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Angel: The Pure
"And The Angel rose as holy protector for all that was created. She fought with honor and valor to serve the good of the world. But the coming of the mankind was her downfall; and end to purity." Some examples of the Angel Form are Michael Christian) and Hercules (Greek).
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Her sign is the zenith sun. As a member of Form 2, you are a person of your word. You generally keep your promises and give everything you do your best. Although some people see you as overbearing sometimes, you know that you have to stay true to yourself and do what's right. Angels are the best friends to have because they are brutally honest. brought to you by Quizilla
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| ~*~ Result and Pray of An AngeL ~*~ |
| 03.31.04 (10:36 pm) [edit] |
Yeah, seen my doctor today and he told me the result ....and yeah... the tumour getting bigger. Last week was only 2.5 cm now it is 3.5 cm and I saw the scan result ... the sucker pretty big and huge !!! Bugger me !!!
The doctor said that it need to be taken immediately within 3 weeks before putting too much pressure on the brain and able to give me a stroke or fainting. So... there....
He told me my chance of survival is good because I am a strong lady and pretty fit , so nothing to worry about , there are some risks , after all it is gonna be pretty major surgery , gotta open my head up !! :lol: hihihihi I wonder if they can truly find my brain =p~ eoheoheoheo I will be surprise if they find any brain at all knowing how mad I am !!! :lol:
Hhhhhhhh.... kinda relief though to know that all gonna be done as soon as possible.
At least now I know what to expect and what to do and what need to be done ... the waiting are over , now I am just gonna have to prepare myself for the operation and recovery. Wish me luck !!! * on high spirit *
Akhirnya tau juga hasilnya dan ternyata tumornya tambah besar , jadi mau nggak mau kudu dioperasi dengan resiko2 yang ada termasuk stroke ketika di operasi atau setelahnya... gue pasrah deh , gue cuman bisa berdoa dan berharap semuanya akan berjalan lancar dengan doa2 dari keluarga dan temen2 semua terutama Nanda gue...
Malam ini Nanda... dia mendengar pembicaraan2 tentang ini semua dan dia dari tadi sore diam saja.... tapi setelah semua pada pulang dan nggak ada telephone lagi ... dia minta di peluk dan di cium .. dan dia berkata dengan suaranya yang pelan dan raut wajah lugunya ... wajahnya tiba2 memerah dan matanya berkaca-kaca sambil mengucap : " Mommy... I hope very much it all working out for you... because I still wanna be with you very much... " lalu dia menangis ....
Aku ... berusaha segembira mungkin membicarakan hal ini dan memberi penjelasan2 dengan hati2 dan tenang , mengangkat spiritnya supaya dia nggak down. Dia tanya2 berapa lama operasinya dan berapa hari akan di RS aku .. dia tanya Mommy mau nggak dibelikan majalah ? Boleh nggak Angela nungguin di samping Mommy waktu di operasi ?? Angela boleh nggak bobok samping Mommy nanti kalau sudah selesai operasinya ??? ..... 2 minggu ke depan tuh kebetulan dia kan ada libur dari sekolahnya , liburan Easter / Paskah dan semester 1 over. Jadi dia ada 3 minggu holiday , dia seharusnya liburan ... tapi ternyata dia harus mengalami kejadian yg menyedihkan dia tahun ini ... :cry: , aduhhhhhhhhhh gue tega banget sama anak gue... kudunya dia bersenang-senang malah jadi menangis ... Maafkan Mommy Cinta... *hugs*
Dia menangis malam ini dan kata2nya sangat menusuk hati ku , aku tidak menangis, ku tahan air mata ini demi dia dan kutenangkan fikirannya dengan pelukan2 dan ciuman2 dan kata2 yg menyejukkan jiwanya... insting seorang ibu aku keluarkan semua untuk melindunginya... malam ini malam berat secara emosional buat aku dan Nanda... berat sekali... patah hati ini ... hancur banget hati ini.. Nanda sangat khawatir akan kehilangan ku ... dan begitu juga aku..
Tapi aku positif semua ada di tangan-NYA. Demi ALLAH SWT yang jiwa & raga ini ada dalam genggaman-NYA aku mohon perlindungan-MU demi Nanda ... amien.
Nandaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa !!!!!!!!!!!! I love You... :cry:
Ya ampun.. anak ini ... sensitif sekali jiwanya... tak pernah ku lihat dia sangat takut dan rapuh begini...
[i][b]"Semoga Mommy Live Forever With Me Ya ALLAH... Semoga Mommy Lekas Sembuh dan Bisa Bersama Angela Lagi... Amien"[/i][/b] ini doa yang terucap dari mulut Nanda for me tonight ...
What an Angel I have in my life... Bless Me ...
Take care pplz ... Cheers !!! Oh Wish Me Luck ok.. thanks :)
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| ~*~ I LOVE YOU MY ANGEL ~*~ |
| 03.30.04 (11:49 pm) [edit] |
Wadaw!! Hari ini.. gue di Scan lagi tapi yg lebih lengkap alias deep scan / MRI . Claustrophobic banget deh rasanya dan itu bangsa 1/2 jam-an .... gue dari takut sampe gemetar dan ketiduran =p~ , mayan lama sih dan suara yang bising malah membuat gue ngantuk - jadi deh ketiduran dikit dan nggak worry lagi. Hehehhee... sempet2nya gue ketiduran =p
Setengah jalan dari scan tsb mereka kudu suntik gue pake semacam metalic injeksi yg gunanya untuk melihat sesuatu di tubuh kita dan ketika di scan akan nyala dalam sinar x untuk lihat bila ada kelainan di tubuh kita misalnya.. kanker atau tumour2 lainnya...
Sakitan suntikannya daripada scan nya =p~ heiheiheieh.. duduT !!
Kaki gue kesemutan dan sampe sekarang belum hilang2 nih... ada yang mampet nih kayaknya pembuluh darah gue di kaki kiri gue... ngapa yah ? sampe2 kalau sholat mau sujud tuh sakitnya minta ampun dengkul gue.. sampe kudu jumpalitan =p , yang akhirnya gue duduk deh sholatnya daripada kesakitan tiap mau sujud.... yang penting kan sholat jalan terus meskipun kudu sambil duduk. Badan gue membengkak dan kaki gue juga begitu , dengkul gue membengkak juga , pergelangan kaki gue , sekujur tubuh gue !!! Bisa dibilang gue kelihatan kayak ikan paus terdampar nih :lol: - kulit gue mulai pada terkelupas karena keringnya .. gue minum air sampe 2 ltr lebih sehari dan pake pelembab tapi kulit gue tetep kering.
Huhuhuhu... nih obat2an kuat juga yakz ... badan gue rusak.. rambut gue rusak... tapi taqwa gue mudah2an bertambah dan kesabaran gue bertambah .... TUHAN , bila ini cara-MU mengingatkan hamba-MU yg hina ini... Alhamdulillah... I love YOU so very much ...
Hati gue masih dalam keadaan gembira dan nggak negatif , gue sendiri heran .. gue nggak depress dengan semua perbedaan yang terjadi di diri gue ... secara physic gue berubah tapi secara emotion dan bathiniah gue tetep gue dan tetep manusia yang normal menjalani keseharian meskipun setiap hari gue merasakan sesuatu perubahan terjadi sama tubuh gue. Mudah2an gue nggak sampe jadi momok yang menakutkan buat anak gue .. gue akan rawat diri gue sebaik mungkin biar nggak bikin Nanda malu atau takut sama Ibunya sendiri... kasihan Nanda... :cry:
Tiada penderitaan yang lebih daripada melihat anak sendiri menjadi sengsara gara2 kita... Ya ALLAH SWT jangan ambil "keindahan"-ku demi anak-ku... amien. Betapa akan menangis jiwa ini bila dia takut melihatku atau malu... akan hancurlah hati ini nanti... Ambil semua yang ada tapi jangan ambil kegembiraan, kebahagiaan, kebanggaan dan pride Nanda saya... amien.
Ucapan2 doa selalu kupanjatkan buatku dan Nanda , doa2 terucap demi yg terbaik buat Nanda ...Duh Gusti... dengarlah doa2 hamba-MU ini...
Saya cinta Angel so much...
Nanda .... I just love you so very much sweetheart...
:cry:
*silent pray*
[i]~*~ I LOVE MY ANGEL SO MUCH ~*~ [/I]
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| ~*~ MRI ~*~ |
| 03.30.04 (11:19 am) [edit] |
Today is the day !! MRI day ...
Tomorrow gonna be the day I hope to know what need to be done with me in next month or so.
Wish me luck yo lovely people 8) !!
I am not scared but anxious on what will they find but positive with whatever going to happen, after all whatever happen don't matter anyway , I still consider it as a blessing to have been given such a privilige life like I have right now . Fabulous years of fun and happiness, small hurdle such this one not going to damaged the whole system.. could be worst right ?? I could be in the gutter somewhere doing jack for all I know =p~
But No, I am in this gorgeous city of Perth, glorious country of Australia and sitting in my lounge room with my laptop typing this to you guys to let you know how spoilt I can be :oops: hehhehehehe
So I shall just leave it to that and get my butt ready for this MRI stuff and I catch you later then , okay !!!
Have a nice fun time .. and keep that smile on your face for me :wink:
Cheers !!
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| ~*~ Mama ~*~ |
| 03.29.04 (11:56 am) [edit] |
[i] Good Morning Mama[/i]
[i]Mama...
How I miss you voice..
How I miss your touch
You peaceful face colouring my heart silver
You sweet words brave me thru my day and night
You whisked away my nightmares away with you grace
Mama...
I just Miss You so much.. [/i]
Susah sekali untuk gembira beberapa hari ini, banyak sekali kejadian2 yang membuat dadaku sesak dan nggak bisa di buang begitu saja. Langit serasa sangat kelabu dan anginpun meniupkan hembusan2 kesedihan dan mendalam...
Aku mengerti bahwa sesuatu akan ada akhirnya tapi sangat susah sekali menerima semuanya secara sabar, logik dan tabah... bukan , bukan aku putus asa tapi agak merasa tidak berdaya saja, satu demi satu terjadi dan aku merasa sangat tidak berdaya selain panjatan2 doa demi doa setiap kali selesai sholat.
Akhir2 ini , teman2 sedang dalam kesulitan dan tertimpa musibah yang terjadi sama para orang tua mereka, dan aku di sini dikabarin dan merasa tidak berdaya untuk membantu... aku hanya bisa membantu dengan doa2 yang terucap... aku ingin melakukan lebih dari itu ...
Aku jadi inget Mama di JKT dan betapa inginnya aku memeluknya dan merawatnya ... membahagiakan dirinya di hari tua nya... ingin sekali aku berada di sisinya terus - grow old sama dia ... aku ingin bersama dia. Aku ingin memanjakan Mama...
Aku harus make plan nih biar bisa balik ke JKT dan mencoba untuk tinggal di sana untuk beberapa tahun (?)
Gak tau bisa apa nggak yah ? finansialy mungkin bisa tapi physic dan mental ini yg rada2 ngeper juga. JKT man !! Hmm... harus bikin suatu rencana biar bisa sama Mama :) *hugs Mommy*
Bisa gak yah saya dan Nanda LIVE di JKT ??????? :shock: for few years ??? :D *JIPER !!!!*
Just wanna be with my Mom , itu aja tau nya....
Eh eh , besok saya di MRI jam 10 pagi, untuk melihat lagi itu tumour nya numbuh apa nggak atau gimana... yang jelas akan deep scan lah dan mudah2an hasilnya menggembirakan - Wish Me Luck Ya Friends :)
Mudah2an doa2 dan usaha ku dan my family di dengar oleh-NYA ...
Kalau ndak ada apa2 kan ndak jadi operasi .... jadi nggak ribet dengan urusan Nanda nggak ada yg urus kalau saya sampe di operasi !! Masak Nanda saya jd terlantar nantinya... dia kan nurutnya hanya sama aku dan dia akan sedih dan kangen aku kalau bukan aku yg urus dia.. lagian nggak ada yang tau adatnya Nanda bagaimana nih *garuk2 kepala*
Soale katanya aku akan 5 hari paling sedkit di RS bila ada operasi trus paling ngga kan 1 bln gak begitu 100 % berfungsi di rumah... walah kudu cari pembokat nih !!! Woi ada yg kenal pembokat yg gak seksih dan ganjen gak ?? :oops: , yang bisa masak dan ngerawat anak, bisa siapin makan pagi, urusan sekolah dan anter anak kesekolah, jemput, bikin makan siang, beres2 rumah , masak makan malam, dan bantu2 gue keluar dari tempat tidur =p~ , gue mandi sendiri deh =p~ ... apalagi yah... ya pokoknya yg keibuan lah biar nggak ganjen !! Nanti gue sakit2 dia nonton MTV sambil jingkrak2 pake rok mini lagi !! :evil: bisa sembuh mendadak gue dan kemplangin tuh pembokat !!
*Garuk2 kepala lagi* gemana yah... ??
In search of Pembokat !!!
Maunya sih yg udah di sini jd gak ribet kudu apply untuk VISA masuknya. Ada gak yah sodara2 temen gue yang mau jadi pembantu RT ? gak banyak kerjaan lagi disini mah..lha wong rumah gak gede dan kerjaan palingan juga normal2 aja. Gue cerewet tapi baik hati... *jieh*
Mudah2an ALLAH SWT kasih solusi nanti2... apapun yg terjadi gue akan berusaha supaya AngeL nggak terlantar... my precious Princess *hugs*
Do'a in yah...
