Have you ever wondered which hurts the most?
Saying something and wishing you hadn't?, or
Saying nothing and wishing you had?

I guess the most important things are the hardest things to say.Don't be afraid to tell someone you love them.

If you do, they might break your heart...if you don't, you might break theirs.

Have u ever decided not 2 become a couple because you were so afraid of losing what you already had with that person?

Your heart decides whom it likes and whom it doesn't.
You can't tell your heart what to do. It does it on its own........when you least suspect it, or even when you don't want it to.

Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had, but that other person was too afraid to let you?

Too many of us stay walled up because we are too afraid to care too much...for fear that the other person does not care as much, or even at all.

Have you ever denied your feelings for someone because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle?

We tell lies when we are afraid... afraid of what we
don't know, afraid of what others will think, afraid of what will be found out about us.

But every time we tell a lie, the thing we fear grows stronger.

Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump.

Don't be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would have done, or could have had.

* What would you do if every time you fell in love you had to say good-bye?

*What would you do if every time you wanted someone they would never be there?

*What would you do if your best friend died tomorrow and you never got to tell them how you felt? (even if it is that you don't care anymore)

*What would you do if you loved someone more than ever and you couldn't have them?

*What would you do if you never got the chance to say I am friends with all of my family and they know I love them?*

People live, but people die. I want to tell you that
you are a friend.

If you died tomorrow (God Forbid)

you would be in my heart.
Would I be in yours?

If you care about me as much as I care about you, you will send this back.

You might be best friends one year, pretty good friends the next year, don't talk that often the next, and don't want to talk at all the year after that.

So, I just wanted to say, even if I never talk to you again in my life, you are special to me and you have made a difference in my life,

I look up to you, respect you, truly cherish you , most of all I CARE about friends

Let old friends know you haven't forgotten them, and tell new friends you never will.

Remember, everyone needs a friend someday you might feel like you have NO FRIENDS at all, just remember this e-mail and takecomfort in knowing
somebody out there cares about you and ................ always will..

I care about YOU !!

Split into two .... that's the topic of the day. My 1st day of New Year 2006, I was being faced by a situation of no win-win situation. Why ? because, I made lots of people cried.... my daughter, my mother, the father of my child, my family...

After spending 1 year and 1/2 in Indonesia for recovering and work, it is time to go back to Australia again... and I have massive problem in my hand. I decide to return to Australia and resume my life back there Angel can attend to her school properly and able to spend time with her father ( my ex- ) - what made me such a decision ? The last night of AngeLs' father stay in Jakarta, Angel cried again... she didn't like the idea to be away again from her father but yet she won't be separated by her grandmother !! She cried quietly in his arms and hold him tight to sleep... my heart broken into tiny little pieces again... I can feel their pain. Have I been selfish ?? Living here in Indonesia ?? Taking a little girl away from her father ......but then again, it was his idea for me to take Angel with me to Indonesia and he didn't mind it at all, he gave his consent... but why I felt so bad ???

I said to AngeL that she can fly back with him and come and go as she pleases in term of being with whoever she like... I never put any restriction toward his father to come and visit. It must be hard for AngeL... because when she is with her father and myself meaning she's away from my family, especially from her grandmother whom she loves so dearly... she's confuse and that's killing me !! I felt like I can't please anybody... catch 22. I want Angel to spend time with her father which mean taking Angel away from her grandmother .... dilemna ?? indeed....

Her father go back and forth to visit her here in Indonesia but eachtime he has to go... she cried :( - and my mom refuse to leave our country to be with us in Australia... so I am stucked in this emotional roller coaster ! Not a big problem but a counted one eachtime something occured.

I felt kind useless... doesn't matter what I choose, must be hurting someone in process !

Perhaps, we should stop thinking about ourself as an adult... must think what's best for AngeL instead :) - after all she's the one in emotional roller coaster.. poor lil' AngeL *hugs*

I don't know what to do thou still............. any suggestion ???? :)