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| ~*~ Mal-Ming Sama Baby Boy ~*~ |
| 08.01.04 (3:47 am) [edit] |
Malem minggu nggak kemana-mana dan kebetulan ada saudara yang datang menjenguk, Alhamdulillah di tengokin... dan mereka bawa anaknya yang masih kecil, umurnya kira2 ... 1 thn deh , cowok !! HIhihihih... lucu deh anaknya dan dia tuh sudah bisa jalan dengan gagahnya... dan saya tuh gemes bangetttttttt !! Maklumlah saya kan ingin banget punya baby boy gitu jadi kalau lihat anak kecil cowok... bawaannya pengen culik saja :D - jadi sudah deh tuh anak... jadi gemes2an saya dan Angel :lol:
Dari ketawanya... cara dia mencoba berkomunikasi lucu banget... menggemaskan sekaligus bikin saya pengen bangetttttttt jadi ibu lagi.... hiks....hiks... Volunteer pls =p~
Jadi malem minggu tuh main sama anak kecil saya.... senang sekali terutama si Angel, dia sampe keluarin semua mainannya buat ponakannya.... ya udah deh, yang namanya rumah jadi seperti kapal pecah akibatnya =p~ dan berisik banget, soalnya semua orang ingin si ponakan kecil itu berbuat yang lucu2 hihihihi biasa lahhhhhh kalo ada anak kecil baru pinter kan gitu... semua jadi ingin iseng =p~ untung tuh anak nurut2 aja dan berbuat yang memang lucu banget , DUH !! pengen....
Kapan yah gue kebagian rezeki punya anak lagi... mudah2an sih Baby Boy deh :lol: - kudu pake trik2 khusus kah kalo pengen baby boy ??? misalnya lampunya dimatikan =p~ heoheoheoehoe , eh eh tapi ada yang bilangin kalau gitu2 tuh bisa di atur .... masak sih ??? dengan makanan2 tertentu ? bisa gak sih ?? di OZ sih pernah ada yang sukses tapi ya bagi saya sih... semua kembali ke DIA ... kan yang ngasih juga DIA jadi terserah di kasihnya apa yah ??
Aaaaaaahhhh.... abis gimana dunk... ingin baby boy tapi yang bisa untuk membuat baby boy-nya lom ada siy =p~ , biar sampe jempol gue kaku juga gak akan mbrojol !!! duduT !!
Angela : Mom... Angela ingin adik cowok kecil... Mom bikin dongggg.... pokoknya Angela ingin besok sudah jadi !!
Me : :shock: :shock:
Emang segitu gampangnya Nenggggggg !! :lol: minta dd sih kudu jadi besok =p~ emang bikinnya pake tanah lempung ??? hauhaiahiaha... lucu yah si Nanda ... lugu banget *hugs*
Sampai saya ciumin abis2an deh tuh anak saking gemesnya saya sama dia....
Ya gitu deh mal-ming, sepi2 aja... gak ada yang di nanti or di harapkan... semua biasa2 saja...
Nanti deh kalau udah cakep baru jalan2 lagi en mejenk sama Nanda :D heiheiehei kangen main2 sama Nanda ke Mall dan lihat dia main itu Dancing Machine.
Have a nice weekend yah semua.... *hugs+kiss*
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| ~*~ Expression Of Love ~*~ |
| 07.30.04 (3:57 am) [edit] |
The love of my life...
The light of my heart...
The sky of my planet...
The night of my day...
The sun of my universe...
The one and only my [url=http://DiscoAngeL.tblog.com]AngeL[/url] ...
Whom I love so dearly...
She is My AngeL
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| ~*~ Cerita Kecil Saja ~*~ |
| 07.29.04 (2:11 am) [edit] |
Bused deh abis di pijitin kemarin dalam usaha rehabilitasi gue , kok, badan gue malah sakit semua yegh ?? Ngapa yah ??