Ok deh.. cukup ah, jari2 saya sudah pada capek. Mau see the day dulu saya :) - Take care Y'all *hugs*
Cheers !
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| ~*~ Toothless AngeL ~*~ |
| 03.28.04 (8:31 pm) [edit] |
Huahhhhhh .....
Sunday !! and I am beat! My Baby Angel also beat =p~ , we had lazy Sunday and Angel's mate was here to have a little play until late afternoon. After that... NOTHING!! Just bumming around and Angel was playing with some games on the Play Station , we chose to have a quiet afternoon. We've done so much this weekend so I think we deserved to have a relax Sunday :)
Wacthing "American Idol" now and chilling with my baby girl ... with her loosen tooth that she kept on playing , ggggrrrrrr ... I wanna pull it out !! :twisted:
I say we gonna have early night tonight, because school day again tomorrow and I still got loads of work to do tomorrow so I must get my rest for another attack of work !!
What I really want right now is just a slice of Tiramisu Cake !!! Need some sugar and chocolate fix !!!
Wakakakka... as I sit here typing away, my Angel tooth just came out with her own effort =p~ - hihihihi she decided to just pull it out herself since she was worry I might get my hand in it and pull it out :lol: Finally it is out ! Coz it has been given her loads of trouble while eatting , so she is happy now that it is out... she look so cute :D
Anyway, enuf bla bla for now ... take it easy y'all :)
Cheers !
[u]Late breaking news :[/u]
Dodik's Mom , bundanya sikomik, semenjak kemarin sudah masuk RS dan hari ini sedang menjalani cuci darah di RS di Cilacap :( , setelah di periksa dengan teliti di lab , ternyata beliau ada kelainan ginjal ... mohon doa2 dari teman2 yang kenal dia maupun yang tidak... semoga Mama-nya Mas Dodik lekas sembuh dan bisa bersama keluarganya lagi. Amien. Thanks.
Ya ALLAH SWT limpahkanlah orang2 tua kami kesembuhan bagi yang sedang sakit , kesehatan, kebahagiaan dunia akhirat... amien. Buat para orang tua yang sudah mendahului kita semua, semoga ALLAH SWT memberkahi mereka, diampuni dosa2nya dan keluarga yang ditinggal mendapat rakhmat dan hidayah-MU , amien.
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| ~*~ My Fungky AngeL Babe ~*~ |
| 03.28.04 (2:57 am) [edit] |
Akhirnya....
Selesai juga beres2nya !! Hiheiehiehiehihe.... badan gue serasa ancur !!! =p~ asli jadi kuli panggul dan cleaning servis dua hari , dua malam ini :lol: - angkat sana, angkat sini dan vaccum, elap2, buang2, tengak-tengok ... Buset dah !
Yang paling lama kurasa itu bersih2nya dan buang2 barang2 yang tidak perlu dan melepaskan sesuatu yang beberapa tahun hanya menumpuk debu saja. Banyak sekali barang2 yang tidak ada fungsinya sama sekali dan hanya memenuhi tempat saja dan membuat rumah terasa cramped dan ribet kelihatannya :D , Ya udah akhirnya aku dengan tekat yang membaja, buang semua hal2 yang nggak perlu !! heiehiehei... buktinya selama ini juga nggak tau itu barang2 ada disitu =p~
Kamar Nanda pun jadi tambah lega karena dia aku suruh misah2in mana buku2 dan main2an yang dia paling suka.. selebihnya mau saya masukan ke chairity place, sumbangin buat anak2 kurang mampu. Koleksinya setelah aku bersih2 ada mainan, baju2, sepatu, buku2, dll sbg-nya yang sudah kekecilan ataupun agak usang. Akupun sekalian bersih2 kamar dan pakaianku juga.... buang baju2 yang hanya bergantung di lemari... mendingan dipakai orang lain kan. Ya udah hasilnya rumah terasa lebih "bernafas" dan lega rasanya... semua terasa lebih fresh ... aaahhhhhh.... nyamannya.... :oops:
Kenapa gak dari kemarin yah ?? heeeheiheihie karena kemarin2 saya males !!! Itulah kenapa =p
Tadi pagi tuh waktu saya bangun setelah sholat Subhuh , saya bobok lagi karena masih capek tapi kira2 jam 8 Nanda bangun... dia nonton film kartun yang lama2 membuat dia lapar .... dia minta mie rebus buat makan pagi hihihihih :shock: tumben... biasanya minta Nutri-grain + milk. Pagi ini dia ingin mie rebus dan milo , emang enak ??? :D , ya udah aku bangun... bikinin dia b/fast trus abis itu mandi dan mulai bersih2 lagi ... makan b/fast apa adanya dan secangkir teh. Huih !! Kerja kerja mari kita kerja !!! Hhehehe kerja deh sampe jam 10-an , abis itu Nanda minta di ajak jalan2 ... halaaaaahhhhhhhhhh !! orang sedang sibuk2nya kok malah minta jalan-jalaaaannnnnnnnnn , ampun deh anak satu nihhhhhhhh *teriak2 dengan semangatnya* AAArrghhhhhhhhhhhh !! ngedumel2 deh aku akhirnya tapi apa boleh buat... hari indah dan ini akhir pekan... ya wes !!! drop semuanya dan mandi lagi dan berdandan !! Ighhhhhhh !!! Meluncur lah mobil kecilku menuruti kemauan Tuan Putri kecil-ku ... "where would you like to go lil' missy ?? " gitu kataku =p~ dan dia dengan gembira dan dandanannya yang fungkeH !! pake sun hat pulak =p , asli grown-up banget dandannya .. eheieheihei menih cantik banget hari ini dia... pantesan ngajak jalan2 soale dia pengen mejeng negh kek nya =p~ GANJEN !!! heiheiheiehi kayak sapa yah ?? 8)
Dia bilang " To Fremantle where the funky people going Mom !! " trus gonta-ganti channel di Radio mobil ...iggghhhhhhhh... sampe dia nemu lagu yang enak trus joged dan humming ngikutin lagu2 di radio... aku senyam-senyum sendiri lihat tingkahnya Nanda =p
Gembiranya menta ampun. Sampe di Fremantle kira2 20 mins kemudian , dia buru2 keluar dari mobil ... "mom lihat ada film apa yuk di cinema" .. aku dengan tenang nya ngeloyor ngikutin si Tuan Putri .... biasalah... PAZRAHHHHHH menerima takdir ku ditangan Nandaku yang cantik ini ... lemas aku lihat senyum mautnya dan tingkahnya.. jadi nurut aja aku =p . Di cinema ada film Agent Cody Banks II - Destination London ... yegh, jadi deh nonton =p , tapi mulainya masih lama... jadi sempat makan siang dulu dan muter2 dikit. Akhirnya kita ke TimeZone dulu , Nanda ingin main Dance Revolution Dancing dulu =p eiheihiehie... udah deh dia main2 , joged2 dan loncat2 !! dilihatin orang banyak waktu main , soale lincah banget dan dia memang BISA banget mainan ini.. jd di tonton orang bule segitu banyaknya dia kagak grogi malah nantang kayaknya nih anak =p , aku sempat lihat beberapa orang geleng2 kepala dan kagum2 gitu bisik2nya =p~ sampe ada yang sempet nanya ke aku " udah berapa lama anak ini main ginian ??? " aku jawab " palingan 1 thn dan itu nggak tiap hari main sih, hanya weekend aja kalo ke TimeZone" ehhehehe.. Nanda memang mata dan kakinya sinkronnya bagus buat main ini dancing thingy , cepat aja matanya dan kakinya, aku yg ngeliat aja kadang capek sendiri =p , badannya sampe berkeringat tapi kok nggak menggeh2 yah ?? coba saya ?? udah TEPAR !!!!! gedubrakz aja !! hehehehehe
Abis itu... kita jalan2 lagi... lihat2 buku dan lain2 , enak woi today udaranya buat jalan2 sama Nanda... santai banget kita hari ini. Sempet lupa aku sama rumahku yang masih berantakan tadi pagi. Nikmatnya...
Trus abis itu Nanda berasa mulai lapar , ya udah kita stop dan makan siang , sambil dengarin ada orang ngamen di kejauhan , wanita bersuara lengking menyanyikan lagu seriosa ... dengan background classical music ... enak juga ternyata sampai aku terbuai dan serasa di bawa ke abad yang lampau di England atau Eropa lainnya... indah sekali suasananya. Kami makan2 tadi dekat dengan Weekend Market jadi suasananya memang tepat banget .... mataharipun tidak menyengat buat kita duduk di alam terbuka , meja kami penuh dengan makanan dan minuman kesukaan kami.. nyam-nyam ... aku makan Phad Thai - Mie Goreng Ala Thai hari ini yang pedas dan lezat sekali. Alhamdulillah for the perfect day YOU've given me and my daughter Ya ALLAH ....
Kami-pun akhirnya nonton film Cody Banks jam 1.30 PM sampe jam 3:45 PM , rame dan lucu filmnya , heihieheihe, kami ngakak2 didalam cinema sambil makan pop corn !! dan Malteasersssssssss =p heheehehe
Pulang jam 4 dari situ ... santai mobil melaju lagi menuju toko China yg hendak aku kunjungi hari ini buat beli kebutuhan masak memasak di rumah, dan ternyata hari ini hari beruntung !! Kenapa ??? ADA KANGKUNG !!!! hehoehoehoe , hu eh Kangkung sodara2 , nggak kagum ? bagi aku , itu seperti nemu emas 1 kg , karena itu langka !! dan itupun hanya tinggal beberapa ikat saja ... ya udah aku sabet 1 ikat yang paling kelihatan segar dan beli cabe2 rawit dengan niatan akan masak tumis kangkung malam ini ... asik asik !! *jingkrak2* - beginilah hidup merantau ... jika mendapat suatu yang simple begitu senangnya minta ampun padahal kalau di Indo kangkung tuh sampe dikasih2 makan ke embek =p , sangking banyaknya ... di sini .. 1 iket kangkung tuh harganya ... brp ya tadi ?? di Rupiahkan Rp. 15.000 deh per iket kecil =p tapi lumayan banyak deh buat aku makan sendiri , Nanda mana doyan ?? :D - Dia udah minta bikinkan hot dog anyway buat dinnernya katanya.
Nah... jadi deh makan malam ku dengan sukses , Tumis Kangkung, Nasi Putih, Ayam goreng, sama sambel terasi tomat. Weleh pedesnyaaaaaaaaaaaa.. rawitnya aseliiii puedessssssss hhieheiehi huah huah huah... *ngiler kepedesan* :lol:
Simplicity is The best !!
Wahhhhh... enaknya...
Malamnya dihabiskan dengan santai dan aku masih dikit2 ambil2 sesuatu buat di bersihkan dan ditaruh di tempat yang layak sambil minum wedang jahe dan susu =p , my tummy very happy :)
Sekarang tinggal capeknya saja... makanya mau molor dulu !!! Besok kudu bangun pagi2 dan siap2in makanan2 kecil , kan teman Nanda akan ada yang datang kerumah , jadi ya siap2 buat mereka deh ... untung udah selesai nih bersih2nya. Heheheh besok tinggal enjoy sama anak2. Nikmatin hari Minggu dengan tawa anak2 *senyum2 gembira*
Dah yah.. aku tinggal bobok dulu... nguantuxxxxxx !! Have a Nice Night Ppl ... *hugs& kiss*
Cheers !!
* Molor samping si Cantik Angel * *Damai............*
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| ~*~ Re-decorating ~*~ |
| 03.26.04 (11:26 pm) [edit] |
Weleh... capeknya...
Start pagi banget setelah susah tidur semalaman, perasaan tidur tapi nggak gitu nyenyak banget, dan akibatnya pagi2 jam 5 sudah kudu bangun, Subuhan, abis itu beres2 rumah dikit sambil siap2in Lunch Box Nanda, pagi amat ?? Rajin banget ?? :D
Setelah anter Nanda ke sekolah , gantian ngurusin diri sendiri... Jog !! Hehehee rutin tiap pagi, udara indah hari ini dan cerah jadi jam 9:30 pagi sudah terasa panasnya. Tapi sudah niat jadi ya kudu jalanin terus deh :) Nyaman rasanya panas matahari di kulit dan udara segar menembus dadaku dan rongga2 nafasku.. berasa hidup banget... Alhamdulillah..
Pulang jogging, dengan niat pergi kerja tapi ternyata fax2 yang masuk banyak sekali pagi ini ke rumah !!! Welehhhhhh .. ya udah jadi deh saya berkerja dirumah hari ini =p~ , gak apa deh... Lembar demi lembar di pelajari dan di jawab dan di fax balik... phone calls... phone calls... Fax lagi... etc etc...
