi dapet penumpang yang banyak dan dapat rezeki yang halal dan banyak untuk di bawa pulang ke anak bini-nya... dan anak bini-nya dapet naik taksi yang bagus2 dan supir-nya ramah-ramah ... Amien..
Satu pelajaran hari ini, menahan hawa amarah meski sudah di ujung lidah... :) ternyata gue bisa nahan amarah gue... hari ini :)) Insya Allah hari-hari lain juga bisa begitu. Amien.
Tapiiiiiiiiiiii, yang ada sekarang.. gue sakit kepala !!!! Wasyem tenan !! Pijitin dunk =P~
Other than that... I had fun with my Sista , my Nephew, my Angel there, we even had the time to dunk few basketballs at TimeZone ,well, kinda like TimeZone =P~, can you imagine... a mother of 1, 30 something age, wearing Jilbab / head cover, long sleeve top and coolest jeans, throwing basket ball ??? Hihihihi cool image hey ?? :)) I like to be a great Muslim lady but I also wanna have a good time sometime, as long as it is Halal. Right ? *cari dukungan*
Aduw... asli, sakit kepala. Udah minum panadol kok masih terasa yah ??? coba kiss me better dunk honey ?? kali aje sembuh....... *sok manja* LoL
Righto, catch ya all laterzzzzzzz :)) Behave yourself ok ?
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| Morning Dew |
| 11.08.03 (8:58 am) [edit] |
Drop of dew so fresh and pure...
I think of You with every drop of it..
I think of our special talk
I think of how many times I call Your name eachday..
I think of how many times You listen to me :)
When I am missing him, you are there...
When I had a fight with him, You are there..
When I am happy because of You, You also there...
I miss You if I don't call your name at least 5 times a day
I will feel like a mess if I don't talk to You just for 1 day
I even feel guilty if I miss my daily talk with You :)
I do... I truly miss You..
You are greater than anything on earth and universe, even heaven ...
You just so ...... cool !! :)
You create heaven on earth for some..
but You also create heaven for others who waits..
You are so fair :)
I miss You with every blinks of my eyes and every beat of my heart... I never stop calling Your name... except when I sleep :) , I wish I can...
Your lover... I miss him too and wishing that one day I can see both of You ... Your high self and Your lover :)
Because I love Both of You...
Without Both of Your blessing I am a big NOTHING !
I love You and Your Lover :) ....
[i][b]Ya Allah ...
Ya Rasul...[/b][/i]
How I miss YOU's ....
With every drop of morning dew... I miss You as much..
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| Missing Someone... |
| 11.08.03 (4:34 am) [edit] |
[i]The whole week I can't shake this feeling of missing someone. I can't help but filled my day thinking of him. When I miss him I can't help but feeling jealous to whoever that near him or at least able see his face and see his smile...
I can't shake this feeling... I Love him..
I need him..
Even the circumstances not to my or our advantage but we know that we love one another..
I just wish I can see and be with him eachday of my life.[/i]
[b]Kangen...[/b]
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| Virtually in Love... |
| 11.07.03 (2:44 am) [edit] |
Virtual Love...
What can you say about virtual love ? for people who used the internet and meeting media such as mIRC, Yahoo Messenger, MSN, or else, those words can be quiet familiar. We meet people thru the chatting room or browsing thru blogs. So far I have seen many positive sides as well as negative sides of those form of meeting people.
I mean I've seen and heard the story of two people meeting on the net followed by meeting in real life, this alone can be quiet heart thumping =P~ experience and not knowing who or what or even how this person we chat with on the net. Many questions come to mind even before we meet the person... mind you if you are a minor and wish to meet someone whom you met at the chat room or private chat, I think you should be accompanied by at least an adult, meet in the public places or invite your friends to come along as we never know what will happen next or who this person would be once you see him in real life.... no matter how much you are in love in chat room :) , yes, you trust the person but the question would be can He / She be trusted ?? or even can you trust yourself ?? in a case of minor chatters , you should be protected !! *you've been warned*. It may not happen on the 1st meeting but who can give you guarantee for your protection next time ? so please , please take good care.....