Padahal waktu di pijit perasaan kagak keras banget deh... maksudnya gue tuh orang paling nggak betah di pijit apalagi pijitan macem urut gitu di Indo , soale biasanya tuh nenek2 or kakek2 yg mijit dan mereka tuh kalo mijit rata2 kalau pasiennya kagak tereak2 kesakitan belom puwas =p~
Lucunya tuh dulu pernah di pijit sama nenek2 gue karena pernah pegel2 abis jalan2 =p~ trus kan dia mijitnya tuh kerassssss bangetttttt sampe gue tuh mengaduh-aduh kesakitan :lol: tau gak apa kata dia ??? "Neng... tuh tuh kan, itu urat2nya kaku dan ada angin di tulang ..." sambil terus mencet2 badan dan kaki gue dengan kerasnya... heiheiehie saking nggak tahannya dengan secara sopan dan siap2 melarikan diri gue bilang " Mbah... makasih yah...badanku sudah enakkan..." sambil buru2 berdiri dan manggil mama :D heheiheiehei tuh nenek2 sampe bilang " Lha belom selesai kok neng mijitnya " ... dengan jurus kilat gue mabur ke kamar gue sendiri dan ngumpet =p~
Pas udah pulang tuh nenek2 pijit mama ketuk kamar dan nanya kenapa kok udahan early ... gue nyaut sambil meringis-ringis dan bilang "sakit ma ..... " heihiehie mama cuman ketawa aja tapi dia ngerti maksud gue. Kata mama sih emang begitu komen orang yang gak biasa di pijit =p~ - gue bilang " Nggak ngaruh ah ma ... itu mah baru gak kerasa kalau dia mijitin kebo!!" hieheiheieh lha wong ndak kira2 jeh !! Suakitttt booooooqqqqq.. :oops:
Nah yg kemarin tuh nggak sakit tapi kali pakai unsur murni jadi hasilnya hari ini gue rada2 sakit semua tapi di barengi oleh rasa enak2 gitu =p~ - kata yg mijit gue di suruh kesana tiap minggu kalau ingin therapy ... mayan.... heiheiheih akhirnya ketemu juga pijitan yang enak....
Nanda saya sementara belum menemukan kesulitan untuk study2nya... dia dengan senangnya menyelesaikan lessons-nya dengan tenang dan happy2 aja .... malahan kata dia kalau dia enjoy mengisi PR2 nya *tumben*
Belum ada rencana kemana-mana soale kaki masih belum 100 % "aman" buat di pakai, sedangkan Nanda sudah bosan di rumah terus dan mulai ngajak ke TimeZone !! hieheiehie.... semua sedang agak sibuk di rumah buat mengajak Nanda jalan2 jadi Nanda terpaksa BT dulu selama gue belum pulih banget... kasihan yah.... ? abis gimana dong, daripada gue pingsan di jalan ??? bisa gaswat !! sapa yang kuat gendong coba ?? :lol: haihaihaiah lha wong segede gajah begini jeh !!! cuek ah !
Udah ah pegel gue ... hihihihi... tapi enak banget deh bisa di JKT , soale segala macem ada termasuk cinta kasih Mama-ku tercinta...
Nanda saya sekarang tiap sore di rubung anak2 sekitar rumah... hihihihihi .... untung Nanda bahasa Indonesia-nya manteb!! jadi di ajak ngobrol dan becanda sama anak2 bisa... lucu banget deh denger pertanyaan2 mereka untuk Nanda dan Nanda dengan polosnya jawab apa adanya. Gue bisa bangga sama anak gue soalnya dia nggak milih2 teman, maksudnya dia ngga perduli itu cewek atau cowok , warna kulit dan agama , dia suka sama temannya semua.... kenapa gue bilang gitu ? akhir2 ini gue denger ada anak2 yang dengan polosnya bilang ke temen yang lainnya jika mereka nggak mau main lagi sama yang lain agama dari mereka :shock: , kok anak kecil yang polos bisa berfikiran begitu ??? bukannya nuduh yah... tapi kemungkinan ya ada masukan dari orangtua mereka.... amat di sayangkan kalau jiwa2 yang masih polos dan seharusnya lugu atau "buta" akan warna kulit, agama, jenis kelamin dan perbedaan2 lainnya, teracuni oleh hal2 yang negatif macem begitu... bila perpecahan terjadi sejak umur dini begitu ... masa depan apakah yang akan kita sambut ??? mengerikan yah ??
Gue ngaku mungkin gue bukan orang tua yang terbaik buat Nanda , mungkin yah.. tapi gue nggak tega tuh meracuni anak gue dengan hal2 yang negatif model begitu... padahal kalau mau sombong dan milih2 gue dan Nanda bisa kok , gue bisa pakai cara apa aja biar nggak berteman dengan seseorang. Tapi gue mau anak gue tumbuh dengan lugunya dan gue ingin dia melihat dunia dan orang2 yang dia kenal dalam hidupnya melalui matanya sendiri dengan pengawasan gue dan bokapnya tentunya tapi gue nggak akan meracuni... lagian bukan hak kita menilai orang lain hanya karena warna kulit, agama, dll - hanya DIA yang berhak mengatakan siapa kita ini ....