Midday !! Cuapek mata saya !! dan ada niatan mau bersih2 kamar Nanda dan rubah2 dikit dekor nya, mainan nya sudah terlalu banyak dan buku2nya berantakan !!! *typical Nanda deh*
Edian!! angkat sana, angkat sini - ternyata kuat juga saya =p heheiehiehiehei... berkutet seharian sama rumah dan sore jemput Nanda ... do the shopping , cook some Roast Lamb buat dinner *nyam nyam* , Nanda makan dengan lahapnya dan dia bilang nikmat masakanku malam ini :oops:
Ini baru aja selesai urusan rumah, aku sudah putuskan untuk berhenti bersih2 rumah , pegel sudah pinggangku!! Mau patah rasanya =p~ maklumlah nenek2 :lol: but lumayan banyak yg sudah di kerjakan besok hanya tinggal merapikan , YEAH !!!!!!!!! Besok kudu kelar !! Soale hari Minggu nanti ada teman Angel yang akan datang dan main disini - jadi kamarnya kudu rapi sebelum Minggu !! TARGET !!!! Wish me Luck !!
Lelah sekali hari ini...
Lelah tubuh tua ini
Ngantuk mata ini...
Tapi kok belum mau bobok yah ...
Kangen Mama ...
Ingin makan masakan Mama yang lezat
Ingin lihat wajah teduhnya
Ingin mendengar suara2 mengajinya...
Ingin suara lembutnya membangunkan ku untuk sholat Subhuh ...
Kangen di peluk Mama
Mommy I miss You So Much ... *hugs&kiss*
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| ~*~ Another Leaf Falling... ~*~ |
| 03.25.04 (11:43 pm) [edit] |
Assalamuallaikum Wr Wb,
Inalillahiwainalillahi Rojiun...
Telah berpulang ke Rakhmat ALLAH SWT Ibunda Rezki tercinta dengan tenang kembali ke pangkuan-NYA. Kamis Pagi 25 - Maret 2004.
Semoga beliau mendapat tempat yang layak di sisi-NYA dan diampunkan dosa2nya, diterima amal ibadahnya sesuai dengan amal perbuatannya... semoga ALLAH SWT menghadiahkan syurga baginya dan Keluarga yang ditinggalkan mendapat ketabahan , kelapangan rezeki, kesehatan dunia dan akhirat , kebahagiaan dunia akhirat dan mendapat rakhmat dan hidayah dari NYA.
Semoga Rezki di beri ketabahan dalam menerima musibah yang tak terduga ini yang sedang jauh di rantau ... Maafkan kami Rez tidak bisa ada di sisi kamu selagi ada musibah tapi doa dan dukungan kami selalu bersama kamu ... semoga ALLAH SWT menabahkan hatimu dan memberkahimu selalu... amien Ya Rabb.
Kami semua turut berduka cita ....
Wassalamualaikum Wr Wb,
Makasih buat teman-teman yang sudah berdoa dan mendukung... semoga ALLAH SWT membalas kebaikan dan kepekaan kalian, amien. * GOD BLESS ALL OF YOU *
Juga titip doa buat Mama-nya siKomik alias Dodik , beliau juga sedang sakit di Indonesia , lagi2 saya mohon doa dari teman-teman buat para orang tua kita yg sedang tidak sehat baik di luar maupun di Indonesia. Semoga ALLAH SWT memberi kesembuhan bagi mereka semua ... amien.
Thank u all *hugs*
*Luar biasa sedihnya*
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| ~*~ A tribute For Rezki Mom ~*~ |
| 03.25.04 (7:37 am) [edit] |
Dear Friends,
I am writting here on behalf of our good friend [url=http://man.without.name/pm/we...]Rezki[/url] - His mother in the hospital at the moment in a very critical condition and in the hand and mercy of ALLAH SWT ...
Please put our faith and hand together for his Mom and say a little pray for Rezki's Mom and Rezki's family. May ALLAH gave them strength and patients in this dificult time. Amien.
For Rezki, we are here as your friends and will support you any way we can... *hugs*
Semoga ALLAH SWT memberkahi Rezki dan his family... Amin Ya Rabb...
Tolong temen2 doa2nya yah...Thanks
Please leave comment for Rezki and show him that we are care & decent human being and good friends - Show that LOVE does exists in this world. A Friend In Need Is A Friend Indeed ...
Rezki, we care about you ...
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| ~*~ Ketiban Pasta Gigi Enak Deh !!! ~*~ |
| 03.24.04 (9:15 pm) [edit] |
Today, a day for all the children at Leeming Primary School to show off their work for the semester to their parents !!! Angela had invited me to see her works and achievements :)
I was showed many of her projects , vary from Mathematic , Reading, Story writting, Spelling , and Japanese Works - She done so well ... her Math up to 4 sections of the 5 which is considered very good in her class , her story writting captived her imaginations and she wrote it so well on her work sheets. Her spelling undeniably good - Her writting clear and readable. All around she is a good achiever in her class and work very hard to achieved it - I am very proud of her *hugs*
Then she take me to her Japanese class to meet her Japanese teacher and show me her Japanese art and Japanese writting she'd done , including tell me couple of words in Japanese which she pronounced quiet clearly and amazingly beautiful ... she done some Origami too :)
The library was next !! She took me there and she showed me her favorite part of book section in the library - The Horro Sections !!! Why don't I suprises ?? :lol: - she is fascinated by the "dark" cultured book. SO COOL of Her !!
I spoke to her teacher and ask about my lil' Angel and if there's any problem academically with my gorgeous daughter but her teacher was very pleasantly satisfied with her works knowing Angela had done her best even though she had been away for so long from Australia , apparently Angela has no problem adjusting to her surrounding , school environmental or academic level .That;s my girl !!!! *cipiki-cipika* My #1 Girl !!!
Senengnya tau Nanda sudah berkerja dengan berat di kelasnya untuk mencapai target kelas dan hari ini dia sibuk sekali memamerkan hasil2 karya dia kepadaku. Di matanya terlihat kebanggaan akan hasil2 kerjanya dan percaya diri dalam menerangkan satu2 apa2 yang telah dia lakukan - aku terkagum-kagum dengan pekerjaan-nya yang banyak di kelasnya dan dia selesaikan satu2 dengan hasil2 yang gemilang - dalam kurun waktu 3 bln dia sangat berusaha banget dan aku tau itu ... hari ini hasil kerja kerasnya terlihat , aku sangat teramat bangga sekali sama Nanda *hugs&kiss*
Semangat sekali dia menerangkan semuanya dan matanya berbinar-binar, begitu juga teman-temannya , semua antusias dan terlihat sekali jika mereka sangat bangga akan hasil mereka. Waaaaaaaaahhh , jadi ingat masa2 SD dulu , hhihihihih , ponten saya ada yg kayak gambar kursi kebalik :D alias 4 !! :oops: :lol: habis susah sih Math -nya... *alesan*
Setelah itu, aku balik ke rumah dulu untuk dropped barang2 trus dilanjutkan dengan olah raga !! hiheiheieh tiada pagi tanpa olah raga sekarang .. KUDU !! Trus abis 40 mins sport-jan ! kaki ku sakitnya minta ampun , senut2 , kenapa ? lagi mandi ketiban toothpaste !! sial banget.. udah kesandung kaki meja kemarin, masak hari ini ketiban ama pasta gigi ?? :shock: kecian amat jempolku yg indah ini... pulang joging senut2 jempol-nya :lol: - but paling nggak badan serasa segar setelah lari2 pagi itu dan berasa enakkan setiap hari. Abis itu have b/fast dan minum obat .... setelah itu .. mandi lagi dan go to work !!! YEAH !! Go back to Work !! Alangkah merasa berharganya diri ini ... kembali bekerja dan menikmati kesibukan yang aku sempat tinggalkan selama 2 minggu terakhir ini karena aku agak kurang enak badan... finally today aku back to work :)
The day end when Angela pulang sekolah, aku jemput dia dan kita pergi berenang :) heohoeheoheo, lazy afternoon banget =p~ have fun sama Nanda in the afternoon trus pulang... baca2 majalah ... trus dengan santainya masak spaghettie yg di rekues Nanda untuk makan malam dan makan bersama ... hmmmm yam yam.... Nanda abiskan semua makannya -eughhhh seneng banget lihat dia makan sampe celemotanz =p~ oehoehoeheoho
Sekarang, saya juga sudah makan dan sudah minum obat tinggal belernya nih bentar lagi :oops: Ya namanya juga sedang berusaha untuk sembuh ... jadinya ya memang kudu banyak istirahat. Gak apa deh .. demi kesembuhan...
Doa'kan saya biar tabah dan strong yah .. support kalian membuatku tetap semangat *hugs*
Take care dan have a good night yah teman2 :) - Cheers !!!
*elus2 jempolku yg memar* :lol:
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| ~*~ Kedamaian Dalam Diri ~*~ |
| 03.23.04 (11:22 pm) [edit] |
Hhiehiehiehei... rame banget malam ini rumah !!! Anak gue ama temannya dateng bersama Daddy-nya Angel. Mereka makan malam bersama kami. Suasana jadi ruameeeee banget dan ngakak2 , enjoy banget =p~ - anak gue , temennya dan Angel pada main acrobatic di halaman belakang, teman anak gue si Paul itu dia penari ballet , he eh cowok tp penari ballet handal yang mulai naik daun di Perth, bahkan dia sudah keliling dunia bersama company -nya buat menari ballet dan pameran2nya. Hebat deh dia !! Badannya tuh lentur banget dan loncat2an nya seindah butterfly. Malam ini dia ngajarin Nanda beberapa tricks dalam menari karena Nanda kan memang di dance class juga kan, tp Nanda kan Jazz Ballet - si Paul Cotemporary dance - tapi pada dasarnya ya basic nya ya sama lah.. so mereka berlatih bersama sebelum makan :) , gue sampe terkagum-kagum lihat mereka ... WoW ... mereka summersaults, cartwheels , salto2 , asli keren banget !! Angel bahagia banget malam ini , ditemani kakaknya dan Paul . Daddy-nya juga senyam-senyum lihat anak ceweknya lincah begitu dan dari mulutnya keluar pujian2 dan kebanggaan buat Nanda... He is always very proud of his lil' daughter ... as He should :)
Anyway, dinner , gue yang masak dan mereka tuh kemarin request "Lamb Curry ala Thailand" - Kari Kambing ala Thailand - mereka suka karena pedas tapi nggak terlalu, pake Nasi Putih , tropical salads , dan chicken wings , nyam..nyam... mereka makan sampe nambah !! Dagangan gue laku keras !! :lol:
Setelah makan gue bikinin apa mereka ?? Hiheiheihei SEKOTENG !!! heiheiheieh... seperti yang gue cerita ke LuDu kalau gue bisa bikin sekoteng dan dia ngakak2 kalo gue tau apa sekoteng =p~ , nih minuman jahe ini , warisan sewaktu gue di JKT beberapa bulan yang lalu. Hampir setiap malam Mama traktir kami semua sekoteng =p dan gue asli ketagihan sama rasa jahe tersebut .. ya udah drpd ngiler mendingan bikin sendiri sebisa mungkin dan hasilnya... hmmm... enakkkkkk !!! Mereka semua sampe nambah juga :) - mereka gue manja sama makanan dan minuman buatan gue ... dan gue happy mereka enjoy it . Alhamdulillah atas berkah malam ini Ya Rabb ...
Malam berakhir tidak terlalu malam karena memang masih tengah minggu, masih waktunya sekolah dan kerja , besok Tim & Paul ada session di Uni dan Nanda juga masih sekolah. Aku ?? Aku eheiehie konsentrasi untuk getting better , setiap hari gue kasih diri gue 1 - 3 tasks = tugas yang kudu gue selesaikan dan kalau itu selesai gue berarti udah melawan arus negative yang ditimbulkan oleh obat2an ini. Gue lawan arus negative dengan kegiatan positive setiap hari. Kalau nurutin males .. ya susah , gue bakalan duduk2 saja dan nunggu matek =p ! Tapi gue nggak mau - gue berusaha kuat dan bangun - Gue mau sembuh !! dan setiap hari badan gue mulai bereaksi positive sama latihan2 diri gue.. Alhamdulillah , semua ini bila tanpa pertolongan-NYA dan kasih-NYA , bukan apa2 ... DIA nggak pernah sekejappun ninggalin gue .. Terima Kasih Ya ALLAH.
Keluarga gue di JKT juga sangat supportive dan bantu sebaik mereka bisa meski jarak jauh dan cinta mereka ke gue berasa banget... I LOVE YOU MY FAMILY ... *hugs&kiss*
Teman-teman di tblog dan IRC , dan bloggers2 lainnya bahkan strangers sudah juga banyak mendukung dan kasih gue semangat yang sedang gue butuhkan , gue makasih banget atas semuanya ... semoga ALLAH SWT membalas kebaikan kalian dan memberi ganjaran yang setimpal bahkan lebih *hugs* I Love You all my friends :)
Nanda ... she is just an Angel . Dia tuh bantu gue dengan senyum2nya dan tawa2nya ... dia life support gue , tanpa dia gue bisa mati berdiri !! Hiheiheieh ... dia hebat dan obat yang paling ampuh dimasa-masa krisis begini ... dia di sisi gue terus dan membantu menyehatkan badan dan fikiran gue , gak ada di dunia ini yang lebih gue cintai selain dia seorang dan gue sangat,sangat cinta dia ... unconditionally !! ForEver & Ever *hugs& kiss* Thank you Nanda cayank... mwah mwah .. eughhhh gue jatuh cinta banget sama Nanda setiap hari .... Terima Kasih Ya Rabb buat hadiah ini dalam hidupku ...
