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~*~ Letter To You All ~*~

04.13.04 (1:11 pm) [edit]

Dearest Family & friends...

Last night, was the scariest night I've ever had in my entire life. Just passed sunset - suddenly I had a total panic attack and felt the world swallowed me to darkness and I can not come out of it. I felt so isolated and my mind stopped functioning - my legs both gave away and I was on the floor devastated by the fact that I can not control this feeling anymore. Honestly , I was crying for no apparent reason but I burst out crying as if I was gonna die. Now ... some part of my body truly not functioning and I am using only lil' portions of my brain now to write this - I am writting this just incase I can no longer writting anymore after today....
Everything is changing form last night, I was lucky to have my daughter and my ex here in my house last night , they are waiting for me all night as I was LOST - my body was not functioning so does my brain - they were going to take me to the hospital but I refused as that would make me even crazy not having my familiar surrounding but if tonight I have another attacks - they will have to take me to the hospital ... to be treated accordingly with hope that I can cope better with all the effects of this Brain Tumour. My head hurt so bad that a headache no longer bother me - I just wanna smashed my head last night !!! My emotion state had gone into decline , my sense of taste and smell had gone , if u burn my skin I wouldn't be able to feel it at this stage... yeah .. it is that bad. Most of all my mind almost fading away ...So my family and friends , before all my mind gone I would like to you all to know that I always thinking of all of you and treasure all we had and will try to keep what we had and hold it for as long as I can until my mind completely gone *hugs* I am sad by the facts that perhaps one day I can not remember any of you but I believe that I will come back and embrace all of you once again but for now I would like publicly apologize to all of you if I;ve done some wrong doing in the past - I really am sorry :) *hugs* - pls know that I love each of you... I am scared of this changing.. :cry:

Teman-teman tercinta....

Tadi malam saya takut sekali dan tidak tau apa yang terjadi dengan diri saya yang tiba2 jatuh dan badan saya tidak berfungsi seharusnya terutama jalan fikiran saya dan fungsi otak saya. Saya tiba2 terjatuh ketika berdiri dan menangis sejadi-jadinya tanpa sebab - terasanya duni hendak menelan saya dan saya tidak bisa keluar dari situ. Kaki saya tidak berfungsi dan untungnya kebetulan ada bekas suami saya dan Nanda menolong saya mengatasi masa kritis itu - saya takut sekali - mereka hendak bawa saya ke RS tapi saya tidak mau karena akan membuat saya lebih asing lagi kemungkinan. Tubuh & rohani saya sudah tidak tahan lagi dengan Tumor otak dan efek nya untuk sekarang, meskipun belum di operasi - fungsi2 tubuh saya sudah tidak normal. Saya menulis ini semua mumpung saya masih bisa karena sewaktu-waktu mungkin saya bisa langsung di bawa ke RS - jadi dalam kesempatan ini saya mau minta maaf sama semua teman2 yah.. misalnya saya ada kesalahan yang disengaja atau tidak - namanya juga manusia , saya banyak khilafnya.
Saya takut sekali suatu hari mungkin tidak bisa mengingat siapa kalian karena Tumor nya mungkin mengganggu jalan fikiran saya , jadi mohon maaf yah tapi mudah2an suatu hari kalau semuanya berjalan lancar saya akan bisa mengingat kalian lagi.... saya sedih sekali bila itu terjadi tapi untuk sekarang saya mencoba untuk menyimpan semua kenangan2 indah yang kita jalanin bersama dan saya sangat hargai itu dan akan saya ingat2 sampai fungsi otak saya hilang sama sekali *mudah2an tidak* - tadi malam saya di tungguin sama keluarga saya yang disini, adik & mama belum bisa dateng ke Perth - tapi syukur keluarga kecil saya bersama saya tadi malam - mereka tungguin saya yg sedang " HILANG " - saya sempat tidak sadar siapa saya dan saya memang takut sekali ...
Jadi ya kalau saya jarang posting saya harap kalian mengerti yah...
Saya akan selalu ingat dan sayang sama kalian semua.. makasih supportnya selama ini *hugs*
Pagi ini saya akan ke dokter dan mungkin lihat apa ada opsi lain buat saya... wish me luck ok.