Sedih gue waktu dengar anak2 bilang begitu...
Ternyata kita orang2 Indonesia yang di ajarkan " Bhineka Tunggal Ika " sebagian masih lebih racist dari yang seharusnya.... Kasihan...
Cheers !
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| ~*~ AngeLs ~*~ |
| 07.28.04 (1:09 am) [edit] |
Hush! my dear, lie still and slumber,
Holy angels guard thy bed!
Heavenly blessings without number
Gently falling on thy head.
What are angels?…They are the invisible ones, who come to hold us, heal us, guide us, guard us. They take on any form in which they can be received: as visions, as voices, as dreams, as mysterious accidents or as the weird and marvelous coincidence that leaves us laughing with awe and disbelief. They are the whisper of intuition at our shoulder…
Angels have no beginning and no end. They exist in this moment, and not in memories, or projections. To find angels, we must look into the core of our Being.
But angels help us remember, when the urgencies screaming for attention make us forget, when we feel so estranged by stress or worldliness that we miss the many-splendored things. They remind us to look beyond our everyday circumstances or stress.
Our angels love us, and because they love us, they have only our good at heart. They want us to be happy and at peace. They want us to know wisdom and mercy and love. They want what’s best for us.
Those who walk with angels learn to soar above the clouds.
When we freely forgive others who have hurt us, our angel brings us a special blessing of love from God.
While all angels are beings of sublime goodness, guardian angels serve especially as protectors and caretakers of individuals here on earth. You may not recognize or acknowledge your guardian angel, but he or she watches, guides, and defends you at all times.
Leave gentle fingerprints on the soul of another for the angels to read.
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| ~*~ Chicken Run or Me ?? ~*~ |
| 07.27.04 (1:39 am) [edit] |
Like my sis LuDu said... I am gonna take it easy and not worry about jack shit :p~ or any brainless jerk out there :D - and that's just what I am going to do !!
Well, she's not the 1st one to say that I should not be too worry about people who are not worth to be friend anyway... my Strawberry Robinson also said the same thing but with a bit more twist with it =p~
Anyway... yeah yeah :lol:
Today, JKT was pretty cloudy this morning, I was feeling a tinge of cool weather and I thought WoW the tropical paradise going to sheds some rain .... but... I was hoping too much :lol: as the day progressing, the cloud disappeared and there comes the sunshine and humidity !! Hihihaiahihi so much for cooler climate.
Although my swollen feet had gone down I am still not being able to walk .... everytime I tried to walk , I had so much pain - the Arthritis still there as well as the Ross River Virus - getting up and sitting down become a bother this day, I need someone to help me to get me up. Sitting on the floor had become a habbit when you are in tropical country as it is actually cooler your body if you sit on a tiled floor :D - but not easy for me to get up after I've been sitting for awhile. I felt like an elephant sometime =p~ *crash boom!!!! on my ass again each time I tried to get up =p~* :lol:
My mom been spoiling me .... I had a feet massage from her tonight and it was soooooooo gooooooodddddd ... ahhhh... nothing like a mother touch.... not to mention her cooking .... nyammmm...
What's funny today.... ? I bumped into my old b/f =p~ .. wait wait before you guys gone all crazy on me , let me assure you.... he's married with 2 kids ok ?? =p~ so NO hangky pangky happening here. We talked for a bit and had couple of laughs , he wish me all the best and promise to see me some other time as he was on his way to work. So I said to him to come to my parents house if he want to see me and bring along his wife and kids - his wife is a school friend of mine :oops: infact... we were in same class !!! Cool huh ? small world... but it was my fault though.... I left the guy for travel the world :roll: - Such as life and No regret. He seemed pretty happy with life and I am happy for him *sounding like freakin' soap opera here !! * hiehieheiehi
One thing I should mention... the only hangky pangky I've got today was that I had a fight with chickens !! On the backyard of my parent's house there's my mom's pet chickens =p~ - not just any chicken , they are dwarf chicken or a Bantam (?) , anyway, they got a bit agressive today and when I was about to walk passed them, they came running straight at me and freak the heck outta me !! They were aiming for my legs =p~ *freakin' dwarf !!* iheiheihei - so with my reflex I had to avoid them without hurting them ..... I hide behind the water tank :oops: ieheihei and wait until they gone to other direction and when my brother saw me hidding behind the water tank with a sandal on one of my hand ... without mercy he just laugh at me :lol: Bugger !!! eiheiheiehiehi - then he make that chicken sounds with both his hands flapping immitating the chicken wings... shit =p~ I was just embarace but held my head high and walk away from him and the darn chickens .... with no second glance :lol: - yeah u guys shut up too , don't laugh at me now .... it was scary you knowwwwww hehehehhehe :twisted:
Well thats my day... hows yours ?? :lol:
Cheers !!