Anyway, you know when you meet someone thru the net, you do have the potential to be in love with the person even just thru their typed words..., pictures, and many other forms of chatting with so call " virtual b/f or g/f". You do tend to care about the person or even maddly in love with the person even before you meet the person due to usually distance or maybe some other reasons. Your day filled with thinking of that person and you have the feeling as if you really have met the person and totally think of him 24 - 7 !! C'mon you guys surely been there done that :))
Promises of the special day when you and that special person will eventually meet in real life :) , sure it would be something special and awesome to finally met someone that you care about all this time ..... but what happen next ? where do you go from there ? what are the chance of you liking the person in real life as much as in chat ? what would you do if the person want to give you a kiss like in chat ? or hugs ? most of all , will you get along fine as fine as you both in chat ? I mean, as much as you know the person in chat , do you really actually know the person in real life ? how about physical appearance ? fine, you love the person not how she/he looks some of us would say... but seriously, what if that person is NOT the same person as you've been expecting all this time ? What if he /she hiding the facts that he/ she disabled , would you still love the person regardless ? I am not saying disability is a disadvantage but just questioning your feeling about the person regardless ..... ok ? :)
Many, many other questions comes to mind...
Do you consider the person so call " Virtual b/f or g/f " to be your real b/f too ? Do you back off from many potential real life b/f or g/f because you have "Virtual b/f or g/f" ? how about faithfulness ?? how about respecting others ? what ?? blargh !! so many questions... and need to be answered by YOU =P~~~
Sure you guys must have some of those questions at least once in your net life :D
Can you really fall in love with that person even before you meet the person ? Is it right ?
Can you call that commitment ?
What if the person you in love with in chat, never going to come and see you or vice versa ??
What if that "DAY" never come ?
What if tomorrow never comes ? :) *song ?* LoL
I suppose it all come down to how you really feel about the person ... I mean, I've heard another story about people finally meet eachother and got married and live happilly ever after... fairy tale :) but I also heard some negative stories about it... so yeah, the chances and results can be varied :) *sounds like math* Hihihihihi....
Anyway, you guys know what I am talking about... so this is just some thought... :) something to think about over a cuppa or talk about later :))
However, take precautions always... you never know WHO the person really are and it all take time to get to know the person , so yes, take your time to get to know the person before you move onto the next step !! So I leave you with your own thoughts........ :)
Should you give your heart and soul to the person you in love with on chat ??
Listen, either way I am not against all this... because I am there :oops:
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| Gerhana Bulan dan Matahari ... |
| 11.06.03 (8:18 am) [edit] |
Assalamuallaikum...
Katakan gue bodoh atau apapun, tapi kalau kalian dapat email model begini.. gimana sih tanggapan kalian ?? Maksudnya percaya nggak sih ? Kalau gue pribadi ya gue percaya.. namanya juga memang kita semua pernah dengar tentang kejadian yg model begini memang akan ada atau sudah ada... who know's yah Wallahualam...tapi ya kenyataannya kita di tempatkan dalam posisi yang begini, dikirimin email dengan Nama Allah SWT yg di sebut-sebut... dan karena itu pula lah aku mempercayainya...
Tapi menurut gue bener nggak-nya semua terserah Allah SWT , gue kembali ke DIA biar gimanapun kita semua milik DIA, apapun yg DIA mau perbuat ya terserah DIA ... kita hanya bisa berdo'a :) dan mudah-mudahan kita semua tergolong jadi manusia2 yang di KASIHI oleh Allah SWT, amien.....
Nih Emailnya....
[i][u][b]DUA Gerhana pada Ramadhan 2003. [/b][/u][/i]
Pejabat Penyelidikan Astronomi di Vienna telah dapat memperkirakan suatu Keajaiban yg akan berlaku pd 9 & 23 nov.2003, di mana akan terjadi satu gerhana bulan & satu gerhana matahari pada bulan tersebut tidak lama lagi.
peristiwa itu akan jatuh pada bulan ramadhan 2003.
Bulan Ramadhan akan bermula pada 27 Oktober 2003 & berakhir pada 27 Nov 2003. Dgn itu tanggal 9 & 23 akan jatuh dalam bulan Ramadan.
Gerhana bulan pd 9 Nov 03 akan dapat dilihat di seluruh negara Eropa, Asia Tenggara, benua Afrika dan Amerika. sedangkan gerhana matahari terjadi pd 23 November 2003 yang akan dialami penduduk Antartika & selatan laut India.