Sekarang gue mau istirahatin badan tua ini dan relax , tugas gue buat hari ini sudah selesai dan gue bahagia .. Alhamdulillah ... Fikiran gue tenang... jiwa gue damai ...
Good night beautiful people and thank you all for the gift of you in my life *hugs*
Cheers !!!
Jangan lupa komen yah... kangen nih saya sama komen2 kalian... pls pls , makasih yah :) *hugs*
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| ~*~ Jempol gue sakitttttttttt ~*~ |
| 03.23.04 (12:10 am) [edit] |
Nahhhhhhhhh ...... !!!!!!!!!!
Gara2 mata gue yang lamur iniiiiii !!! Jempol gueeeee kesandung pinggiran meja !!! Loe tau kan rasanya gemanaaaaaaaaaH !! Bused dah ! Untung gue bukan orang yang latah atau biasa bicara kotor ... hehiehiehiehi kalo misale gue salah satu dari itu ... Ya ampun ! udah deh bahasanya bakalan kedengaran kayak kebon binatang pintunya kebuka semua atau bahkan kudu makan sabun abis sumpah serapah =p~
Yang ada gue ngapain coba ? Meringis2 menahan dan sambil mendesis-desis sambil airmata bercucuran sambil gondok setengah mampuzzzzzzz !!! KempluHHHHHH arrrghhhhhhhh!!! SuakitnyaaaaaaaaH =p~ sambel tenan !!
Kagak enak tau rasanya... loe tau sendiri ... sampe panas dingin rasanya...
Aduh =p~ sampe senut2 hiks..hiks.. tiupin napa woi !! Mana jempol imut2 gini pulak ... heoheoheoheeiheihaiha jd merah dan senut2 , aw aw~` apa sih ???
Tadi sore masak apa gue ?? Tom Yam Goong !! Masakan ala Thailand .. ternyatah enak juga masakan gue ... pake nasi putih, mushrooms , dan lain-lain. Enak deh.. hehehehe lagi ingin yang pedes2 nih, potongan2 cabe rawit gue tambahin biar mantebz ! Jadi deh makan malem buat gue .. Nanda seperti biasa dia hanya makan-makanan yang bule2 aja =p~ , td dia makan sosis beef sama salads dan kentang rebus .. enak katanya :lol: dasar anak mudah ngurusnya, di kasih mamam-an biasanya nerima... *hugs&kiss Nanda yg pinter ini*
Tadi siang dia latihan berenang kan , dan seneng sekali dia berada di air karena selain udaranya panas , banyak temen2nya ada di kolam renang juga .. bahkan anak cowok yg dia sukai ada disana ... hehehehe dia jadi have fun banget tadi siang =p~ kekekekkeke ... jd inget jaman SD dolo sayaaaaaaaaa :D hiehiehiehei
Abis itu dia minta belikan es krim dan duduk2 deket gbt-an nya dia di kolam renang , gue nonton senyam-senyum sendiri , hihdihdihdihihihiehihaiha , anak gue lutuw juga negh =p
Giginya yg depan bawah tuh satu lagi udah teramat goyang, dikit lagi copot negh... cuman dia lom mau ngelepasin nih kayaknya, soale ama dia masih di main2in, GEMES SAYA !! pengen gue tarik aja deh .. tapi ngeri yang punya nangis hehhehehe ... kejam banget gue ?? :p
Mudah2an copot deh cepet sebelum gue tambah gemes !!! Hoheoheoehoeh :twisted:
Aduh molor dolo ah.. sepet mata gue =p~ , met malam yah semua dan have fun aja deh !! Take careeeeeeeee mwa mwah !!
Udah safe nggak sih buat ke Indo ??? kangen mama nih gue .... eugh.... info2 dunkkkkk plisssssssssssss =p
Love & Peace for all of Ya ...
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| ~*~ The Prophet Sayings ~*~ |
| 03.22.04 (8:44 am) [edit] |
[u][b]SAYINGS OF WISDOM[/b][/u]
This Section Allows You To Have A glimpse Of Some Of The Collected Sayings Of The Prophet Pertinent To Wisdom...
Fear [b]Allah [/b]wherever you are and follow up a bad deed with a good one as it will wipe it out and behave well towards people. (Related by at-Tabari according to Abu Dharr).
Fear [b]Allah[/b] and treat your children equally. (Related by an-Nu’an).
Beware of the invocation of the oppressed as there is no barrier between it and [b]Allah[/b]. (Related by at-Tirmithi).
[b]Beware[/b] of oppression, for it will turn into darkness on the Day of Resurrection. And beware of miserliness for it ruined those who preceded you as it led them to bloodshed as well as be cautious in treating lawfully the forbidden acts. (Related Imam Ahmad according to [b]Abu Huraira[/b])
To talk about [b]Allah's[/b] blessing is an expression of gratitude, and not doing so is an act of disbelief. The one who is not thankful for the few blessings will not be thankful for the many. And the one who is not thankful to the people will not be thankful to [b]Allah[/b]. Unity is a blessing and division is a punishment. (Related by al-Bayhaqi).
[b] A hypocrite [/b]has three distinguishing signs, when he talks he lies, when he promises he breaks it and when he is entrusted with something, he betrays such trust. (Related by the two Sheiks according to Abu Huraira).
[b]Avoid [/b]the seven great destructive sins. These are to join partners in worship with [b]Allah[/b], to practice sorcery, to kill without justification a living being whose life has been declared sacred by [b]Allah[/b], to practice usury, to misappropriate the property of an orphan, to flee from the battlefield at the time of fighting and to slander chaste and innocent believing women. (Related by the two Sheikhs).
[b]Allah[/b] likes most perpetual deeds however minimal. (Related by the two Sheiks according to ‘Aisha).
Wish for others what you wish for yourself. (Related by [b]al-Bukhari[/b]).
[b] Allah Most High [/b]loves a servant of His who is lenient when he sells, lenient when he buys, lenient when he pays his debt and lenient when he demands the payment of a debt due to him. (Related by al-Bayhaqi according to [b]Abu Huraira[/b]).
[b]Whenever[/b] you go to bed, perform your ablution the way you do it for prayer, then lie down on your right side and say “[b]O Allah[/b]! I have surrendered my fate to You, I have entrusted all my affairs to You and I have depended on You. There is no refuge and no asylum from You except with You. [b]O Allah![/b] I believe in Your Book which You have revealed and in Your Prophet whom You have sent." (Related by al-Bukhari and Muslim).
When one of you suffers a [b]calamity[/b], he should say, “To [b]Allah[/b] we belong and to Him we shall return. O [b]Allah[/b], I seek reward from you for my affliction, so compensate me for it and grant me something better than that as its substitute”. (Related by Ibn Majah according to Umm Salama).
[b]When[/b] any of you starts eating, let him mention the name of [b]Allah Most High[/b]. If he forgot to do so at the beginning of the meal, when he remembers, he should say, “In the name of [b]Allah[/b] at its beginning and at its end.”
When one of you sees a [b]pleasant dream[/b], then it is from [b]Allah[/b], and he should thank [b]Allah[/b] for it and tell it to others. But when he sees something else (an unpleasant dream) which he dislikes, then it is from Satan and he should seek refuge with [b]Allah[/b] from its evil and should not mention it to anyone, for then it would not harm him. (Related by al-Bukhari according to Abu Sa’id).
When one of you sees a [b]bad dream[/b], he should spit thrice towards his left then [b]seek refuge [/b]with [b]Allah[/b] from Satan three times. He should then turn over to the side other than the one he was lying on. (Related by Muslim according to Jaber)
= Prophet Muhammad (PBUH) =
Semoga ada manfaatnya Hadists2 tersebut ...amien.
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| ~*~ DEXAMETHASONE Sucks !!! ~*~ |
| 03.21.04 (8:02 pm) [edit] |
Well, well, well...
I have been working very hard to beat this things. I have been going for a jog 1/2 hr in the morning and 1/2 hr in the afternoon to keep myself motivied and gave me regular blood flow. My face swollen and puffed up by now .... I am ballooning. I am not sure if it the medicine I am taking right now but I am trying to deal with it.
This medicine : [b]DEXAMETHASONE[/b] gave me loads of downside at the moment, including : loose tastebuds, constant blurry vision, bloating, emotionally imbalance, emotioneless , calm, hard to sleep, lack of spontanity and responds, make me feel mellow and not very energetic. Those are some of the symptoms I am experiencing right now. I was so busted last week from it... my body respond quiet baddly and just dropped. I can feel there's something wrong with me but I can not snapped out of it !!! Don't u just hate those feeling ???
I am getting the hang of it though, well partly only for now ... I am trying to deal with it the best I could by always doing something instead of just sitting down and waiting to die !! I refuse to be defeated by this stupid tumour !!!
Today alone, I did many things even with the lack of energy ... I exercise, I did home shopping, I washed my cars , I clean the house, I clean the garden ... I even have the time to read :) - I felt better !! I might be a bit slow and huffing but I am positive about the whole things. I have to ... I need to ... for my Baby Angel *hugs*
The lil' Angel will be home again tonight and I would be able to give her the biggest hug just for her again and give her tons of kisses !! hehhehe I miss the lil' Angel so very much... *hugs*
I rang my bro last night :) - Wish him a Happy Birthday and wish him all the best in the world ... *hugs&kiss* "Happy Birthday Bro..." , we chatted for ages.... and just gone crazy on some funny jokes that cracked me right up =p~ heoheoheoe it was awesome to talk to him and Mom and other member of the family. I had an awesome laughs outta them :lol:
Then, I went to sleep early - not that I want to - but as soon as I have my dinner and take my medicine , my waking hours are limited , I will be in dreamland within 1/2 hr taking the medicine. Hhehehe very unusuall of me because I am after all , a self proclaimed NIGHT OWL !!! Hheheihie.. now ? not even a night chicken :lol: . One thing for sure, I have no bags under my eyes anymore !!! Coz I am not lack of sleep at all :)
Today at 4:00 PM *perth time* the weather was still 39.2 ' C !!! Howaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrr .... that's hot !! and next week gonna be around 40'C here in Perth ... so I gotta think of some place cooler =~ to survive the heat - the poor lil Angel gonna be at school ...eughh.. not gonna be much fun for the lil baby... *hugs* but I suppose she can just sit in airconditioned class instead of playing in the sun ... too hot for the kids next week.
What else happening ? Well, I have been hard to deal with and some people just can't cope with me .... I pushed so many people I think ... but I just hate routines at the moment and dislike boredoms. I am trying to get better but some people just can not accept change and got confuse with what I have to deal with... at some stage ... this people make me think HOW THEY FEEL and WHAT THEY FEEL !! Huh ??? I am not in the positions to think of other than myself and my daughter right now !! I am not supposed to worry about what other feel and worry ... I have enough worry already ... My gosh !! I am in a wrecking stage and I still have to worry that I might hurt other people feeling ?? kok aneh ??? Gue yg sakit kok gue yg kudu mikirin perasaan orang lain tuh gimana tentang keadaan dia yg kesepian dll ??? pantes gak sih ?? Gue sendiri aja udah susah buat ngejalanin hidup , gue tertatih-tatih untuk bisa tetep hidup demi anak gue ... kok gue masih kudu worry ama perasaan orang lain karena tindakan gue yang berusaha sembuh ..... blarrhhhhhhhh =p~
Anyway... ini lah curhat2an gue and my rambles...sorry perhaps too much for some but what the heck !! Its my blog :lol: so I can write whatever I wish to !!! Hheeheiheiehieih
You guys look after yourself yah.... *hugs*
Love Y'all !! Cheers !!
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| ~*~ Mona Lisa Smile ~*~ |
| 03.20.04 (1:40 pm) [edit] |
[i][u]Mona Lisa Smile[/u]
Running time: 119 mins
Rating: PG
Consumer Advice: mature themes, sexual references, low level coarse language
Director: Mike Newell
Cast: Julia Roberts, Julia Stiles, Kirsten Dunst, Juliet Stevenson, Maggie Gyllenhaal
1953 America was a time ripe for change for women and when Katherine Ann Willis (Julia Roberts) arrives to teach Art History at Wellesley College, she finds the institution drowning in outdated mores. While the nation struggles with the fears that accompany a shifting political culture, the powers that be at Wellesley seem to want to re-corset the women who had been the backbone of the World War II workforce just a few years earlier. A passionate educator, Katherine takes on the establishment and in doing so, deeply affects her students who in turn lead her to alter the course of her life forever.[/i]
That's what I went and see last night...
I was so lethargic and feeling so down by the whole stuffs and sick of not having some sparks happening, so I thought if sparks won't come to me then I shall create ONE !! hihihihihi... I am pretty sure with all this medications I am taking I am who I am today... so slow, too calm and having no energy. This is not ME at all - I miss my old ME - who were full of energy, laughter, positive attitude, sexy and just get up & go kinda gal !! I am going to defeat this hell ! *insisting*
So anyway, I thought what the girl to on Friday Night ? All alone .... see, my Angel away for the weekend, Her daddy took her for the weekend, so that leave me all alone .... in the way it is good to spend sometime alone but you know, ... I love having my girl around and spend heaps of quality times with her although by now my Angel probably sick of me :lol: - but we always do something amazing whenever we have our days off school. I miss my lil' bundle of joys .... *hugs Angel*
For the night, I thought what the heck ! I go see the movie that I want to watch which is " Mona Lisa Smile " - but I do not want to make it a big night as I would not be really into it with my friends. So I went to the movie by myself :) !!! - Well, nothing wrong with that right ??? Hhehehe a girl can have a night off from everything and everyone if she choose to ....