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| ~*~ Just Feel Rather DuLL ~*~ |
| 07.25.04 (3:33 am) [edit] |
Dull Ache ...
Dull emotion
Dull surrounding...
Dull friends...
Dull actions
Dull Life...
What the heck is a matter with me ?? I am in this beautiful tropical country with my lovely family and why am I feeling kinda blue ??
Perhaps because I have not been out much, I am still mending my ache & pain. Most of my friends here are too busy to even drop me a line or two :D - funny though ... when I was well and healthy I have all this friends around me and ringing me up even for nothing , but since I have been ill ... they go away :roll: , kinda weird huh ?? The great one would say that those kind of friends are FAIR WEATHER FRIENDS. I learn a lot since I've been ill and one in particular I learn WHO my friends are ...
Nevermind... shit happen I suppose :lol:
This kind of people who are able to bring the bitch outta me :lol: ....
Catch Y'all later !! Cheers !!
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| ~*~ Welcome To Indonesia ~*~ |
| 07.22.04 (1:38 am) [edit] |
Welcome to Indonesia for both of us !!! Finally, we got to Indonesia and be surrounded by our own people again. It is good to be here and so nice to be with my family. Make my recuperating even better... with hope that it will speeding the geting healthy process. After all, it might help to have a happy emotion to mend the physical illnesses. Either way it is so good to be here.
We got here on Sunday the 18th. We had awesome flight and when we got to Jakarta it was 33'C !! When we left Perth it was just 5'C :shock: - so the big weather change shocking our body and we are nursing common cold for now and tummy bug :lol:. Being in Asia , again, I have to adapt with Asian bugs :lol: and here I am with tummy bug ... but have not stop me from eatting all this delicious Asian Dishes. Including food from the hawkers - they are just awesome !! You guys gotta try it sometime, no guarantee that you won't go to the toilet tomorrow morning if you eat some spicy food though :lol: - I am not bother by it .... after all I am in tropical paradise.
Not much change happening since last time I was in this city , well, at least in this part of Jakarta I am in at the moment.
My Mom getting older though... she look fragile but still beautifully serene... her smile still gave me peace, her embrace still gave security and her wisdom still comfort me.... how I wish that she can be with me forever and ever... I love this lady so much... not just because she is my Mom but she is also my best friend - I Love you Mom.... *hugs*
My Sis & Bro are so happy to have us back here as well, I see them everyday since we've been here and Angel has been busy playing with her cousin - they get along just mighty fine :) so .... I have loads of time to rest and mending my sick body. With all this love and laughter around me I hope I get better faster.
The other day I had my fave food again !! Ketoprak =p~ , its vegetarian dish - so delicious. Just awesome... try it sometime :P - I was so contented with it that I do not want any other food. It was so spicy it burned my tongue =p~ hieheiehieheie... so what !!
My face still pimply but it's getting better and my feet slowly losing its puffyness. I sweat a lot ... would that help me from losing the water in my body that caused this puffyness ??? who knows ??
My head hurt a little bit because of the heat perhaps - plus I think... I better find softer pillow as the one I've got now rather to hard for the left side of my head - the side where the tumour was operated. So that's my task for this week ... finding softer pillow , perhaps swan feather pillow... hhhmmmm..... fluffy pillow.... 8)
I have not seen any of my mates. I think this week and next would be kinda family affair 1st - then if I have the strength I might see couple of my mates. Then maybe taking baby Angel to the Mall to get her dose of books , comics and etc :P - an outting would be good ...
Anyway.... it is 11:37 PM .... I am exhausted. So I better get some rest and looking forward whats tomorrow brings :) - with hope all will be well and another day to the point of better health. Positive attitude essential !!
Take good care y'all and behave =p~~ As if ....
PS: It's funny how some people can be such a jerk .... :) don't ask me who - One would know if one being such a jerk ... but then again he is such a jerk perhaps he doesn't even know that he is a complete JERK !!