Seperti yg diriwayatkan oleh Imam Ja'afar Sadiq : " kehadiran Imam Mahdi di kalangan umat manusia dibuktikan dgn berlakunya gerhana bulan & matahari dalam satu bulan yg suci, yg tidak pernah terjadi sebelumnya sejak kelahiran Nabi Muhammad s.a.w" (Ikmal Al-Din m.s 361)
LAA ILAAHA ILLALLAH
Rasulullah saw. bersabda :"Wahai manusia ! Ucaplah 'Laa ilaaha illalLah', kamu pasti berjaya!"
Marilah kita ucapkan kalimah ini:
"Laa ilaaha illallah!" x 10
Setelah ucapkannya sebanyak 10 kali, panjangkan/fowardkan email ini kepada 10 orang rekan-rekan anda. Bayangkan betapa besarnya pahala yang Allah sediakan, hanya untuk usaha kita yang sedikit dan sambil lewat.
Laa ilaaha illalLah!
Nggak akan ada salahnya atau ruginya apabila kita menyebut nama ALLAH SWT dimasa-masa tersebut di atas, terlepas dari Gerhana maupun tidak.. kita semua mudah-mudahan sudah selalu menyebutkan Nama-NYA setiap hari anyway :) Insya Allah.
Wassalamuallaikum Wr Wb
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| WHAT !!!! |
| 11.05.03 (3:32 am) [edit] |
I miss my home... I Miss my bed... I miss my neighbourhood... I miss Perth !! Damn It ! =P
I have been away from home #2 since July and man... more and more I miss it...
Thinking of the day where I sat on my green lawn and read my fave book or sun baking *nude ?* well, it is a quiet backyard allright ! =P~
I was thinking of the day where I thought my Angel to ride her bike....
I was thinking on the day with my friends from England, the were 3 of them and how we jokes and chatted along...
I was thinking of the day when I bought the place 3 years ago... almost 4 years now infact..
I was thinking of the day my love bloomed...
I was thinking of the day we said goodbye with "Moonlight Sonata" on the background...
I was thinking of the day I found love again... :oops:
I was thinking of the day when... I hugs my Angel so tight and tell her that I love her so dearly...
But I am here and this is one heck of an adventures !! I am with my folks and enjoying myself so far but just missing my own home :) My Palace :)
Today, I was looking at some pictures of us, my Angel and me ... at home :) ughhh....
But I have duty that I need to finished before I can go anywhere so I am gonna sit tight until it is all done !!
But, what the heck happen to my mate Jason ?? Where on earth he is ?? Missing in Action :lol: , I have not heard from him for 3 days now... nyeehh... maybe he met some nice lil' Princess somewhere on the island of Java ?? hihihi.. Lucky Him..
Jason if you read this blog , shout me will ya !!! Or I kick yer ass when I see you , IF I see you more like it 8)
Take care allz... *hugs & kiss*
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| For My Sweetheart.... |
| 11.04.03 (9:55 am) [edit] |
After Tonight
Staring up at the moonlight
Looking up at the stars
I'm alone and I just want to be with you
But I don't know where you are
Maybe I took you for granted
So blind, I let your love slip away
Now I'm missing you so much I can't stand it
Please believe me when I say,
After tonight, I never will be the same again
This time I'm sure that nothing means more
Than giving you all the love I can
After tonight I promise, I'm gonna be a better man
Just hold me tight, and I'll be all right
After tonight
Anticipating the moment
When I can make love with you again
Patience is a virtue I'm finding
Very hard to understand
After tonight, I will never be the same again
This time I'm sure that nothing means more
Than giving you all the love I can
After tonight I promise, I'm gonna be a better man
Just hold me tight, and I'll be all right
After tonight
I Love You...
I Need You...
I Miss You...
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| Tak ada gading yang tak retak !!! |
| 11.04.03 (9:23 am) [edit] |
Kadang-kadang aku nggak tau gimana berbuat.. dan nggak tau apa yang telah aku perbuat atau kadang aku nggak tau kenapa aku berbuat.. :cry:
Aku kadang-kadang ditaruh dalam posisi yg sulit oleh temanku sendiri dan aku nggak tau harus berbuat apa..