I chose to be alone ... because I just want to see the movie quietly and not dressing up for anyone or have to be nice to anyone and all the nitty-gritty going out with someone. I am not even asking any of my girlfriends to go with me coz then they'll asked to go clubbing with them - AND that my dear !!! Not the one I want to spend my weekend for !! Dancing is good but ... errgghh... at the moment not really my cuppa tea.
The movie was good and quiet interesting, Julia Roberts was great there ... all around great movie. I loved it - go and see it ok ? :)
After the movie, I drove home slowly and humming whatever on the radio and think about what would I do when I get home ...
I put on my sport clothes - my Nike - my musics - I went to the gym and do some work out !! at 10:45 Pm :lol: whattha ????????? Hhehehhehehe , I bet you didn't expect that huh ???? Hhiheiehieheiehie.... So yeah, I went to the gym to do some threadmills and power aerobics with some people who were there as well, see the gym open 24/7 near where I live and it is for people who can't get to the gym in the morn or for various reasons they can't get to the gym during the day. So I listen to my walkman and threadmilling for 30 mins and 30 mins of Aerobic !! Fiiiiiiiiiuuuhhhhhhhhh ... I was busted big time !! I thought I was gonna die !! I was running out of breath and sweat to death =p~ huffing and puffing *ngakak* heoeoeoeeoeho ... my head was spinning and lighter - hhihihi ... it has bee ages since I come here that's probably why =p~ but I am determent to lose this weight and be fit again !! I am gonna kick this ass so hard - well, at least if I can burning out 30 mins / day , I hope at least to lose some weight and keep fit in same time and get my blood running properly , pls support me on this one pepz !! Hehehhehe .. after all a girl gotta try those lingeries I was purchasing the other day - that was my motivation !! :oops:
I want the old me and I am gonna be ONE SEXY BABE !! by the time I am finished ... Woohooooo !!
I didn't sleep too well last night but happy that I was doing something...
I woke up this morning at dawn for my dawn pray and feel peaceful .. I have not touch the computer all night .... *unusual* then after that I had another lil' sleep after all it was only 5:30 AM - so I went back to sleep ... and got woken up at 9:30 AM - I thought hmmm.. I could sleep here all day and be fat or I could get up and go for a jog ??? I get on my butt and clean myself up and put on my gear and I was running this butt again !! For 1/2 hour in the oval =p~ I was running and running for the whole 1/2 hr - again, I was light headed and my head spinning but the blood flowing straight thru my body and it felt so gooooddddd , my heart racing and I was again, huffing and puffing !! my face was red , not a pretty sight =p~ I sweat like heck ! Hiheiheiehei
When I got home I felt so light ... Whoarrrrr ! burst of energy .. so good ...
I am gonna have to do this everyday if I want to sheds this kilossssss hhihihihih...work hard for it !
Now - my legs are sore but somehow I felt great !! Those blood flowing was good for me... the circulations gave me LIFE !! FOCUS - FOCUS !!
Anyway .... I am gonna chill now and perhaps do some light house work. So I catch ya all laterz mmmkkkaayyyyyyyyy ......
I miss ya guys ... but I am gonna beat this crap away off my life !!! Wish Me Luck !! :lol:
Cheers !!
[b][i]Baby Girl ... I miss you so much...
I miss the smell of your hair when you sleep next to me
I miss those sweaty forehead and the palm of your neck
I miss those smile just before you close your eyes...
I miss you baby Angel .... *hugs& kisses*
Angela ... Mommy Love You So Very Much ...
I can not possibly could live without you...
I LOVE MY BABY ANGEL.... GOD Please Look after her for me , Amien[/i][/b]
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| ~*~ A Dozen Of Red Roses Save The Day ~*~ |
| 03.18.04 (10:42 pm) [edit] |
~*~ Fragility ~*~
[i][b]Delicate as it seems so clear in YOUR eyes
I have in deliberate humble at YOUR mercy
So longing to be forgiven for past deeds
I am still humble at your presence...
Insignificant others have turn their back
For no clear intentions nor gestures to understand
Still hermiting my life even if I do not asked
Can't the purpose reach any of their inteligence ?
Can human heart only lays upon the tip of fingers only ?
Isolation...
Weakness and spiraling jumbled life
All so hazy and blurry
Even the heat of the sun doesn't bite me...
Will there by light again for me ?[/i][/b]
I've moved my butt today to do couple of things, and finally !! Hiheiehie... I have been so sluggish that I can't move faster than freakin' snail =p, BUT not today my friends , yep , not today !! I start attacking early - I went to get some work from the office and get it done not long after , 1 down! Then sort out my medicare stuffs and by gone ! what a long wait =p hhehhehe but since I am not anywhere in a hurry I just wait around. 2 down !
Then... decided to treat myself with something nice.. something sexy, sweet... something just for me... hhhmm... I went to .... lingeries shop !! :oops: Yeah , yeah... u know , shop for girls boys!! I thought what the heck... I am gonna do some retail therapy :) - so I went there and splurgeeeeeeeeee ... I tried this... I tried that and got this and got that... sooooo awesome.
By the time I am done there... I've got couple of cute sweet and sexy stuffs !! What is it ?? NEVER MIND YOU !! heheeheeee ... but I can tell you the colours , theres black sheers one... red one... white one ... uhuhuuhuhu there's even leather one ! Black leather !! wakakkakaka I thought that was fun and kinda cool. A special treat just for me :)
I was so happy after that , I sat on the cafe to have a cup of hot chocolate with sprinkled cinnamon dusts ... hmmm.. exotic. I sat there quietly with smile on my face under the shades of tree , this cafe right, it is in the middle of Town but between an alley so it is shady and quiet... just like those gorgeous cafes in Italy - very quiet and totally gorgeous...
Whenever I pay a visit there, it reminded me of Italy , Venice .. LuDu would know what I am talking about :) , she was there not long ago.
Anyway, I was reading some book while sipping the hot chocolate with smile on my face. After awhile ... I just strecth my legs and relaxing and watch the world goes by and Thanking GOD for such a wonderful life.
In the moment like this what would be nice ... could happen to me ?
An old friend ( yes, another old friend ), just happened to be around the area and saw me sitting there quietly. So he decided to suprised me , he came from behind me with dozen of red roses :oops: and gave me a huge hug and a kiss on my left cheek !! I was so shocked and almost spilled my drink but not worry, somehow his smell familiar. I held the roses , and turned around... Oh My... What a pleasant suprised ... It was Tony ... my mouth was open and not words coming outta me but I smiled. He didn't say anything but sit down next to me and hold my hands - and look at me in the eyes to tell his emotions. We understood eachother and just smiles. I felt so warm and loved. For the next 5 minutes, it was just gazing to eachother eyes and smiles - and that was enough for me.
He kissed my hand and said that he was sorry for everything and that he missed me ... I told him I missed him too , after all, we were great buddy but someone else had poisoned our friendship couple of months back. Now, it is all in the past, our smiles for eachother sealed the broken friendship. WoW !!
I found my best friend again... Thank you GOD. This is truly one perfect day for me... Thank you , Thank you, GOD !!!! You Rock !!
Tony and I gotta say bye coz I have to pick up my Angel and he said that he will call me tonight and we could perhaps catch up this weekend. We shall see mate !!
We hugged for a long time before we let eachother go.... with my red roses and shopping bags in my hands and a handsome fellow just gave me a hug.. truly.. just like a scene from some romantic movie :) perfect take ...
So there, that's my day ... hows yours ? is it as good as mine ? or better ? :oops: TOP THAT !!! Hehehehehe..
Bless you all my dearest friends , pls know that I love you all :) *hugs*
Oh , I spoke to my mom today too, and she's in good spirit !! Good on mom.. I miss you Mom.. *hugs*
My Bro birthday on Sat 10th ! I sent his present today with hope it will get there tomorrow :) , amien. Bless my family , bless your family , bless all of us ! Amien.
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| ~*~ Just Peaceful Feeling ~*~ |
| 03.17.04 (3:52 pm) [edit] |
I am not sure what happened last night while I sleep... but I was feeling aweful when I lay my head down on my pillow .... I felt so bad and physically ill. I was drowsi and just totally yuck !! *bwekkk* but today...
Today, I felt a bit better and rather enthusiastic about life and actually have some energy !! I put on my best dress *RED* and walk about doing my things ... did some shopping.... even got the biggest bunny rabbit in store for my Angel today... it was so fluppy and cuddly , so I can not resists not to get one for her :)
Right now... I feel so peaceful and calm... I feel so relax and Angel like ... I feel slightly happy but contented with what I have right now ....
Thank you GOD for this pleasant feeling you've given me today.... Alhamdulillah...
I am at peace .....
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| ~*~ The Box ~*~ |
| 03.16.04 (10:36 pm) [edit] |
[u][b]The Box[/b][/u]
I received this from a friend who had a choice to make. It said that I Had a choice to make too. I've chosen. Now it's your turn to choose.
The story goes that some time ago a mother punished her 5 year old daughter for wasting a roll of expensive gold wrapping paper.
Money was tight and she became even more upset when the child used the gold paper to decorate a box to put under the Christmas tree.
Nevertheless, the little girl brought the gift box to her
mother the Next morning and said, "This is for you, Momma."
The mother was embarrassed by her earlier over reaction, but her anger flared again when she opened the box and found it was empty.
She spoke to her daughter in a harsh manner. "Don't you know, young lady, when you give someone a present there's supposed to be something inside the package?"
She had tears in her eyes and said, "Oh, Momma, it's not empty! I blew kisses into it until it was full."
The mother was crushed. She fell on her knees and put her arms around her little girl, and she begged her forgiveness for her thoughtless anger.
An accident took the life of the child only a short time later, and it is told that the mother kept that gold box by her bed for all the years of her life. Whenever she was discouraged or faced difficult problems she would open the box and take out an imaginary kiss and remember the love of the child who had put it there.
In a very real sense, each of us, as human beings, have been given a Golden box filled with unconditional love and kisses from our children, family, friends and GOD.
There is no more precious possession anyone could hold.
You now have two choices:
1. Pass this on to your friends, or
2. Delete it and act like it didn't touch your heart.
As you can see, I took choice No. 1.
Friends are like angels who lift us to our feet, when our wings
have trouble remembering how to fly.
Sweet story ... Something that aren't there or you can't see doesn't mean it doesn't exist ... a simple thing such as magic can happen and like magics... it work in mysterious way :)
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| ~*~ BeautifuL Stefano ~*~ |
| 03.16.04 (9:20 am) [edit] |
Owalahhhhh ... after the longest 30 minutes ever, tblog is back !!! ihaihaihihaiahia... but isn't it funny how you got stacks of ideas when u can't write a darn thing and when it is available the story you want to tell just so yesterday and really kinda stale bread =p~ ieheiheihe.... but the guys at tblog must have been working their butts off to get the show on the road again, thank you guys for your hard work !! Marvelous Job !! *clap-clap*
Anyway, what's been happening in last couple of days ? Let's see...
On Saturday night, my baby girl went out with her brother (half brother) to "kid's club" remember I told you about the "Blue Light Disco" ? before ?? yeah, he took her there this month and being her bodyguard , but guessed who guarding who ??? Hheiheieheihe.... my lil' Angel the one who actually should guard her brother instead !! Coz my gorgeous son was "attacked" by girls !! hiehieheihei... all this girl asking him to dance BUT!! my son is 21 and the girls that attended the "disco" was all still under the legal age to be going out with anyone my son's age. It is illegal and prohibited as you may know to even speak to them in indecent manner at that age. So he avoid the girls as much as possible to save his own butt !! Hheehe.. the event like i previously mentioned was supervise by the Police and Senior citizens - they run the show and it is their rules !!
Nevertheless, they had marvelous time and can't wait to tell me when they got home ! I could not make any sense of those two because... hmm... they both telling it in same time =p~ - the buggers got all hyped up ! :lol:
But it is good for my son to take her sister out now and again... not just for fun but for bonding... they are the most beautiful creatures in the world for me .. *hugge'm both*
What else happening ... Oh on Sunday, I was taking my Lil' Angel for St.Patrick Day in Fremantle :) ... The Irish fave day .. where they can wear green and drink heaps of guiness and have loads of fun :) - it was awesome celebration there... heaps of side walk attractions, balloons, all green stuffs , drunks =p~ iehiehihieh... whatever you name it !! We had nice lunch there and walk about here and there to see some of the attractions. Then we went to our fave bookshop and got ourself some cool old book .. bliss ...
Then, we decided to read our book and have hot chocolate some place... we found the perfect place to sit and outdoor. We sit ourself down and I asked my lil Angel what she wish to drink, she wan't some strawberry flavour frozen !! Do you know what is it guys ? sure you do... but gonna tell ya anyway, it is actually crushed iced with strawberry flavour or cola or whatever ... and it taste just deliciouzzzz .. nyam nyam...