Take care y'all *hugs*

Cheers ! Thanks for everything *hugs*

posted by: As-Te-Rix (reply)
post date: 04.12.04 (8:01 pm)

:( saya akan support doa dari tanah air .. hugs

posted by: abang (reply)
post date: 04.12.04 (10:35 pm)

..... doa abang dan semua untuk kesembuhan dinda...

posted by: LuDu (reply)
post date: 04.13.04 (3:34 am)

praying for my dear Sista...
cepet sembuh sis...
*HUGZ*

-daiskui-

posted by: siadi (reply)
post date: 04.13.04 (5:31 am)

*hugs*

posted by: newbie (reply)
post date: 04.13.04 (11:41 am)

saya juga bantu doa dari jauh ....big hugs

posted by: djastro (reply)
post date: 04.13.04 (2:10 pm)

sabar dan tawakal;
smoga bisa melewati cobaan dari-Nya dan cepat sembuh bisa kumpul kembali dgn sanak-famili dan teman-teman.

posted by: MonAmour (reply)
post date: 04.13.04 (6:21 pm)

Reply to: As-Te-Rix
Terima Kasih Pa :) - hugs - and thanks 4 everything yah ..

posted by: MonAmour (reply)
post date: 04.13.04 (6:23 pm)

Reply to: abang
Your supports mean loads to me - mudah2an ALLAH SWT membalas kebaikan abang dan teman2 berlipat ganda amien.
Amien buat doa2nya..

posted by: MonAmour (reply)
post date: 04.13.04 (6:25 pm)

Reply to: LuDu
*hugz* I will get better sis ... but all just take time I suppose and I am patient with it and believe that all will be okay, I am in good hands - I can;t wait to kick some azz with u again !!

posted by: MonAmour (reply)
post date: 04.13.04 (6:26 pm)

Reply to: siadi
*hugs* - piye jalan2e Mas Adi ? :D oleh2nya mana... ??

posted by: MonAmour (reply)
post date: 04.13.04 (6:27 pm)

Reply to: newbie
Amien buat do'anya , *big hugs* makasih yah..

posted by: MonAmour (reply)
post date: 04.13.04 (6:29 pm)

Reply to: djastro
sabar dan tawakal adalah beberapa dari "senjata" saya dalam menghadapi semuanya dan temen2 supports my life line , amien Rez buat doanya , makasih yah Rez ... *hugs*

posted by: abhirhay (reply)
post date: 04.13.04 (7:21 pm)

semoga kesabaran, ketabahan dan tawakkal tiada berpisah dari sisi hati seiring dg hujan ridha dariNya yang turun tiada henti... salam...

posted by: INa (reply)
post date: 04.13.04 (8:24 pm)

cepet sembuh ya..God Bless You..i will pray for you..:))

posted by: beranda (reply)
post date: 04.14.04 (10:52 am)

yang sabar ya? semoga cepet sembuh. ribuan doa dari kami

posted by: Ray (reply)
post date: 04.14.04 (7:35 pm)

Tiada apa yg lebih yg dapat ku berikan padamu.
Tak ada sesuatu yg istimewa yg dapat kupersembahkan untukmu,
Hanya doa yg tulus kupanjatkan pada-Nya untuk kesembuhanmu dan kesehatanmu.
Cepat sembuh mom.. cepat sehat seperti sedia kala dan maafkan jika kadang aku lalai beroda, maafkan pula jika terkadang aku lupa mengunjungimu meski hanya dari blog ini.
- Miss Ya my daisuki-
*hugs n kiss*

posted by: Olin (reply)
post date: 04.14.04 (7:54 pm)

Cepet sembuh yah Jes... *hugz* :/

posted by: Dino (reply)
post date: 04.15.04 (8:47 pm)

hope u`r angel will always take care of u *hush* cepet sembuh yah

posted by: Mas.. (reply)
post date: 04.16.04 (7:22 pm)

GOD knows everything..
GOD's hands will touch you and release your pain..
GOD bless you, angela and ur family..

Huge Love and continuesly prays from me and my family

posted by: MonAmour (reply)
post date: 04.19.04 (1:31 am)

Reply to: abhirhay
Terima kasih abhirhay :) , amien buat doa2nya... salam

posted by: MonAmour (reply)
post date: 04.19.04 (1:33 am)

Reply to: INa
Makasih INa :) .. mudah2an kebaikanmu dibalas olehNYA berlipat ganda ... amien... Ya Rabb

posted by: MonAmour (reply)
post date: 04.19.04 (1:37 am)

Reply to: beranda
Iyah Nda ... makasih :) , buat ribuan doanya dan supportnya... mudah2an beranda sekeluarga mendapat balasan berlipat ganda... amien Ya Rabb..

posted by: MonAmour (reply)
post date: 04.19.04 (1:41 am)

Reply to: Ray
Its ok Ray... I know u r there :)
Makasih yah supportnya selama ini.. *hugz*
Miss chatting with u and joke2nya :)) hihihihi , take care yah Mas.. *hugz*

posted by: MonAmour (reply)
post date: 04.19.04 (1:43 am)

Reply to: Mas..
GOD bless u Mas and your family. I know I will be FINE is GOD's hands .. u know I believe :) *hugz*

posted by: MonAmour (reply)
post date: 04.19.04 (1:45 am)

Reply to: Olin
Makacih Olinnnnn mwa mwa mwah *hugz*

posted by: RYKERS (reply)
post date: 04.21.04 (1:00 pm)

oiiiii gak tau knapa musti tulis comment dari pada bisulan

posted by: RYKERS (reply)
post date: 04.21.04 (1:03 pm)

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