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| ~*~ Nasihat Ulama ~*~ |
| 07.20.04 (2:18 am) [edit] |
Assalamuallaikum Wr Wb,
Terasa getar seluruh tubuh
Sanak saudara tinggalkan jauh
Tiada tempat untuk berteduh
Karena tak pernah sholat Subuh
Sekarang badan sudah terkujur
Sudah berada didalam kubur
Tulang dan daging di pukul hancur
Karena tak pernah sholat Dzuhur
Itulah tanda hidup kesasar
Malaikat adzab semakin murka
Kulit dan daging hangus terbakar
Karena tak pernah sholat Ashar
Wahai di mana shahabat karib
Semua sama membawa nasib
Jasad di pukul lalu menjerit
Karena tak pernah sholat Maghrib
Di kubur ada ular berbisa
Yang bernama Suja'ul `Aqro
Melilit mayit yang banyak dosa
Karena tak pernah sholat Isya
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Itu salah satu pesan dari seorang Ulama yang mama saya belajar mengaji - dan Mama menasihatkan ini kepada saya.... badan saya menggigil membacanya dan semakin takut akan Adzab-NYA tapi tak mengurangi rasa cinta kami kepada-NYA.
Hayatilah... dan cintailah TUHAN-mu ... sebagaimana DIA mencintai kita semua. Mudah2an ada manfaatnya... amien.
Gue ngaku jika gue bukan orang yang terbaik tapi gue masih bisa ngaku akan kekurangan gue dan dosa2 gue dan gue berusaha untuk jadi wanita yang bisa terbaik buat keluarga gue dan terutama anak gue ... tiada yang lebih ALLAH cintai selain orang yang bertobat dengan sepenuh hati .... Insya ALLAH kita termasuk dari sebagian hamba yang ingat untuk selalu memohon ampunan dan bertobat... Amien Ya Rabb ....
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| ~*~ My Mom... ~*~ |
| 07.19.04 (2:40 am) [edit] |
Her face showered with love and concern..
Her wry smile telling me that she is worry
She utter gentle words..
I kiss her hand and greet her softly...
She is My Mom :)
I want to hold her in my arms forever...
I love you Mommy... *hugs*
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| ~*~ Travel Bug !! ~*~ |
| 07.16.04 (2:26 pm) [edit] |
It's kinda funny. I was supposed to pick up my tickets today and I got a call from the agent today, infact he is the boss of the Travel Agent. He just asked me if I am still going to go ahead with my travel because I rang one of the travel assistant to change the date of my departure. Part of the reason is that I am not 100 % feeling the best at all. I think I shall wait a bit longer. So anyway, he rang me to asked me that and I explained to him what's the story. After few minutes the conversation became pretty personal and the story became a bit more kinda away from any travel business - last time I spoke to him was in his office at the travel agent - he seemed to be enjoying having a conversation. On and on we talk until I said to him, Okay I shall come to the travel agent to pick my tickets up but before I finished talking, he said to me that he can deliver my tickets to my house :O *Amused* Totally, I was kinda amused by his suggestion. I mean it is not everyday that you buy tickets and the Boss of the travel agent want to deliver it personally to you. =p. Politely I said to him that I shall pick it up myself and thanking him for his kind suggestion. Wait !! that's not all ..... after that.. he asked me out =p~
I just can't believe myself, he asked me out to dinner !!! Hihihihi... again, I had to politely declined his kind invitation. Well, for one I am not in my best health, secondly ... it just don't feel right !! hhihihi ... but it was kinda a good feeling knowing that I still can pull guys =p~ oeheoehoeeh even when I am half bald and pimply not to mention fat =p :lol:
To be honest I have been kinda depressed with everything, I mean I felt unattractive despite constant assurance from My Strawberry Robinson :D - I don't how he did it but he always manage to text me something encouraging everyday, even when he is so tired... *hugs*
So yeah..being sick and unattractive totally bring me down... so it is nice to know that someone able to like me no matter what I look like .... after all I am a girl =p - I take the incident as a compliment and it does make me smile :)
So yeah, I am going to pick the tickets myself soon and act cool ! :lol: or he might think I have a "thing" for him *roll eyes* hihihihi... but I am sure he was just being nice .... but what with the dinner thing ?? Have your travel agent ask you out yet ? ever ?
Ohhh... pretty funny day I think....
Tonight, I had a couple of hours break from my Angel, her daddy took her for dinner. I was invited to join them for dinner but as much as I want to I was feeling under the weather still to go out - plus I was with Angel all day ... since it is her school holiday. I am her personal entertainer , I have been doing as much as I possibly can to entertaint her. We even have a moment of being "rough" with each other when we play games. Physically "fight" eachother off !! Oh my goodness, sometime I have no idea where my energy coming from when I play with her.... she seems to just able to transfer her energy to me so I can play with her :D - even after playing with her I will be all in pain and cover in scratches and stuffs.