Jadi misalnya seseorang minta tolong aku tentang sesuatu dan aku di posisikan di situasi yg mana akan membuatku biar bagaimanapun akan memberiku ke tidak untungan. Jika aku tidak membantu temanku ini aku akan dibilang "Nggak care atau cewe bla bla bla" tapi kalau aku bantu dengan info yang ada , aku juga masih akan di anggap gitu oleh sisi lain dari teman ini. Dan akhir-akhirnya yang ada sekarang tuh.. aku malahan jadi dimusuhi oleh 2 - 3 orang, karena apa ? Karena "teman" ku ini membuka tabir tentang apa yang dia tau dari aku sedangkan aku juga tau dari orang lain yang pada akhirnya , aku jadi dalam posisi yang nggak enak... karena menjadi musuh orang yang nggak aku begitu kenal dan jadi jauh dari teman yg tadinya termasuk teman akrab :( , sedih kan ?
Aku membantu dia atas permintaan dia... aku pun jujur atas permintaan dia.. tapi kenapa aku sekarang yang jadi sasaran tembak sana sini bahkan dia sendiripun jadi menjauh dari aku...
Kalau begini posisinya ya ini lah yang dinamakan : buah simalakama !!! Sana sini salah...
Aku terima konsekuensi-nya waktu aku di"paksa" memberi tau apa yg ku tau... dengan alasan aku asli care sama ini orang karena aku memang tidak mendukung sikon yang ada antara dia dan someone else. Aku bahkan sempat menutupi tentang apa yang aku tau tapi... lagi2 dipaksa... ya akhirnya aku jadi berada di posisi yang nggak enak sekarang...
Aku di hakimi secara tidak jelas dan tidak adil, itu yg aku rasakan.. aku merasa suaraku sekarang tidak didengar karena teman-ku ini jadi sakit hati menerima kenyataan yang pahit dan teman-nya dia jadi nggak respect lagi sama aku walaupun apa yang ku tau tuh memang fakta-nya begitu. Jadi kebenaran yang nyata malah ditutupi yang akhirnya merugikan orang lain...
Yang makan nangkanya siapa, gue yang kena getahnya... aneh aja nih orang pada !! Gue melulu yang kena "getah"-nya. Kenapa kudu nyalahin orang lain, ya liat aja kelakuan, kalo salah ya ngaku, nggak salah ya udah , benahin diri... :roll:
Oh well... tak ada gading yang tak retak , semua manusia pernah melakukan kesalahan, Rasulullah aja pernah berbuat salah... apalagi kita manusia biasa.Apalagi gue ... apalagi loe pada :lol:
Yang jelas, gue hanya melakukan apa yang bisa dilakukan ama teman yang baik, bila itu gak cukup atau kurang berkenan ya udah... gue sih nggak akan lepas tangan, gue akan pertanggung jawabin omongan gue dan apa yang udah gue omongin ada fakta dan memang terjadi , jadi gue nggak "Nggak BullShiT !!!"
Ah ada2 aja... ya gue cuman nyesalin persahabatan gue ama teman gue ini jadi berubah dan gue sesali tindakan dia yang memaksa dan akhirnya membuahkan kebencian antar teman.. but apa boleh buat...
Oh Well... I learn my lesson , to SHUT UP and SHUT My Eyes so I won;t see no Jack next time !!
Catch ya !
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| ~*~ Another leave.. ~*~ |
| 11.03.03 (3:32 am) [edit] |
Innalillahi Wainalillahi Roji'un...
Another leave of life had dropped...
He's time to come "Home" is up
There where we all gonna be...
That is our final destination
Rest in Peace dear friend
May your soul be at peace and that GOD be with you and your family...
We miss you....
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| Resting .... |
| 11.02.03 (9:47 am) [edit] |
Aduh... kok saya kok sakit sih ? habis sahur, duduk2 sebentar terus sholat Subuh... semuanya lancar-lancar aja.... eh abis itu..ugh... :( sakit ulu hatiku..
Kenapa yah ? enak2 puasa kok sakit sih ? :cry:
Need my honey... :cry:
Please, please... doa'in cepet sembuh yah.. sayang nih puasanya kalo sampe gak lengkap !!
Duh... sakitnya... :cry: :?
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