I haven't been here for awhile now... somehow life consumed me and amazingly taking so much of my time lately. I am running errand like a mad chook =p What's been happening lately ?? well... my bro got married !! Finally he's given up being a JOMBLO ( Bachelor ) and decided to marry his girlfriend of 2 years. By Western standard perhaps 2 years not that long enough to get to know someone before marrying but in Eastern standard it is kinda : GET MARRIED ALREADY !! xixixxi I miss him great deal.. he is my bro as well my best buddy. I miss having him around and stay up late with him and just chillin' talk about nothing or gone somewhere on his motorbike to get something or whatever. I understand that he is a husband now........ and I don't want to let him go but... that wouldn't be fair, right ?? after all he is still going to be around and being a bro always...... just a little less time :D darn ! hihihi... I'm going to miss him but being a big sister I must keep that to myself... I have to learn to let my baby bro enjoying his life with his new Bride and be happy. His happiness is my happiness as well. :) As for me..... I am busy doing so many things - my time always being used for doing something for others :) I need a holiday ! ....what am I talking about ? I am on holiday of a lifetime ! Doing what I enjoy most... helping others... I just hope that someday I can do more for them. I'm getting older... my hair start to show its age :D few greys there lol.. nevertheless, my mind can still be like a child sometime ! In deep thinking sometime but joking about most of the time.... I'm still alone, single and just being a mother for my AngeL who is 11 years old now :) - and she still won't accept anyone ie: men, in my life... I mean she get along with some of my male friends but she won't accept if I get too close with one of them. She suddenly put out these shield and protecting herself and me. I am not sure if she ever change... but either way, her happiness is far more important than mine.The stability at her age are crucial. I rather having her trust than anything else.
.... dating is challenge anyway lately :) - A total challenge when I have to pick him up and deliver him home ?? huhuhuh what the world turn into ?? Goodness... Have the world gone sissy in the male territory ?? hieheihihi... The role had reversed ?? I am a strong and independent woman and drive my own wheels anywhere by myself but when it comes to dating ....please... even a strong woman need to be treated special sometime :D - Am I whingeing ?? maybe... but I just can't see dating someone who want me to pick him up from his house for a date and deliver him back home afterward while I had to drive a long way back to my home........ and I have to pay for the date ?? bllaaarrghhhhhhhhhhhh !! Just because I am older doesn't mean I have to provide for dating !! Bloody hell... Those boys just assume that I am older, got steady job, got money, etc therefore I am vurnerable ? Therefore I will surrender myself to any boys ?? GIVE ME A BREAK ! I don't need those type of boys !! Thank you very much... I do not expect for them to pay all the time when going out with me BUT don't expect me to pay everything everytime when we go out either !! Where's their pride... So I rather be alone than going out with some sissy who just want to take advantage of me. Sexually or financially... I just can't believe some of them. One want to visit me from a distance place..... but he expect me to pay for his accomodation.. huh ?? he wanted to see me but he expect me to pay for his accomodation :D *sigh* what a cheapskate ! So , I give up dating and just get on with life... as long as I am happy, I do not need to seek happiness elsewhere......... :) Perhaps one of this day... A proper gentleman will come along and treat me right... don't have to be like a princess but just respectfull and NORMAL !! not like some of those boys who think that they GOD's given to women ?? Eugh... *puke* lol. So........ enough rambling for now... I must train my hand and brain to be able to write again... my mind rather slow at the moment :D Enough for now..... take care and be happy :) xo
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