So while Angel went to restaurant with her daddy , I was at home relaxing and strecthing my aching feet... aahhh.. what a bliss I tell ya ......
As soon as she's back - the games start all over again !! hihihihihi.... we even had pillow fight tonight. So cool to see her laughing and all excited. My gift for eachday is to see her smile, laugh and be happy.... We even had a couple of games with the playstation - and she won =p
Eugh.... I can't believe how many pimples I have on my face now !! Bugger me ! not to mention they are so painful !! :( - my doctor kindly prescribed me some anti-biotic for it - Thank GOD - because it drive me crazy !! well... it is sore..
The swelling on my fingers still there and getting harder and harder to pick any stuffs due to the pain - I can hardly open the water tap ! pain in the neck this task ... it took me at least a good 3 minutes to be able turning the tap on for shower. I can't fully doing any cooking anymore ... too painful to use the knife for cutting anything , so that's not good. I am physically tired. Can't wait to get to JKT for some full rest and loving...
Anyway, Bless You All My Family and Friends - May you have the best day and night with GOD's Love to us all ..... Amien.
Cheers !!
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| ~*~ Deep Thought ~*~ |
| 07.16.04 (2:12 am) [edit] |
Jika orang ingin hijabnya terkuak, dapat berkomunikasi dengan Yang Maha Mutlak, mencapai kasyaf dan si tabir jadi tercampakan orang harus melakukan tazkiyatun nafsi. Membuang kemaksiatan dan hawa nafsu serempak menggantinya dengan kebersihan kalbu. Kotoran kalbu dicuci, karat karat dikikis sehingga kerak kerak hawa nafsu habis. Diganti dengan kesucian jiwa yang mukhlis, kokoh kuat menentang godaan iblis.
Tabir penutup diri tak akan tersibak, selama hawa nafsu belum pupus, selama kalbu menghitam hangus, selama perilaku belum lurus. Hijab penutup bashirah tak akan terkuak selama takabur masih menghias diri, selama hati masih diliputi dengki, selama ego belum bersih dan suci.
Hijab hilang berkat ma'rifatullah, relung kalbu dekat lekat dengan Allah. Ia zuhud, tidak tenggelam dalam cinta dunia, meraih dunia hanya berkal ke alam baka. Ingat, marifatullah bukan sekedar tahu tetapi harus diamalkan dengan syahdu.
Tersingkirnya hijab merupakan anugerah Allah yang diberikan kepada orang orang pilihan yang sengaja mendekatkan diri kepada Alloh, yang sengaja bersimpuh mengadi kepada Alloh, yang sengaja melaksanakan perintah Allah, yang menghindar dari segala larangan Alloh. Itulah orang yang " fi 'isyatir radhiyah " yang hidup disayangi diridhoi Allah.
Yang mencapai kasyaf hanya orang orang pilihan, orang yang kinasih Allah sinayang Tuhan.
Sesungguhnya kamu tidak akan dapat memberi petunjuk kepada orang yang kamu kasihi, tetapi Allah memberi petunjuk kepada orang yang dikehendaki-Nya, dan Allah lebih mengetahui orang-orang yang mau menerima petunjuk. AL QASHASH (28:56)
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| ~*~ Simple Wish ~*~ |
| 07.13.04 (12:35 am) [edit] |
Please stop me from being a burden to anyone... :cry:
Let me get better soon... for My Lil' Angel and people sakes...
Latest News : Rheumatoid Arthritis & Ross River Virus :(
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| ~*~ Oh What A Night =p ~*~ |
| 07.11.04 (4:17 pm) [edit] |
Angel and I finally get to try out her new sleeping bag and she thought that was marvelous :D - Although I didn;t sleep that soundly but at least Angel had a great time and happy again....
Guess what though ...? Who do you think we slept with last night ???
Well... This guy !!! hihihihi
He came to my dream once *giggling like teenagers* =p and gave me the sweetest kiss of all ..... Aaaahhh..... well, I suppose one can dream huh ??
But yeah, he is so cute.... *dreaming of my 1st kiss with Mr.Bloom* :lol:
[url=http://home.iprimus.com.au/an...]~*~ Orlando Bloom In My Dream ~*~[/url]
Isn't he just the cutest....
Anyway... the school holiday is here which mean Angel & I will have loads of times with eachother and spend many hours try to amuse ourself =p
Indonesia in our mind ... so hopefully things will get better and Indonesia become reality very soon. Insya ALLAH - Ameen.
