Ugh.... recovering from Asian Flu and Chicken pox !!! Both myself and my daughter just recovered from those mentioned above =p - almost there.... we just need the right food to gain our strength then we shall be on our way to healthy living again !! Can't wait !! Being down for almost 3 weeks was not nice... sleeping.... sleeping... sleeping and courses of antibiotic was not our cuppa tea at all but Thank GOD now we both on the road of recovery... slowly but sure. At least my little Angel start to eat again and her smile returning........... this is my piece of heaven on Earth :) The rain still coming and going here in Indonesia at the moment. Some part of the country just baddly damaged by the flood... another bad disaster that occurs here currently plus... we are threaten by 3 volcanoes eruptions - One of the big volcanoes The Merapi is on high alert - I was listening to the news this morning and it is "angry" - it would be huge disaster if when the volcano finally erupting. People near by had been advice to move out of their home and living in provided camps - not a luxury indeed but it is an emergency...... sometime in this kind of moment I ask myself : How this kind of suffering experienced by humans when GOD is so loving and caring.....? Then , I close my eyes and remembering all the good things that GOD had given us for so many years... each day is a gift from GOD therefore... a "little" suffering by comparison to GODs graces is nothing.. After all GOD never give us any "trials" without " rewards " but we need to look deep within ourself to find the answer to GOD mysterious ways :) I believe in magic and all the little things that happen each day is magical ! Miracle infact... want example ?? isn't magical how you wake up in the morning and see the sun for another day ? magical that you still can breathe each day ?? and many other GOD gifts to us - it is GOD kindness that make us what we are NOW ! Let me tell you little story by how kind GOD is ........ Once, GOD took all the think that was matter so much to me and I was one arrogant and proud about .... flaunted it whenever I can.... picking on someone less fortunate than myself ... bluntly putting ?? I was a bitch ! ............ but.......... One day GOD decided to "teach" me a lesson or two... My smart brain being "tampered" so I lost control over my life, lost my ability to think , to see and to make any sense of anything...
GOD took my long brown beautiful hair which I thought was most exotic part of me - GOD took it away and left me with half balded head with 100 of stitches on it !!
My beautiful body was also taken away - GOD gave me a lesson not to be too proud of my outter appearance.... GOD gave me most fat, ugliest, yucky body in exchange .... no one would look at me twice - my face was swollen like some beach ball :)
My exotic face was also being taken away, the porcelain clean face was full of pimples and flaky skin..... I was scared to look at myself in the mirror !
GOD took everything that was beautiful on my outter appearance..... ..........But... GOD so amazing and so good to me and my daughter and my family...... why ? GOD took everything to teach me a very valuable lesson - GOD taught me to be humble , accepting, respect others, value life and content and many other lesson - mostly lesson for my inner soul. GOD gave me peace and serenety... most of all GOD gave me the best gift after those hard time... Being able to raise my daughter again - this is the best gift of all :) - being trusted to still looking after my daughter and strength within me .. Now, GOD gave me everything back and more ... Alhamdulillah... Why I raised this ?? 4th of May is one of those day that I couldn't forget for the rest of my life.... the day my daughter almost lost me...therefore I thank GOD everyday for everything that GOD has given me. It is 2 years since those dark day, people and friends come and go but GOD and my daughter never left me... so it is clear to whom I should put my priority to :)
In my heart those are whats important to me now.... not those fair-weather friends ! Anyway... be healthy, be wise , be happy and appreciate what you've got because you never know when all of those thing could be taken away from you... including yourself and people that you care about. Life is good..... Take care my friend........ I love you all :)
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