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~*~ How Could I ?? ~*~
07.08.04 (11:22 am)   [edit]
How could a person so nice can be hurtful in same time ?
I always think that I am a good mother for my Angel, perhaps not to everyone but to Angel I have always been a good mother...... so it is hurt so much when someone told me that I have not always been a good mother. :cry:
I never felt pain in my heart as much as I felt last night ...
I was having a good week and feeling a bit better physically. I was smiling and laughing with Angela and joke about with my Mom on the phone , it has been a great few days for me until last night .... all being ruined by selfishness !! How dare this person telling me that I was not always been a good mother to Angel !!!
Tears was streaming down my cheeks - I shut my mouth from saying anymore words or I would be loud and use filthy language to this person. I have been learning to control my anger for quiet sometime... I do not like fighting to anyone especially at this stage of my life. I was angry but I chose to be silent.
After all the happy discussion and plan , this person just talk about shit !! and dare enough telling me I am a terrible mother ...... people can call me many names and I would not care but to be call a BAD MOTHER ?? that get me the most !!! I was feeling so angry that I felt like I want to kick this person ass to hell !! GGGGGRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR !!!!

Eugh.... what a jerk !!
Before I went to sleep last night, I look back , in the last 7 years if I have been a terrible mother for Angel ... I tried my best being a single parent without the help of anyone , not even my family as they all are in Indonesia. I tried , I tried and still trying to be the best Mom for Angel .....
I held my Angel last night in my arms and whispered to her an apology if I was a bad mom for her all this time...
I said to her that I was sorry for the bad things I've done to her ....... I smacked her bottom couple of times when she was so naughty but not often as I am pretty lay back kind of mother and she is not a difficult child to raise - is that make me a bad mother ???

Early stage of Angel's life perhaps a bit rough due to disagreements me and her father had - it was tough for any of us but I did my best despite the situation.
*Sigh* ........... why is it whenever I am happy for a bit something bad happen .... and make me cry ?

I am sorry Angel..... *hugs*

~*~ Pinta Si Fakir ~*~

Ya Allah,
sesungguhnya Engkau Maha Mendengar
perkataan hambamu ini,
Maha melihat kedudukanku, Maha Mengetahui
rahasia dan kenyataanku
Tak ada sesuatupun dari perkaraku yang samar bagiMu.

Aku adalah orang yang sengsara, fakir, takut,
Aku meminta kepadaMu
sebagaimana orang miskin meminta
Aku mengagungkanMu
sebagaimana orang yang berdosa lagi hina mengagungkanMu
Aku berdo'a kepadaMu
sebagaimana halnya orang yang takut dan dalam keadaan terpaksa memohon kepadaMu
Aku berdo'a kepadaMu
sebagaimana orang yang jiwanya tunduk berdo'a padaMu
Aku berdo'a kepadaMu
sebagaimana halnya orang-orang yang menangis karena memohon ampunanMu,
sebagaimana do'anya orang yang merasa dirinya hina di hadapanMu
sebagaimana orang yang merasa tidak ada harganya di hadapanMu.

Ya Allah janganlah Engkau jadikan doaku terhadapMu
sebagai do'anya orang yang celaka
Kumohon, curahkanlah belas kasih dan sayangMu padaku
wahai sebaik-baiknya Dzat yang Dipinta dan
sebaik-baiknya Dzat yang Pemberi.

Hamba MU yang Fakir

 


posted by: Ray (reply)
post date: 07.07.04 (5:51 pm)

dont be worry you still best mom for angel, always n always



posted by: As-Te-Rix (reply)
post date: 07.07.04 (8:43 pm)

kebetulan saya melihat langsung apa yang kamu lakukan terhadap Angela in Real Life dan itu terjadi tidak hanya pada moment sesaat sehingga saya bisa kasih pendapat bahwa kamu adalah mama yg baik, perhatian dan bertanggung jawab..

jadi santai aja lah.. ngga perlu marah atau sampai merasa bersalah..

kalo yg ngomong itu seorang ibu, katakan saja bahwa setiap ibu punya style masing2 dlm mengurus anak..

kalo yg ngomong itu seorang bapak, katakan saja bahwa memang beda pendekatan yg digunakan bapak dgn ibu dlm mengurus/mendidik anak tapi tujuannya sama..

kalo yg ngomong seorang bujangan, ya tanggapi aja dgn senyum.. wong mereka blm pernah merasakan langsung bentuk kasih-sayang dan pengorbanan org tua thd anak ..

kalo yg ngomong itu seorg chatters/virtual friend yg blm pernah melihat your Real Life..
ya ini sih dodol banget kalo sampe di tanggapin opininya.. mereka bebas beropini.. tapi kamu juga bebas untuk menolak opini tsb..



posted by: abang (reply)
post date: 07.07.04 (9:18 pm)

agree with as-te-rix,

gak semua yg kita lakukan masuk dalam standar baik yg sama ditiap2 orang, begitu juga hal2 yg buruk, gak baik menurut dia belum tentu di mata orang lain..

you are a good mother



posted by: MonAmour (reply)
post date: 07.09.04 (9:04 pm)

Reply to: Ray
Thank you Mas and I hope so :)



posted by: MonAmour (reply)
post date: 07.09.04 (9:06 pm)

Reply to: As-Te-Rix
WoW !! Thanks banget buat support dan advice-nya. I love it dan nasehat2nya memang benar... dan ditambah nasehatnya datang dari the best Dad for your kids saya jadi tambah positive. Thanks banget yah Pa .... you really are the best friend I've ever have...*hugs*



posted by: MonAmour (reply)
post date: 07.09.04 (9:07 pm)

Reply to: abang
You know me lah... how sensitif kalau ada yang nyangkut2 ke Nanda , my evil side langsung keluar... thanks for the support *hugs*



posted by: SweetDiva (reply)
post date: 07.09.04 (9:29 pm)

Never let anyones words get you down! God gave you the blessing of a child, so He saw you to be fit to care for a life! You are a good mother I'm sure of it!
God bless!



posted by: SweetDiva (reply)
post date: 07.09.04 (9:29 pm)

Also remember .... ONLY God has the right to judge you!
((((hugs))))
God bless

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