BUT !! Just as I was about to get it... I stood up .. and VOILA !! heiheiheihihei .... there's this tall, handsome, young, perfect skin, delicious lips, eyes so sparkling it can light the cloudy day ...... and he is Italian =p~ , it wassssssssss Stefano !!! iehiehihih who is Stefano ?? He is my friend's lil brother hihihih, he is 23 =p~ ... toy boy anyone ?? - he saw me and I saw him and at the same time we moved to eachother and big smile and stretch our arms so wide and gave eachother a big HUG ever !!! hhhhhhhmmmmmmm... he said to me " Commo'esta Bella ??" with his yummy Italian accent. See, the last time we saw eachother was like 8 months ago just before I went to Indonesia for 6 months ! and he's been busy growing I tell ya =p~ - what's the story ? Just like his brother... Phuillepe , he got a crushed on me heheheh but just like phuillepe I can't accept him ... too young !!! I will be arrested if I hang out with them .. after all I am 34 man this year and I should know where I stand , hiehieheiheiehei.. but I supposed wouldn't hurt to be just mates with them. Both of them are my friends and cool to just have occasionally casual gathering with some other friends but not a DATE !! but Stefano was all excited to know that I am back in town , he asked if we could catch up :shock: heheehe... didn't I just explain why I shouldn't be going out with him ?? :lol: ... so irresistable but so forbidden.... *smack!!!* hehehehe..
But I said to Stefano that yeah we can catch up sometime with some other friends.. to avoid temptations, after all he is just so dang gorgeous ! I am trying to protect him from me NOT the other way around =p~ heiheeihihihe .... but it was so cool to see him again. Just don't you get the wrong idea guys ... I might be crazy but I know where my head at :) - so yeah .. harmless.
Aaaahhh.... *bayangin Stefano* heheheh ada jealoux nggak yah ?? *ngikik*
Monday... I was so darn tired from the medication I was taking and in need of sleeping after taking it. I took my Angel to school 1st then feel asleep with [url=http://www.l-amore.org]Abang[/url] keeping an eye on me ... so sweet huh ? Don't know how he can do it but still nice to know that someone is looking after you even when you are sleep - he's been so marvelous. Thank you Bang... *hugs*
Hmmm... considering the operation might will be conducted in April or sometime... meaning I will have to have 4 - 5 days in The Hospital .... *thinking* meaning my lil' Angel would be with her father ... I am gonna missed the lil' Angel ... yeah she will come and see me but hiks..hiks.. gonna miss her sleeping next to me :( and see her whenever I wish to...
Then when I get home , I do not think that I will be up for anything heavy ... as I would have my head all stitched-up , dang!!, meaning I would need home carer for me and to look after the house and my Angel , OUCH!!, it hurt already just thinking about it .... where am I gonna find reliable home carer...gotta ring around. This is the down side not having any family around... I mean they are around but not close by to give me a hand or two *sigh* - the price of leaving in another country without close family and most of my friends very busy with their own stuffs and I do not think it is kind of me to ask them to look after me... although I need it .. gotta think of something...
For the basic 1 month I would need those help !! I am not worry about how much it gonna cost me but worry about the reliability of the person who will helping me out as a child would be involve here. Got any idea pepz ??
Anywayyyyy... it is 7:12 AM in the morning and I better move my butt to get Angel her lunch box ready and get all her school's stuffs organise so I guess I catch you all laterzzzz ... have a great time you guys and pls give whoever next to you a hug from me and Angel *hugs* and a huge big bear hug for yourself !! Hhehhee..
Love Y'all , cheers !
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| ~*~ Apa yah ?? ~*~ |
| 03.14.04 (10:08 am) [edit] |
AH payah deh bbrp hari ini gue kagak gitu ada inspirasi mau nulis apa di blog gue ini... soale kepala gue sedang di penuhi dengan segala macem jadi tersita dengan selamat deh inspirasi gue. Jadi ya gue nggak tau kenapa loe baca postingan gue yang tanpa inspirasi ini =p~
Asli gue kagak tau mau nulis apa tapi daripada gak nulis sama sekali.... tangan gue jadi kurang latihan nulis kalo gak nge-blog neghhhhh !
Apa yah...
Eh masih baca nggak ?? hiehieheih rajin banget sih ? padahal gue sedang bete nih... ya udah bagus deh loe nemenin gue yang bete dikit ini. Mana internet gue kayak bayi baru lahir aja lagi... maunya di ayun2 terus... kalo gak di ayun ngambek trus nangis =p~ , enak2 ol egh copod... ya wes memang sedang ndak boleh terlalu serius :lol:
Yang jelas gue kangen... dan tadi siang gue tuh sedang dengarin lagu2 DEWA ya udah deh... gue cari liriknya ... untuk mengungkapin perasaan gue.. :)
~*~ KANGEN ~*~
[i]Kut'rima suratmu, t'lah kubaca,
dan aku mengerti
Betapa merindunya dirimu,
akan hadirnya diriku di dalam hari-harimu, bersama lagi
Kau bertanya padaku, kapan aku, akan kembali lagi
Katamu kau tak kuasa, menahan gejolak di dalam dada
yang membara menahan rasa, pertemuan kita nanti
Saat kau ada disisiku
Reff:
Semua kata rindumu semakin membuatku, tak berdaya
menahan rasa ingin jumpa
Percayalah padaku akupun rindu kamu
Ku akan pulang ... melepas semua
kerinduan, yang terpendam
Kau tuliskan padaku, kata cinta, yang manis dalam suratmu
Kau katakan padaku, saat ini, ku ingin hangat pelukmu
dan belai lembut kasihmu, takkan kulupa s'lamanya
Saat bersama dirimu
Jangan katakan cinta, menambah beban rasa
Sudah simpan saja sedihmu itu, ku akan datang
By : [u]DEWA[/i][/u]
Kangennnnnnnnnn itu aja .....
Duh kok jadi kangen nasi uduk yah ?? hiheihihihi biasanya pagi2 dibelikan sama mama nasi uduk =p. Coba ada yg bisa DCC gak sih ?? :lol:
Ya gitu aja deh yah temen2.. maaf yah otak gue masih rada2 "anteng" ihihihihihi jd nulisnya enteng2 aja... makasih untuk time nya *hugs*
Sabar2 aja yah ngadepin gue... Cheers !!
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| ~*~ Ighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ~*~ |
| 03.13.04 (2:25 am) [edit] |
HOheoheoheoeh nih kegilaan gue dan nanda pagi2 sebelom berangkatan sekolah gara ngisengin si Abang =p~ ama dia dicapture dan di DARE berani nggak masukin ke blog ?? :D heoheoehoeho Double Dare deh bang !! heiheiheih
Yah beginilah tampang2 kami dipagi hari.... Au NatureL =p~ heoheoehoehohe.... ANCUR !!!
But it was fun making all this faces :lol: asli funny =p~
Nanda dan aku ngakak2 abizzzzzzzzzz ...
Di sikon yang begini aku masih bisa bercanda, ketawa dan menikmati hidup sama nanda dan abang... hehehe nothing can get me down and I believe " LAUGH IS THE BEST MEDICINE OF ALL " :lol:
Terima Kasih Ya Allah buat sense of humour ini , sehingga aku masih kau karuniai tawa dan canda bersama orang2 yang aku sayangi...
Buat [url=http://l-amore.org]Abang[/url] : PUASSSSSSSS !!!!!! Hoehoehoeheoe . So people check me & my girl out in scary monster impressions =p~ Hope u have no nightmare after looking at them :lol:
[u]Quasimodo From Perth :[/u]
[u]Curly Tongue :[/u]
[u]Scrunch Up In The Middle :[/u]
[u]Piggy Momment : [/u]
AKHAKHAKHAKAHKAHKAHKAHKAH AKHAKHAKHAK lucu yah ??? :D cantik2 kan potonya ?? :D hahaohaohaohaoa
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| ~*~ Ya gitu lah..gak ada judul malem ini ~*~ |
| 03.13.04 (1:32 am) [edit] |
Ada herannya juga yah lihat kelakuan orang...
Tanpa gue sadari gue kebawa sama omongan seseorang kadang2 dan gue tuh sampe percaya banget sama nih orang dan bisa mengeyampingkan yang lainnya demi dia. Diwaktu gue bisa bahagiain dia ... dia support banget sama gue. Tapi disaat gue butuh banget dia , malahan gak denger dari dia. Apa sih susahnya ninggalin sebaris tulisan yang ngasih kabar tentang dia ?? kalau dia bisa berjam-jam ada didepan kompie masak nitip pesan aja nggak sempet ??? banyak kok medianya ... ada email, ada Y!M, ada HP , ada Fax machine, dll. Sarana-nya semua ada kok.. dan gue nggak minta dikabarin detail apa yang terjadi, gue cuman minta di kabarin kalau dia fine. Itu aja.
Ketidak tahuan gue, gue tumpahin dalam bentuk tulisan yang gue tujuin buat dia ... gue banyak tanya dan concern dan membuka keadaan dari ketidak tahuan gue ... eh malahan disangka dia nuduh yang nggak2 ?? :shock: Logika-nya kadang2 kalau kita gak denger kabar dari salah satu orang yg dekat sama kita dan kita sayangin.. logikanya kita akan mempunyai fikiran yang tidak2 dan worry lah tentunya. Soalnya dari gue , gue udah coba lebih dari sekali kontak dia tapi ya gitu... beberapa kali nggak ada di tempat. Gue akuin mungkin dia sedang sibuk dengan "Sikon" yang ada... tapi gue pernah kok tau sendiri dulu sebagaimana sibuknya dia, dia selalu punya time buat gue. Gue nggak butuh dia 24/7 kok... cuman respect aja. Soalnya ya gue nggak bisa secara langsung setiap saat kontak dia. Gue cuman butuh tulisan dia 5 baris aja deh ... gak ada tuh 5 menit nulis dan ngirimnya.
Ok gue mungkin egois / selfish tapi gue tau gue care !!! Kalau care gue di artikan lain ya sudah..... gue nggak akan jadi babu siapa2 , gue nggak harus care siapa2 , dan gue seharusnya nggak reaksi dengan apa yang ada. Tapi sakit hati ini untuk gak care ke dia.
Ya begitulah... jarak tuh sucks karena bisa bikin kita salah mengerti dan jadi manusia yang berbeda. Feeling gue nggak berubah.. tapi lagi2 gue kudu ati2 ama emosi diri gue. Gue sedang nggak "lengkap" untuk mikirin perkara emosi dan perasaan. Gue cuman mau konsentrasi untuk sembuh dari penyakit gue, gue mau konsentrasi untuk mikirin 5 minggu kedepan. Gue akan harus mulai mengurus semuanya dari sekarang. Gue kudu cari nanny buat anak gue dan home help selagi gue balik nanti dari operasi - yang paling penting sih kudu bisa ngurus anak gue. Nggak mungkin kan gue nyetir2 sendiri pas abis dari operasi. Banyak yang mesti gue pikirin.... dan gue rasa itu udah cukup untuk ditangani manusia yang hidup sendiri macem gue. Nggak... gue nggak cari kasihan :) , seperti biasa gue cuman curhat. Komplen ? Nggak juga... gue nggak komplen *udah insyap komplen skrg* ... gue cuman curhat .... gue nggak bisa kan telephone tiap hari ke mommy gue tentang semua ini ... mendingan gue tulis deh.
Yang jelas gue cuman merasa shit aja - dikesampingkan tanpa ada berita. Dari segitu dekatnya sampai segini jauhnya... takdir??? Maybe..
Pelajaran aja buat gue... apapun bentuknya. Tuhan kasih gue pelajaran hidup dengan cara kasarnya biar mata gue kebuka dan gue disadarin bahwa apa yg gue lihat nggak seperti apa yang gue dapet. Kudu bisa lihat musang berbulu domba. Kok gue jd emosi ?? :lol:
Biasalah.... kebawa emosi diri... namanya juga anak muda =p~ ehoheoehoehoho, ya begitulah uneg2nya.. solusinya belum ada .. cuman gue udah nggak worry lagi.. terserahlah maunya apa, gue udah usaha dan itu udah terhitung mencoba !!! Kalau dituduh gue nggak ngerti sikon dia ya... whatever lah - yang gue tulis gue rasa bukan tuduhan ke dia yang nggak2 , tapi hanya ketidak tauan gue ... Case closed !!
Weks !! Gue kan kudunya punya appointment ke dokter yah hari Senin tgl 15 Maret jam 2 , nah gue mau majukan nih appointment biar hari Senin gue free. Gue telephone Clinic-nya untuk ganti lebih awal. Tau gak apa yang terjadi... ?? Kata receptionis-nya gak ada tuh appointment gue untuk hari Senin depan :shock: lha gue ada tuh kartu appointment -nya !!! Setelah berbicara sekian lama... akhirnya gue bilang ada nggak waktu dokternya untuk ketemu gue hari ini dan itu receptionis bilang kagak ada , dokternya fully booked !!! DodoL !!! gue yang udah rada iritasi akhirnya minta supaya gue bisa bicara ama dokter langganan gue =p~ kata receptionisnya wah nggak bisa ... ya udah senjata terakhir ... "tolong miss sampaikan sekarang juga, loe bilang ama tuh dokter nama gue" receptionis nya untung nurut =p~ trus page tuh dokter ... dan apa yang terjadi ??? Dokternya bilang ke receptionis-nya untuk bilang ke gue bahwa gue bisa datang hari ini juga jam 1:30 siang :) BINGO !!!! Heehheehe.. receptionis-nya sampe berubah 360'C jadi baik banget ama gue ..... mo tau gak kenapa ? HHiehieheieh nih bakalan rada lucu nih.... hehiehei si bapak dokter-nya kayaknya "have crush" ama gue =p~ heuheiehiheueheihaihwihia hihaihai -- ck ck ck dan beliau tuh ..hihihih udah mayan tua choy =p~ dan dia selalu bilang "Kalau kamu butuh appointment kapan saja, bilang sama receptionis untuk bicara langsung ama saya" dan hari ini gue pake tekniknya... dan IT WORK ! hhhehe bandel yah ??