You guys have a wonderful weekend okay.... *hugs*
Cheers !!
PS: Mr. Bloom ... the answer to your question is : Yes :wink: *lol*
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| ~*~ Wish and Question of An AngeL ~*~ |
| 07.10.04 (2:58 pm) [edit] |
Last night, Angel want to sleep in the lounge room because the heater felt nice she said. Plus she want to try out her new sleeping bag :D , she was all excited and really set everything up. But as the night getting later my body hurt so much and it would be impossible for me to sleep on the floor :( - so I said to her that we couldn't "camp" in the lounge room.... she was very sad and start to cry :cry: and that made me feel so bad...
We had a shower and went to our room. Once we were there she asked me whether we could stick all her favourite stars poster on the wall .... again, I must say no because I have no energy and the pain all over my body just unbelievable by then. I think my arthritis getting worse each day... dang !!!
Then she was very angry and frustrated then she utter all this questions..... :(
- Why you still sick all the time Mom, I prayed everyday for your health but GOD don't listen to me ??!!
- Why my wish for you to get better soon not being granted ????
- Why only me who has sick Mom ?? Other kids don't have sick Mom !!! Why me !!
- Why you have to have the operation !!!
- I wish you can play with me and do the things we used to do ...
- I wish you can drive a car again Mom...
- I wish you can stick my poster up ...
With all her tears streaming down her cheeks and her little mouth shivering in anger. I can't say a word because my heart filled with sadness and it felt like thousand swords had stabbed my heart ..... I was deeply sad and disturb by my own presence. I was angry to myself !! I was angry for not getting better and gain strength quicker - I was frustrated ...
My daughter need me and I can't be there for her ...
I suppose this is part of being a single parent :) - solo flight all along...
This kind of emotion only make me stronger and determine to get better faster !!! For my Angel I am going to get better faster .... So Help Me GOD ... :)
But as a mother that was the saddest plead of all. Some of you guys must be a mother or father .... so you know what I mean by how sad to hear your child speak like that .....
Angel... You miss me as much as I miss you.... *hugs*
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| ~*~ What Are Angels ?? ~*~ |
| 07.08.04 (2:38 pm) [edit] |
What are angels?…
They are the invisible ones
Who come to hold us,
Heal us,
Guide us,
Guard us.....
They take on any form in which they can be received:
As visions,
As voices,
As dreams,
As mysterious accidents
Or as the weird and marvelous coincidence that leaves us laughing with awe and disbelief.
They are the whisper of intuition at our shoulder…
My Angel is in the form of my little daughter... She is My AngeL *hugs* and I am totally bless to have her in my life ....... I Love You AngeL .....
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| ~*~ How Could I ?? ~*~ |
| 07.08.04 (11:22 am) [edit] |
How could a person so nice can be hurtful in same time ?
I always think that I am a good mother for my Angel, perhaps not to everyone but to Angel I have always been a good mother...... so it is hurt so much when someone told me that I have not always been a good mother. :cry:
I never felt pain in my heart as much as I felt last night ...
I was having a good week and feeling a bit better physically. I was smiling and laughing with Angela and joke about with my Mom on the phone , it has been a great few days for me until last night .... all being ruined by selfishness !! How dare this person telling me that I was not always been a good mother to Angel !!!
Tears was streaming down my cheeks - I shut my mouth from saying anymore words or I would be loud and use filthy language to this person. I have been learning to control my anger for quiet sometime... I do not like fighting to anyone especially at this stage of my life. I was angry but I chose to be silent.
After all the happy discussion and plan , this person just talk about shit !! and dare enough telling me I am a terrible mother ...... people can call me many names and I would not care but to be call a BAD MOTHER ?? that get me the most !!! I was feeling so angry that I felt like I want to kick this person ass to hell !! GGGGGRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR !!!!
Eugh.... what a jerk !!
Before I went to sleep last night, I look back , in the last 7 years if I have been a terrible mother for Angel ... I tried my best being a single parent without the help of anyone , not even my family as they all are in Indonesia. I tried , I tried and still trying to be the best Mom for Angel .....
I held my Angel last night in my arms and whispered to her an apology if I was a bad mom for her all this time...
I said to her that I was sorry for the bad things I've done to her ....... I smacked her bottom couple of times when she was so naughty but not often as I am pretty lay back kind of mother and she is not a difficult child to raise - is that make me a bad mother ???
Early stage of Angel's life perhaps a bit rough due to disagreements me and her father had - it was tough for any of us but I did my best despite the situation.