Tapi yang jelas... setiap gue ke si pak dokter ini... gue tuh ditahan ama dia secara tidak langsung ... huhuhu mana ada dokter visit sampe 1 jam ? dia suka tanya2 segala macem tapi sopan lho... dan nggak cabul. He is sweet malahan hihihihihihi sayangnya tua =p~ kalo rada muda dikit.... heehoehoheo *mingkem ah drpd di panah beracun ama si [url=http://l-amore.com]ITU[/url] heeiehieheihiehi. Yang jelas... bikin gue lega dan smile kalau udah jumpa ama tuh dokter, soale gue bisa curhat segala macem ama dia tapi ya sebatas medic dan normal diskusi aja.. nggak terlalu personal. Dan hiihihih emang sih kadang2 bisa gue lihat kalau dia suka kayaknya mau tanya ask me out =p~ *GR* heieheihie cuman dia tau posisi dia dan gue tau posisi gue ... lucu deh kalo loe lihat. :lol:
Anyway... dia kewl doc .... cakep lho padahal biar tua =p~ *ganjen* ehiehieheiehie bodo ah !!
Ya gitu lah... untuk sekarang sih gue ngantuk nih... gue bobok dulu yah temen-temen.. Makasih ya buat semuanya :)
Cheers !!
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| ~*~ Mom's Tears worth thousand pain ~*~ |
| 03.12.04 (2:10 am) [edit] |
What I am scared of came thru... my family freakin out !! I told my bro to tell mom gently ... but he told my sister 1st before telling mom about the latest news. And my sister being my sister, she sometime exaherate things , but she is so sweet... but exaherating =p~
Anyway, she was crying after hearing about the news which caused my mom to question her and with tears streaming down her face and those crying voice... she told mom what she knew. But wrongly !!! due to panick attack instead of telling mom that I have brain tumour , she told mom I have brain cancer :shock: - which caused huge impact on mom !! See my old mom have weak heart for a long time.... she can't take any suprises. When I spoke to her earlier she told me what she felt at that time... she was almost fainted due to overloaded sudden emotions. She was crying and carrying on ... and she has been crying since the day she learnt I have the tumour. I felt so bad making her crying and sad. :cry:
But from this emotional time... my mom has been praying for me and my Angel constantly... and all of my family even having a joined mass pray for me and Angel. They have been praying and spiritually in touch. I am so very blessed to have such a caring family & friends. They help me out spiritually and seeking alternative medicine and healing. I do not personally believe mambo-jumbo stuffs but I believe in the power of GOD who work in the mysterious way... So wouldn't hurt to try :) - Wish me luck Yow peoples !!!
The spiritual healing method, so far has been good and reassuring and I am at peace ... for I know GOD looking after me ....Amien Ya Rabb.
What I can't stand just this sleepy moment all the time.... hihihihi so it is hard to catch up with all of you guys lately , sorry *hugs*
For all I know... may GOD also give my family some strength in this tough time... May they are also as blessed as me, amien.
I just wish I can give my mom a hug and comfort her and tell her that I will be okay. And stop her crying....
I love you mom...
You guys have a nice night okay... GOD Bless you all :)
Love y'all !! Cheers !
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| ~*~ The Result ~*~ |
| 03.10.04 (11:59 pm) [edit] |
Well....
Tears flowing down my cheeks while I drove home after the appointment with the Neurologist... all I can think of was just my lil' Angel. My heart broken to little pieces after hearing the news from the Doctor.
He told me plain and sure , that I have brain tumor .....
I was numb , I can't handle the pain that enter my body hearing the news. I numb myself .... I hold it in me...
I am sad to hear the result but I am positive that it is cureable.
The MRI will follow on 30th of March and head operation after that ....
I am scared, I am sad... I am sad for my Angel, my family and my honey, my friends ... I am sad that all this people that I love has to put up with this nonsense !!
But I am not resentful or angry... I am just very sad.
I keeping it all positive and believe that I will get better soon, with those positive attitude I am asking all of you for a little pray for me and my Angel :) -- Thank you guys.
I guess that is all I want to say tonight, again, I am tired and exhausted. Another drug was given to me today.. to ease the pain. Perhaps I will sleep better with this drug the doctor prescribed for me. We shall see.
Another doctor visit tomorrow morning.... phewwww ...
Thank you guys for listening ... I owe u heapssssss...
Love ya all :) *hugs*
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| ~*~ The Day ~*~ |
| 03.09.04 (11:50 pm) [edit] |
Ah... finally.. I told my mom about what happened to me and yeah... I felt much better and hopefully with her blessing I will be cured from whatever sickness I am now. Amien. I can't keep any secret from her... and when I told her, she was very sad but strong... perhaps pretend to be strong (?) either way , she gave me lots of supports and prays , she made me feel so loved and wanted. Thank you Mommy *hug&kisses*
I am feeling so relieved....
Tomorrow, I am going to put on a brave face to see the Neurologist and listen to what he have to say about things. With hope there will be nothing too dangerous... amien. Wish me luck friends ?? Thanks...
I have been tired in the last couple of days. I choose to sleep lots than being online, my body need all the rest that its needed. I am sorry if I have been lousy company but I can't help it.... I am sleepy all the time lately. The medications making me sleepy....
Like right now :) - so I catch you all laterz .... have fun Yow !
Love You All *hugs*
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| ~*~ Can't Believe how tired I am... ~*~ |
| 03.09.04 (12:48 am) [edit] |
I can't believe how tired I can be today...
My eyes just ready to close anytime now. I think early night tonight... and cuddle up with Angel under the blanket =p~ ,well, the weather now just getting cooler and cooler. I freezed my butts off this morning when I got up for Angel's school. My feet was tip toeing on the cold floor. Brrrrrr.... hoaammmmmmm.... man!! I can't hardly think nor open my eyes. So I better end this torture and let my eyes sleep...
Hihihihihi sorry guys , I have no yarn to tell tonight. I am just tired... so I catch u some other time okay :)
I love y'all :)
Cheers !!
And I shall live you tonight with this poem by [url=http://writers.oneummah.net]Samina786[/url] , with hope that you gained something from it :)
Salaat is a basic pillar of Islam,
It is mentioned again and again in the Quran
The importance of prayer is in seven hundred places
But in the mosque, do you see many young faces?
Praying in the mosque gives 27 times the reward
Praying with the intention that you’re pleasing your Lord
When you walk to the mosque, just remember within
You gain a reward and you’re losing a sin...
For every step towards your destination
This is a blessing from Allah (swt) to his creation
The Quran has foretold, that before you are dead
“Say your prayers before your prayers are said”
Our Prophet (SAW) said about those who miss prayer
Fifteen punishments they’ll have to bear
Six, in this life, three on passing away
Three in the grave and three on judgement day
[i][b]For missing Fajr at the start of the day
The glow of the face is taken away
The punishment for missing the salaat of Zohr
There will be no blessing from your income no more
For missing Asr, the middle prayer of the day
The strength of the body is taken away
By missing Maghrib, remember one thing
You will not be benefited by your offspring
For missing Ishaa at the end of the day
The peace of your sleep will be taken away
While seeing elders pray at the mosque door
Remember as a young person, your reward is 70 times more
Read salaat punctually, read it with care
On Judgement Day, we will be asked about prayer
That’s the first question, so take this advice
Salaat is the key to paradise
Spread this word to Muslim sisters and brothers
Salaat will seperate Muslims from others
Salaat is a blessing which Allah (swt) gave
It will intercede and protect us in the grave
When it comes, eventually, to the day of rising
The believers body washed by wudu will be shining
For the believers who are regular in offering salaat
It becomes a light of guidance on the pul-siraat
Don’t miss the prayer asr at any cost
It will be like your family and wealth is lost
The Ayat-Ul-Kursi after fard, shud be read
It will lead you to paradise (Insha’Allah) after you’re Dead
Not reading salaat will lead you to hell
Surrounded by serpants in a deep well
Read your salaat whilst still in your prime
And read the Durood Shareef in your spare time
You’ll get ten rewards, the Lord (Insha’Allah) will accept your pleas
And you’ll be closer to Allah (swt) by ten more degrees
So embrace Islam with all your heart
And remember the key is reading salaat!!! [/b][/i]
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| ~*~ What About Me ~*~ |
| 03.07.04 (8:32 am) [edit] |
What About Me ? What About You ? What About Us ?
[b][u][i]"What About Me"[/b][/u]
Well there's a little boy waiting at the counter of a corner shop
He's been waiting down there, waiting half the day
They never ever see him from the top
He gets pushed around, knocked to the ground
He gets to his feet and he says
What about me, it isn't fair
I've had enough now i want my share
Can't you see i wanna live
But you just take more than you give
Well there's a pretty girl serving at the counter of the corner shop
She's been waiting back there, waiting for her dreams
Her dreams walk in and out they never stop
Well she's not too proud to cry out loud
She runs to the street and she screams
So take a step back and see the little people
They may be young but they're the ones
That make the big people big
So listen, as they whisper
What about me
And now i'm standing on the corner all the world's gone home
Nobody's changed, nobody's been saved
And i'm feeling cold and alone
I guess i'm lucky, i smile a lot
But sometimes i wish for more than i've got
By : Shannon Noll [/i]
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| ~*~ Solace ~*~ |
| 03.06.04 (11:16 pm) [edit] |
[b][i]Le ciel était mon ami
que le vent était mon compagnon constant
les anges étaient ma consolation
j'avais étée seul mais
je n'avais pas peur je marche le chemin comme
je ne naissais jamais...
Je suis absent vous...
Ennuyez-vous ainsi de vous...
Jamais volonté je ne vous vois jamais....
Je suis absent vous amoureux... [/b][/i]
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| ~*~ Oceanorium Day ~*~ |
| 03.06.04 (8:39 pm) [edit] |
Waking up early to show some people the house for rent but they *bugger* didn't show up nor bother to give me a call if they can't make it ... I was spewing but what the heck !! Least it get me out of bed early =p~
So like I promise Angel, we are going to do something today since it is weekend. She decided and suggested that we go to the [b]" AQWA " = Aqua Western Australia [/b], in Jakarta probably it is [b]Sea World [/b]. AQWA located in Hillary Boat Harbour - WA. Very gorgeous part of Perth. The place not just to see sea creatures in a cavtivity but also a place where they breed few sea creatures such as Turtle, Seals and dolphins. Pretty cool place... we've been there couple of times and we always had a great time... so many things to see. Including the divine , elegant and luminious Moon Jelly Fishes... they are like a glowing moon of the ocean. They were kept in the dark so we can see the glow. Gorgeous slimy things :) - we also have the time to see the seals and their antics , that was awesome because you can get up and personal with the mamals although just behind a protective glass but they weren't shy at all .... they were just as curious as us. That was pretty cool to see them swimming about with no care in the world.
We had lunch there... I had Thai Green Salad , yum yum... Angel had steak & chips , sitting by the sea side and enjoying our lunch. With the ocean under our feet ... just perfect !! Have you ever had your lunch on water today ??? :)
After we finished there.... Angel decided to see something else .... eugh at that time my feet killing me and just wanna go home and put my feet up !! Oh well, it is weekend and poor lil' rich girl on her day off from school ... so yeah I suppose I should do what a good mother should do =p following whatever the Princess wishes. Off we drive to Fremantle... well, trying to anyway =p - The damn street confuse me and got us lost on our way there !! iahiahahaihaiahia... kinda shity fun though going round and round the circle by the beach =p , NOT !!! but eventually I've got the right way and continue our journey :lol: , mana agi enak2 kesasar ada yang epon !! Igghhhh .... malez jawab , sekertaris saya yang jawab si Angel hehieheiehie.... lha drpd tambah kesasar or accident gara2 ngomong dan epon ?? *alesan* , sapa yang epon ?? Tuw Tuwh !! huwwwww =p~
We got there safely *just* hihihihihi and muck about there for a bit until our legs so sore and refuse to walk anymore. So I said to Angel that there's no way she ask me to take her anywhere now !!! I am buggered !! So I just drag her home and off we went .... wiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii all the way home.... =p
Now, we are home and I am sleepy... perhaps I am gonna have an early night - so I guess I catch you all laterz mmmkay.... hihihihihihih
Cheers !!
Oh By The way ... this song was came along when I was driving and I can almost feel the pain ... again... as it never really go away...
[b][i][u]"My Immortal"[/u]
I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along
By : Evanescence[/i] [/b]
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| ~*~ Aduh...perih... ~*~ |
| 03.05.04 (10:27 pm) [edit] |
Ketika kulihat dia... dia dengan rambutnya yang lebat dan ada warna-warnanya... aku terkagum-kagum. Kulihat dia sangat kuat dan terlihat otot tersembul disana-sini. Kekuatannya kelihatan kalau dikira-kira dia sudah bertahun-tahun melatih dirinya hingga berotot model begitu... aku agak takut untuk mendekati apalagi memulai... tapi aku sudah berniat...
Di dalam hatiku, aku mengatakan bahwa.. ini kesempatan yang kutunggu-tunggu sejak aku kembali ke Perth dan sekarang dia di hadapanku berdiri dengan tegaknya dan sesekali juntaian rambutnya tertiup angin... ini saat yang tepat atau tidak sama sekali.. aku sangat berminat hari ini... dan kebetulan hari ini panasnya tidak terlalu menyengat jadi... yah mungkin ada nikmatnya berdua-dua siang ini sebelum Nanda pulang. Mumpung... hiihihihihi
Hmmm.... aku mulai lirik2 dan pelan-pelan mengatakan padanya bila hari ini aku harus melakukan sesuatu sama dia.. dan kulihat anggukannya yang tidak begitu meyakinkan... malah berkesan sombong. Dalam hatiku :" Awas kau nanti, bila kau sudah kusentuh kau tak akan bisa berbuat apa2 lagi... bahkan kau akan pasrah saja!! " begitu aku bilang ... aku tatap dia dan mencari-cari bagaimana dan dimana aku harus mulai.
Setelah beberapa sa'at aku melihat bagian dari dia yang hmmm.... kelihatan kuat dan berotot... aku sentuh dengan ujung tanganku ..eughhhh berdesir rasanya darahku... aduh kok aku deg2an sih untuk memulainya. Tapi lagi-lagi dalam hatiku... ada suara bahwa hari ini adalah hari yang terbaik dan mumpung aku sedang mood :oops: , lalu dengan cukup kencang kusentuh dia dan memulai ... dia diam saja tak bereaksi tapi sedikit defensive. Aku jadi gemas... aku mulai dengan sentuhan2 ringan saja... hanya sekitar telinga dan bahunya saja. Dia tetap diam ... tapi ketika aku sentuh agak kebawah dan ke otot yang sangat kuat awghhhh... dia sedikit melawan.. dan aku berusaha untuk mematahkan perlawanannya dan aku mulai berpeluh... tubuhku panas dan tanpa sengaja mulai mengeluarkan suara2 gemas .... aduh... di cakarnya aku !!! ternyata ada nyalinya juga untuk mencakar kulitku yang halus ini... aku merinding dan sedikit meringis... perih .. dan agak gatal2 sedikit. Tapi aku terus melakukan serangan2 dengan gencarnya dan makin gemas dengan perlawanannya...!!! aduh... sekali lagi dia mencakar aku dan kulihat kali ini tanganku yang kena ...terlihat bekas cakarannya... merah, segaris dan sedikit berdarah - aku meringis lagi dan menyeringai dan mengatakan padanya " Itukah yang terbaik yang bisa kamu lakukan kepadaku ?? sedikit mencibir aku mengatakannya... sambil terus meraba, menarik, memotong langkah2nya dan menyeruak kedalamnya... ahhh...
Kali ini yang kurasakan adalah sekitar kakiku... agresif juga dia rupanya, masak sampai kakiku dicakarnya ??? bersamaan dengan itu pertahanan pertamanya bobol !!! aku dapat melucuti salah satu yang ada ditubuhnya meskipun dengan susah payah... aku berkeringat dan tersenyum puas. "apa kataku tadi ?? aku akan bisa menaklukanmu !!"
Aku terus menyerangnya dan dia makin pasrah, pertahanannya makin melemah dan kulihat dia juga berpeluh ... dan mulai kelihatan "terbuka" kurasa sebentar lagi dia akan benar2 takluk ditanganku... meskipun ketika kulihat tanganku... kakiku...tubuhku...semua merah2 dicakarnya .... sangat kelihatan bila dia juga gemas sama aku :oops: bahkan saking gemasnya dia sesekali mengigit aku... tuh ada beberapa bagian tubuhku yang berdarah dan sampai sekarang merah2 bekasnya....
Dan untuk yang terakhir kalinya.... dan untuk klimaks dari semuanya... kutarik keluar bagian dia yang paling terbesar dan paling kaku !!! sekaranglah saatnya dalam hatiku.... ku ambil alat yang paling penting, aku pas-kan lalu ku gesek2 hingga dia terdiam entah menikmati atau tidak aku tak perduli karena aku yang melakukan semua gerakan2 terakhir ini... tanganku mulai mencengkeram dengan kuatnya dan nafasku memburu... awhhhh ... dan dia juga mulai kelihatan kehilangan pertahanan...... seketika semuanya hanya diam dan yang terdengar hanyalah gesekan2ku ... lalu... "Crackkkkkkkkkkkkk !!!" Boom !! Huahhhhhhhhhh ..... seperti kembang api meledak rasanya ketika semuanya terjadi... dia dan aku bersamaan ... sama2 merasakan sesuatu... Ahhhhhhhh.... lega rasanyaaaaa ... aku kalahkan dia... aku taklukan dia dan kulihat cairan putih itu dari tubuhnya.... oowhhh... kena kau !!! setelah beberapa detik ku angkat bagian itu karena ingin aku bersihkan... dengan sekali tarik keluarlah dia.... BUSYET ..!! INI POHON BOGENVILIA SUSAH AMAT MOTONGNYA !!!! DI GERGAJI DI POTONG CABANG2NYA KERAS AMAT .... MANA GUE SAMPE KENA DURI2NYA LAGEEEEE ... DODOL !!!! LIHAT NIH KULIT GUE PADA KENA DURIIIIIIIII !!!! MANA BERGETAH PULAK !!!
Hari ini gue motong pohon bougenvillia tua itu dengan cabang2nya yang kekar :lol: mumpung gue lagi rajin =p~ oeheoheoehoeho hasilnya kulit gue yang mulus kena duri semua dan berdarah-darah iehieheihe... perih choy... dan gue sampe pake gergaji motong tuh cabang2 eiheihei mana mumpung Nanda masih disekolah :D
[b]EMANG LOE KIRA GUE NGAPAIN ?????????? :lol: [/b]
Jangan serius gitu dunk bacanya =p~ *NGAKAK!!*
Cheers y'all !!!
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| ~*~ The Boys Night ~*~ |
| 03.05.04 (4:23 am) [edit] |
Waduw!! Nanda.... hehehehe manjanya minta ampun. Habis pulang dari jalan-jalan setelah pulang sekolah masak cengeng2 gitu ?? ngapain maunya ? mau telephone daddy-nya dan ingin berakhir pekan sama daddynya. Dia telephone daddynya dan berbincang-bincang sebentar lalu dengan sedih dia bilang "mom, daddy want to talk to you and he said I can't come and spend weekend with him" mukanya sedih banget... dan kelihatan di wajahnya bahwa dia kecewa banget... air matanya mulai turun... mendung menerawangi wajahnya yang bersemu merah...
Aku bicara dengan daddynya, dan daddy menerangkan bahwa dia sedang sibuk banget sama kerjaannya... yah memang dia sangat sibuk banget akhir2 ini, besok pagi dia kudu keluar kota , makanya nggak bisa berakhir pekan dengan nanda... wah... gimana yah ??
Ya udah akhirnya setelah selesai bicara on the phone, aku merayu Nanda biar ngerti tapi tetep aja dia sedih dan malahan mulai menangis dengan mengatakan bahwa dia kangen sama daddy-nya... :( ......... mikir-mikir.... mikir...mikir... Tik-tok... tik-tok... Eureka !!! Ya udah undang saja kerumah !!! Akhirnya aku bilang sama Nanda, telephone daddy lagi deh dan undang dia makan malam bersama kami dirumah !! Nanda senang sekali.... dan dari pembicaraan yang ku dengar kakaknya dan teman kakaknya akan datang juga karena memang sebenernya malam ini "the boys night" , hehhehehe nggak ada girls yang boleh ikutan :D BUT !! buat Nanda semua turun tangan ... ya akhirnya mereka datang kerumah dan makan malam bersama disini... untung aku punya bahan-bahan makanan yang cukup untuk masak mendadak ! Lha wong rencana-nya malam ini mau santai kok =p~ egh .. si Nanda malah ngundang pasukan :lol: ya udah deh... akhirnya masak apa adanya dan katanya enak anyway ... Alhamdulillah... Nanda-nya jadi senang lagi karena ketemu daddy-nya dan kakak-nya.
Nanda Angel memang kalau keluar manjanya... ck ck ck... ngalahin aku =p~ tapi untung aja baik daddy-nya maupun kakak-nya bisa ngerti. Jadi dibela-belain nyetir mobil dari rumah mereka yang lumayan jauh ke rumah kami ... namanya juga cewek kecil sendiri , jadi ya diturutin deh kemauannya.....
Nanda Angel tuh igh lucky girl banget memang... segala yang dia mau Alhamdulillah keturutan aja... mudah2an dia selalu dalam lindungan-NYA , dan dilimpahkan kebaikan dunia dan akhirat... Amien Ya Rabb
Yah akhirnya... rumah penuh dengan tawa dan cerita-cerita lucu... rame banget tadi sore :lol:, kesedihan berubah menjadi keceriaan... aku jadi ikut-ikutan ngakak2 ..melupakan kesedihan2 yang ada ... relax sebentar.. good medicine :)
Mereka main-main sama Nanda Angel dan lihat2 poto2 tua yang aku simpan dan membawa kita ke masa-masa lalu... semuanya jadi terbawa kebahagiaan masa lalu dan Angel matanya berkedip-kedip penuh kegembiraan mendengarkan cerita-cerita. Pokoknya seru !!! Hehieheiheie...
Makasih boys for making our night full of laugh and happiness... GOD Bless you... always.
Now all silence again but fond memories stucked in our head. My Angel now sleep peacefuly with smile on her face, happy and content. GOD Bless you my lil' Angel.....
Goodnight folks.... May the peacefull night be with you ....
Catch Ya !!
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| ~*~ Mumet !!!! ~*~ |
| 03.04.04 (3:10 am) [edit] |
Hola !! Late again this morning for school !! I got up at 7 AM but decided to have couple more minutes of sleeping and yep !! You guess right... I sleep over :D
What a bum that I am !!!
So I promise from today, I am not going to sleep after the freakin alarm clock gone off !!! Huahuahuhauahuahauh...
Hihhhhhhhh... gue ketawa2... padahal mulut gue gak ketawa.. jari2 gue yang ketawa...
Gue barusan aja "pecah" , gue nahan2 feeling ini udah berapa hari... akhirnya malam ini pecah juga.. gue nangis sejadi-jadinya...
Gue bingung, gimana gue akan bilang ke mama ? maksudnya bilang nggak ke mama.. gue nggak tega bikin mama sedih dan khawatir tentang gue disini.. beliau sudah cukup banyak kesedihan, kesusahannya...
Gue nggak tega mau bilang ama keluarga gue di JKT tentang sikon terakhir gue...
Gue kagak mau nyusahin mereka....
Meskipun gue sekarang butuh doa2 mereka , gue tetep nggak tega mau bilangnya...
Makanya meledak deh feeling gue malam ini, gue nggak tahan membayangkan mama sedih bahkan menangis jika tau, itu hal terakhir yang gue mau .. bikin mama sedih dan menangis....
Maybe ya nggak usah bilang.. jadi nggak ada tambahan beban fikiran buat mama...
Malam ini pusing kepala jadi hebat :cry:
Tau deh ah.... :(
Take care y'allz
[b][u]mayou no nga kowai no des [/u][/b]
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| ~*~ May It Be ~*~ |
| 03.04.04 (2:18 am) [edit] |
[u][i]~*~ May It Be ~*~[/u]
May it be an evening star
Shines down upon you
May it be when darkness falls
Your heart will be true
You walk a lonely road
Oh, how are you are from home
Mornië utúlië (darkness has come)
Believe and you will find your way
Mornië alantië (darkness has fallen)
A promise lives within you now
May it be the shadows call
Will fly away
May it be your journey on
To light the day
When the night is overcome
You may rise to find the sun
Mornië utúlië (darkness has come)
Believe and you will find your way
Mornië alantië (darkness has fallen)
A promise lives within you now
A promise lives within you now
By : Enya[i]
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| ~*~ The Morning Star ~*~ |
| 03.02.04 (12:09 pm) [edit] |
[u][b]~*~ My Morning Star ~*~[/u]
[i]The crack of dawn emerging with the rise of the sun
All the flying creatues waking up with you my dear...
I see you face with its smile like no other bright stars
Your eyes blinking just like morning star....
Wake up sweet love
Wake with the morning breeze
Wake the world with your laughter
Wake the sleepy heart with your voice....
Good morning sweet princess...
May your day be brighter than yesterday
May your time sweeter than honey
I will be there with you again soon
Have a nice day sweetheart
Your dear 'ol mom going to be here
Waiting for your share tales about the day...
Sweetheart...
I Love you...
I Need you...
I Want you...
I So in Love with you, everyday... [/i][/b]
[b]For : My Morning Star , Angel
By : - Mommy -[/b]
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