*Sigh* ........... why is it whenever I am happy for a bit something bad happen .... and make me cry ?
I am sorry Angel..... *hugs*
~*~ Pinta Si Fakir ~*~
Ya Allah,
sesungguhnya Engkau Maha Mendengar
perkataan hambamu ini,
Maha melihat kedudukanku, Maha Mengetahui
rahasia dan kenyataanku
Tak ada sesuatupun dari perkaraku yang samar bagiMu.
Aku adalah orang yang sengsara, fakir, takut,
Aku meminta kepadaMu
sebagaimana orang miskin meminta
Aku mengagungkanMu
sebagaimana orang yang berdosa lagi hina mengagungkanMu
Aku berdo'a kepadaMu
sebagaimana halnya orang yang takut dan dalam keadaan terpaksa memohon kepadaMu
Aku berdo'a kepadaMu
sebagaimana orang yang jiwanya tunduk berdo'a padaMu
Aku berdo'a kepadaMu
sebagaimana halnya orang-orang yang menangis karena memohon ampunanMu,
sebagaimana do'anya orang yang merasa dirinya hina di hadapanMu
sebagaimana orang yang merasa tidak ada harganya di hadapanMu.
Ya Allah janganlah Engkau jadikan doaku terhadapMu
sebagai do'anya orang yang celaka
Kumohon, curahkanlah belas kasih dan sayangMu padaku
wahai sebaik-baiknya Dzat yang Dipinta dan
sebaik-baiknya Dzat yang Pemberi.
Hamba MU yang Fakir
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| ~*~ Blog Links ~*~ |
| 07.05.04 (12:28 pm) [edit] |
Buat temen-temen yang blognya belum ke link, maaf yah bukannya sengaja but kalian kan tau Doneeh down jadi link-ku juga ikutan :( - dan aku gak inget semua URL kalian .... jadi tolong dong isi komen dan tinggalin URL kalian biar bisa aku link lagi , ok ?? :) thanks...
I apologize to you guys who have not been linked by me recently. My link host is down and I lost all of my links data , so if you be so kind... can you please leave comment here with your URL :) so I can link it back ! Thanks ...
Muuachhhhhhh <3~ >Cheers !!
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| ~*~ Missing Him Daily ~*~ |
| 07.05.04 (12:15 pm) [edit] |
It is almost that time again...
The time when I remember one special person in my life other than my Angel..
I dread this time of the year :cry:
I miss him everyday but realise that he is now with ALLAH and I know he always keep an eye on me...
I do hope that he smiling down on me and my daughter :)
I just miss him so much...
My heart still aching when I think of him and still feel the lost ...
Many prays I whispered for him and letting him know how much I love him...
Eugh..... :(
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| ~*~ My Checklists ~*~ |
| 07.03.04 (11:16 pm) [edit] |
Checklist :
* Got my daughter passport and the visa to enter Indonesia the other day with no problem at all - Thank GOD :) - I was a bit worry that she might not get it at some stage .... due to some unrest there. So I was happy to know that she got it !!
* Our tickets , we supposed to pick it up last week but I've got so many things to do last week that I didn't get around to pick it up from the travel agent - Oh well... gotta try sometime next week.
* Financial bit , got my travel cheque organise as well. Sometime it is safer and easier to have travel cheque because too risky if I take cash only and can't always rely on CC. So travel cheque can be handy.
* Angel's school, I've got the meeting with her Headmaster and she signed our paper work without any trouble :D - the signature was for an aproval for Angel's Distance Education thingy.Done !
* Gotta talk to my work mates for ensuring everything "fine" before my departure.
* Packing ??? :D :D :D - please trust me I am working on it !!! :lol: - I am getting there.......... eventually :D
* Shopping for souveniers for peoples !!!!! *dunno when will I find the time and the strenght ??????*
Anyway... gotta chill for a bit .... and I hate this pimples on my forehead !!!!! I am 35 yo and I still freakin got pimples !! I hate the darn thing because I kept on accidently scratch it !! :cry: - even when I was teenager I never had pimples !! hhhmmm.... maybe my skin make up for a lost time ??? hihihihihi :lol:
Well, have a gorgeous weekend people :) *hugs*
Cheers !!
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| ~*~ Pertanyaan ... ~*~ |
| 07.02.04 (10:31 pm) [edit] |
Jika hati merasa rapuh apa yang harus kau lakukan ?
Jika jiwa terasa kosong apa yang harus kau lakukan ?
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